They are sectioning me

[Chocolatethief]

Basically the title I got admitted last night by the police was assessed and I agreed to go into hospital so waiting for a bed but I dont want to. Today i asked to go home as I feel fine but they wont let me they have all agreed I have to go in and are waiting for a hed to be available to place me on the section so I'm stuck in a room with 2 members off staff and cant go anywhere I hate it. The staff are nice but I'm taking up space I dont need to be here.

Good morning @Chocolatethief, I hope you’ve had/are having a good sleep! I fell asleep on the sofa last night, so sorry I didn’t pop back in, bloody cold! What are your plans for the day today?

hope you have a better day today @Chocolatethief

any plans?

How’s your day been @Chocolatethief?

Really ill with a cold it's horrible so spent a lot of time in bed, had my carers round today but she only stayed 10 mins as I was ill even though I said I was struggling. Ended up in a&e again last night and spoke to mental health who said they would ask my care co to ring me and she didn't so feel pretty oet down but thankfully kind of I feel to ill to do anything other than lie in bed

it is fine to lie in bed when you feel rubbish with a cold. Glad to hear you are seeking help when you need it but it's a shame you have to fight for help and be let down by the NHS limitations.

Hope you get a good nights sleep at least. Not easy with a cold! Have you got any cold remedies in? A hot Ribena and a blanket on the sofa with netflix always makes me feel better with a cold.

Took some cold and flu at lunch time and had some beecham's cough stuff. I hate having to fight for help so much I know it's not staffs fault though it's not enough money

You’re doing brilliantly though. Looking after yourself and resting when you can. Keep fighting OP.

Think I'm dying, can you tell I'm not good at being ill was freezing now feel like I'm burning up I need this to go by the time I wake up, I'm very impatient

Is it a cold or more like flu? I honestly remember feeling like I might die when I had flu. Awful. I bloody hate being ill. Hoping you’re feeling better by tomorrow.

Think it's just a cold and I'm a wimp, dont get ill often so it really floors me when I do keep switching between boiling and hot to touch to feeling freezing

try not to strive or too much.dont put a timeline on better or getting out of this.you then always have a deadline and a point to se your failures.and this illness is one who will see something you want or love and then try to sabatage it.and it does it in the most hidden and sneakiest of ways.its after keeping you in darkness.
so if you have to re- route and gather some ways to cope with the now.then little by little day by day try doing things and wanting things you are able to achieve.
its great,fantastic,wonderful to want to get better,and to beleive in yourself.but not to the point where you get worse if you dont manage.becasue each day your hear is a success.is something brilliant.
you dont have to live like this forever.keep bugging people for help.
the nhs and mental health can be shittingly shocking in help offered.but your given it more often when you fight dirty and hard for it :D bug them.let them no you have fight in you and wont let them leave you!
those dark days dont have to smother you.
they are hard.harder still and so testing.but look at all youve come through.dont look on the years of this as tiring and bringing you down.instead flip it and think "my god what a bloody amazing human am i to have managed to keep fighting against a killer illness!"
lots of people here for you too

do you take vitamins and stuff.
i think its meant to be a nice weekend (unsure where you are.)
might a little bit of warmth on your face help,be managable? even sticking your head out the window to get some blue skys and warm rays on you.
any movies you can snuggle up with or anything you like on tv.
a book?
do you have some home comfort foods in.
do all you can to rela and rest up

Good morning @Chocolatethief, fell asleep on the sofa again! I’m the same with colds, am a wimp as also rarely get ill so seems to wipe me out, I feel your pain!
Annoyed for you too that you didn’t get the support you needed, I do understand it’s down to money ect but it just seems unfair.
I don’t really understand that part of the mental health system to be honest so I shouldn’t have too much of an opinion on it unless I do my research but it just seems unfair that you’re reaching out and there isn’t enough support.
Keep on keeping on though! And mumsnet is always here, there are some great understanding and kind people on here.
How are you feeling this morning? Both in yourself and with the cold? I find that soup and crusty bread is a saviour food wise! And plenty of cold drinks! I hope it starts to ease off for you slightly today.

Probably a silly question while you’re in bed feeling so Ill but do you have any plans at all for the weekend? Anything you’re reading, watching ect?

I hope something helps with your cold a bit.

