I think I'm done.

[MilkTray22]

As I lie here, tears rolling down my cheeks into my pillow, I have a really strong sense that I'm done now. I cannot take any more pain or suffering. My body and mind feel beaten and exhausted. I am so alone.

Sorry you’re having such a rough time. What’s gone wrong?

I hate my job and I'm awful at it. I have hardly any friends. No one likes me. My family have taken a step away from me. I'm basically on my own.

I live every day in intense emotional pain and I don't think I can do it anymore.

@MilkTray22
Do you have any support with what you are going through?

Phone the Samaritans and talk to them.

Or talk it through with us on MN and we will try to help you.

Tell us what has happened.

Thinking of you.🤗

How long have you had the job? Is it something hard or is it just not right for you?

Have your friends changed or are they busy with their own lives?

How old are you? Are you still at home?
Can you start looking for another job, something you might enjoy more?
Have you been to the Dr’S and spoken to them?

You only need one truly good friend to have your back and support you!

Hopefully family are not the cause of your emotional upset, generally family can be be more of a hinderance than a help.

Do you have any hobbies or a pet?

@lexiepuppy not really, I kind of want to ring the samaritans but I don't know what I would say.

@cakeandchampagne I've had the job two months. It's really hard and I'm awful at it. My friends are mainly busy with their own lives and I've lost some of them as well.

The samaritans will already know you are someone who is struggling yet brave enough to seek help. Just phone. They will help you to start the conversation.

Two months is not long at a job, it will get easier. Or you can look for something different.

Friends may be busy, but reach out as they will want to help.

Sorry you are having a hard time

Have you had something to eat today?

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources.

You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

It must be very difficult feeling that every day is like walking through treacle and I can understand how that feels both exhausting and futile. I second phoning The Samaritans. They'll know what to say and how to start the conversation. It's what they do. Or you can start by saying what you started this thread with and let them take it from there.

I could try and ring the samaritans. In honesty I don't really want to be talked out of it.

@cakeandchampagne I've had two packets of crisps today.

Maybe have a little chat with Samaritans. If you don’t like them, you can always come back here and give them a bad review.

I don't think I can at the moment. I think I would just feel stupid.

It’s actually smart to reach out for some help or support when you need it. Like when you started this thread.
Have you been outside yet today?

No, can't leave my bed at this time. I need the toilet and I can't get out of my bedroom to go.

I've been where you are. My family had taken a step back too. I promise you it gets better.

Get through each minute. Look at all of the strangers on here that have taken time out to speak to you. We care about you.

Take five more minutes to have a little cry. The. Swing your legs out of bed and get up to get a glass of water.

@blackburner thank you and I do really appreciate all the people on here that have commented.

I just think there comes a time when you can't wait any longer for it to get better, for me it has been over ten years.

Wow. Ten years is a long time to suffer.
Does your doctor know things have been so tough for so long?

I think this is the saddest post I’ve seen since I joined. You need to see your GP and tell them how you feel ASAP.
It will get better, but not if you don’t get some help xx

Thinking of you OP. I agree that calling Samaritans is a good idea.

Please see your GP tomorrow. You can’t be left to feel this way, things can change.

Please please call someone. I felt exactly how you did not too long ago and found the courage to tell my doctor. Within a week I was booked in for cbt therapy. Which I can already feel is really helping.

Sending love.

All you need to do right now OP is breathe. In and out, can you do that for a couple of minutes?
Then think about what's next, sitting up, turning over towards the side you get put the bed?
It's hard, I know, I have been you and taking it a minute at a time is all you can do sometimes and that is good enough, sometimes even now I have to stop and think to myself, just breathe. That's good enough.