Need an outlet and people who understand

[Strugglingalone]

Mumsnet keep deleting my threads and the last one had no reason whatsoever but the only way I am getting through at the moment is with random chat with people on here

Been struggling the last few days without a thread

Were you able to talk to her about what's going on and how you're really feeling?

I guess as much as I ever can but was a male Crisis team person so struggled to speak

Was so anxious, I don’t know what else is left, I can’t keep fighting on my own

I really can’t do this this evening, in a complete mess, no fight left and no one there to hear

I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have made this thread, I’m too much of a mess, I can’t fight these thoughts anymore, I’m so trapped and no one will listen, just keep going around in circles, I can’t fight this now

You are fine to have made this thread, goodness knows there are probably hundreds on here that shouldn’t be and this isn’t one of them.

Have you got some TV you can watch for a bit, to focus on that a little?

I can’t focus on anything

I can’t do this

Can we try and break it down into small chunks?
What can't you do?

Crying, it’s too strong. I can’t fight this, no one will listen

Can you call the crisis team/999/Samaritans?

Done 111/ and Crisis team they don’t give a shit, no one does

I really can’t do this

Still out here and thinking of you Struggling. You are absolutely ok to have made this thread.

I missed your second thread I think, but I was wondering have you been at this point before, when everything is so bad? (Was wondering if anything had helped before, if so)

Does the support you want in the community exist and they just won’t give it to you/ you don’t meet a threshold? Or does it not even exist with cuts? Would there be any advantage to going into hospital? (I know you said upthread you didn’t want to, and I’m not pushing it, just wondered if you’d get better care there.)

In all honesty I don’t know, I’ve never been offered anything else! I’m always asked what I want but then told what they will give me so what’s the point in asking me

I might ask about hospital - I don’t want it but maybe they will then find something else to put in place! Tbh right now I would give it a try and maybe they would see how awful night times are and not think I was just making it up

It can’t hurt to ask. Sometimes in life you just really need looking after. Especially at night. And especially if you don’t have family you are able to turn to.

I think PurpleFrames had some advice before about what to do if you got to the point where hospital looked like the least worst option.

I can’t go on like this anymore

Quickest boomerang ever, referred back to the Crisis team for assessment

(except what’s the betting they won’t actualky see me but send me straight back to community team at 9am) - been promised that won’t happen but will believe it when I see it :-/

Morning OP

I'm hoping you got some decent sleep in the night . Sorry I'm a bit confused about what you mean when you say boomerang)

I see you say evenings are the worst for you- are there any activities in your area on in the eve- which you could maybe explore now but attend when you are more able to tackle them?

So I didn’t even get a Crisis team assessment straight back to community team!

In tears, no one gives a shit!

@PurpleFrames I cancel most things, the only club I don’t cancel I do 3/5 evenings a week but at the moment I cancel everything

Did you meet with your careco?
What is offered for the next two weeks?

If nothing- I advise you attend a&e every time you feel suicidal because at least
You'd be medicated, observed and safe.

@PurpleFrames no she’s busy for the next few weeks

Nothing, no change, just spoken to my care co, asked to go inpatient, said everything as explicitly as I could and no one will listen! I can’t fight this

It's astonishing that you make an attempt on your life, are out in less than a day without and assessment and no additional input. I really don't know what to say!

Can you stay with your family? In my area we have crisis houses? I'm baffled why they are not following normal practice or even common sense!!

In a+e, was mh nurses other solution as no one has capacity to see me

This is the last chance - if I leave with nothing I’m never coming back! Can’t stay safe anymore

Curled in a ball crying, passed around like a football, no one will listen

Thank you for all your replies, I’m sorry I wasted your time

You're not wasting anyone's time 🤷‍♂️ we're all here voluntarily. How are you now xx

Back on a+e. Been seen by mh and they are sending me home with no support again

I just don’t know where to turn now