Lost all hope.

[Lostthepointoflife]

Posting here as a last resort. No one cares about me anymore. I can’t talk to my parents. I don’t want to bother my friends anymore with my problems.

I’m falling behind at school. My anxiety keeps worsening, my panic attacks are getting worse. I can’t stop harming myself. Tried counselling but given up. Everyone’s getting tired of me and I don’t want to bother anyone anymore.

Anxiety is worsening, depression is worsening, panic attacks are getting stronger. I can’t go on antidepressants as too young. No one will care anymore if I go. There’s nothing I want to do more than just end it all.

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.
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We do hope you're ok, OP. Do go and talk to your parents about how you're feeling. We're sure they'll want to know and help you.

How did things go from bad to worse lately?

@Lostthepointoflife How are you feeling today? Here to chat if I can help?

@cakeandchampagne some events that have happened over the last few months have come down on me at once, and that piled with exam stress

@unicorndaisy today’s been worse if anything, I was lucky and only had one panic attack (so far) as opposed to 2-3 but overall I’ve been so stressed out and can’t cope. I’ve been falling behind in class and have to keep leaving which means I miss out on notes which isn’t ideal with exams in a few weeks and GCSES soon

@Lostthepointoflife I'm sorry to hear that today has not been a good day for you and I'm sorry that you feel that you have no one to talk to.

What I can be sure of is that people do care about you and that people who love you will not be getting tired of you. I can however appreciate that you feel this way though.

Would you feel able to text someone for support? Young Minds run a text service. The number is 85258 and you start your text with YM to that number and your text will be answered by people who can help.

Please keep talking and getting support xx

@unicorndaisy have been using Samaritans a bit too. Text to young minds won’t go through for some reason so a bit stuck for now might have to try talking to my teachers again, even though I’m sure they’re getting fed up of me by now

I'm sorry you're feeling so rough, and I hope you find some help. All I can say, is that I lost my sister to suicide, and it has been unimaginably awful and painful for everyone that cared about her, and I will miss her forever. Don't ever think that you are a burden or that people would be better off without you, it isn't true. It's just your illness saying that.

This is a service I heard of recently: www.giveusashout.org

Have you ever been assessed for dyslexia? Undiagnosed dyslexia can cause serious anxiety and mental health problems. Have you had blood tests done to test for thyroid function, vitamin and mineral deficiencies, iron levels? All of these can cause mental health problems.

Are you year 10? Maybe start researching what your options are for after school - you only need enough GCSEs to get to the next stage - would thinking like that ease some of your anxiety?

💐Please please please get help. Is there a chance you can start counselling sessions again with a different counsellor? Speak to your teachers again, they will understand and will want to help you. I know you said you can't speak to your parents but they may surprise you. It may seem awful right now but change is possible. Be kind to yourself.

@chocolateworshipper I was assesed for dyslexia a while back and I don’t have it. I think I might have throws issues but uncertain, I do have low iron levels. I am in year 10. AFAIK, I am on track (atm-likely will change after exams) to get the grades I need to take the subjects I want at A-Level, and luckily the jobs I am considering don’t require grades such as level 8 and above. In some sense knowing this does help with my anxiety

@blessthekids i am likely to go back to the GP in a week or so (depending on when I can get an appointment) will try to get counselling again, or see what they say. I’ll likely talk with parents over the weekend, will try my teachers in the meantime

@RedSheep73 I am so sorry for the loss of your sister💐

@Lostthepointoflife Childline have a number of support services too:

www.childline.org.uk/get-support/1-2-1-counsellor-chat/

Please do talk to a teacher tomorrow they will help you and can help to get you support. Your teachers will not be getting tired of you and will want to help you. Xx

Going to try to sleep now and will come back in the morning...first exams tomorrow, so nervous right now 😬

op can you go to your gp and tell the problems you have-anxiety, depression, panic attacks and have your iron levels checked.
my dc is in similar situation and takes berocca which i think helps a bit.
you sound very clever and mature, i am sure you will get your targets.

Good luck for tomorrow and good night.

wish you all the best luck for tomorrow, i am sure you will do very well.

@Lostthepointoflife Good luck for your first exam. Let us know how you get on and that you're okay tomorrow. Good night xx

yes, let us know. xx

So sorry to hear you are feeling so low I hope you reach out to someone in RL take care and best of luck for tomorrow 💐

Goodnight OP. There will be help
on here tomorrow if you need it. X

I am so sorry that you are feeling bad at the moment and hope that you will follow up the Young Minds link.

Honestly, in the great scheme of things, the exams are not that important - the world will keep turning. The most important thing is for you to feel well.

It is really very common to feel as you do at your age and it will pass - I know that seems hard to believe.But you do need some help. Perhaps speak again to your GP as he could refer you for help - and that could include anti-depressants - my DGD of 13 takes them and her life has improved. It is right for some and not for others.

There will be support at school too - I am sure they are nor fed up with you - there are teachers who have a responsibility for pastoral care, and they do understand. My DGD has found them very good at her school. It is part of the illness of depression to think that people are fed up with you.

Good luck for tomorrow

Best of luck for tomorrow OP
Do go back to your GP ASAP.
Anxiety is treatable, you will get better with help and support. Don't lose hope x

Best of luck for your exams