Tried some stuff that hasn't worked for it lozenges are working the best so just keep using them, not quite as bad today as last night but that was really bad I was very hot to touch but freezing cold. The thing I dont get about my mental health is that when I didn't want the help they were adamant to give it to me and they have now gone back to just letting me he in crisis and not able to cope. I think it's as I am less of a suicide risk as long as I have feelings still but that means they are happy for me to suffer for months on end going from the past because there is less of a chance of me dying. I feel like they should have just let me die then I dont want to feel this way I'm trying to do everything I can to not feel like this and it's not working it's not good enough and I dont know where I go from here.

I understand the mental health system is very busy, but it would be great if your ‘quality of life’ was given more attention.

Keep in mind your cold is making you extra miserable right now.

There’s a spray actually which numbs your throat for you if you’re suffering with a sore throat? Think it was called ultra chloraseptic?
Also milky hot chocolate! Soothes your throat and gets calories in if you’re not up to eating much.
It’s a shame that it seems that way. I know funding is tight but I just wish they gave more help when it was asked for.
In the meantime I think just talking and talking. In real life and/or online will be very important.
I’m very glad they didn’t let you die. I know it’s so beyond rubbish, beyond shit even feeling so low but we need to work through it to get to a better place. Blocking it out doesn’t help.
Just keep on doing small things every day. Even if they seem silly they won’t be. Eating well. Doing a small thing you enjoy every day. Spending time socialising, talking to friends, chatting online. Just contact.
I don’t have all the advice in the world but I can listen without judgement.

@Chocolatethief You write so well, have you ever thought about writing a blog about your experiences, like a sort of online journal? A bit like you are doing here, though I'd disable the comments facility. Plenty of platforms could be used for this. Even if you just write it and never publish it online, it might be helpful to you to do, and to look back on in the future.

Something to think about anyway.

Make sure you drink plenty of fluids even if you don't feel like eating. Dehydration plus a nasty cold will otherwise just make you feel rougher.

Good thing is, you know it won't last more than a few days, and you'll be feeling much better soon

I wod get some spray but feel to weak to go to the shop even going to the toilet makes me dizzy even though I'm better today feel very weak not eating really or drinking I dont fancy anything although my sister has just come round with some food thankfully.

I think about blogging sometimes but dont know where I would start and a lot of the time it's hard to express how I feel although easier writing it down so would be a good idea, would like to try and raise awareness my diagnosis has such bad stigma attached to it and would love to try and change that.

Not doing great today and debating ringing the crisis team but then there is mo point and I know that it's so hard wanting help when there is none I think if I manage to get better I wa t to help people but dont know how as the NHS is so stretched I feel like it would make me sad seeing people not getting the help they need

There was paragraphs in that honest 😂

Maybe somebody could bring it over for you? Or if not there’s always amazon next day delivery! Sounds like it’s really hit you hard.
That was lovely of your sister, what did she bring? I hope you’ve enjoyed it and managed to get some extra drinks in too. If you have a thermos flask you could always make up a flask of tea when you have to make a toilet trip and leave it next to the bed so you don’t have to worry about getting up and down all the tome feeling so poorly!
I’d love to see your writing! I agree it has a bad stigma. I’m no loner on social media but before I deleted it I saw a video on some sort of mental health awareness thing on BPD that I felt was very insensitive and painted a bit of a scary picture to be honest. I imagine it’s scary to the person with the diagnosis at times but it’s terrible to make it appear scary to others.
Do you write any poetry? Or make any arty things or draw ect? All great ways of expressing too.
If you feel you need the help please do reach out. Just keep telling them you need it. I love that you want to help others. That in itself shows hugely what sort of person you are! There are so many ways to help when you feel better. You could volunteer with an organisation, you could do some sort of raising awareness (not sure what), you could just be a listening ear and so many other ways too.
I was once told that when there are things going on in your mind that have been there for a long time and when things have happened in your life that aren’t so good you can’t just make them go away no matter how much you want them to. I honestly thought you could and that’s what getting better meant. But actually it’s just learning to dull them to a more manageable level and creating new thought patterns and ways of speaking to yourself and taking care of yourself that make those things smaller.
The things we want to go away to make us better won’t ever go away but they don’t make us broken.
My phone ruins most of my paragraphs too! And “corrects” things for me regularly!

Hmmm... re-reading my post and my phone has “corrected” a few things for me...
*time not tome
And
*longer not loner (although that one made me chuckle)
I should really use the preview option!

Hope you get better soon OP and get through your challenging times

I'm on a flaming 136 again, lifes going great clearly (sarcasm) a lot of the staff here I know though which kinda helps one however thinks I should be admitted though which I dont want but she says i will just be in this cycle every day otherwise so dont know what's for the best another 3 days in is still not gonna change anything.

You would probably get some extra sleep, which could only help your cold.