Lost all hope.

[Lostthepointoflife]

Posting here as a last resort. No one cares about me anymore. I can’t talk to my parents. I don’t want to bother my friends anymore with my problems.

I’m falling behind at school. My anxiety keeps worsening, my panic attacks are getting worse. I can’t stop harming myself. Tried counselling but given up. Everyone’s getting tired of me and I don’t want to bother anyone anymore.

Anxiety is worsening, depression is worsening, panic attacks are getting stronger. I can’t go on antidepressants as too young. No one will care anymore if I go. There’s nothing I want to do more than just end it all.

Your parents are responsible for your care until a certain age (which varies by country).
But there are laws to protect you if your parents don’t do what is needed for your health and safety.
You need to tell your GP about the self-harm & the suicidal thoughts, so you can get help.

Morning all, exams start today

Next week I’ve decided that my parents will know a better picture of self harm, suicidal thoughts etc so will go doctors then

So nervous for today have 3 exams

Best of luck with exams, please remember that whatever you exam results, there is always a way forward 💐.

Good luck with your exams op

Good luck with your exams today!

Trying to count positive things today. I managed to stay in all exams despite having really bad anxiety. 1/3 went well! A teacher told me “if you tried your best that’s all that matters” which I found rather helpful today (even with 2/3 going badly)

“if you tried your best that’s all that matters”
That’s a good teacher!

Well done on the exams!

Well today’s been horrible. I’ve failed the exams, and was talking to a teacher and said about how I want to end it so I’m going back to the doctors. The school also directly phoned CAHMS, so I can get an appointment quicker.

This evenings going to be terrible once I go home. Feeling panicky about it

Sorry that today's been rubbish. It's good that the school are involved and taking how you feel seriously.

It's very frustrating all the wait times for appointments and support, but please, if you are feeling absolutely desparete with suicidal thoughts, please go to your nearest hospital with an A&E department, do you have one near you? xx

I’m sorry about the exam results. But that is more a reflection of your stress, rather than your abilities.
You expect the evening is going to be terrible...... because of your parents’ reactions??

I was nervous about what my parents would say. Luckily, I was picked up from school last night So was able to have the conversation in the car which made things easier.

So nervous about what they’re (school) going to say today, I have to talk to some teachers I was avoiding They’re phoning social services tomorrow, already have phones CAHMS and my county’s mental health services

Sorry to hear you are having such a bad time.
Please take all the help you can get. Do not lie or not tell. I really hope you get the help you need. Don't beat yourself up about the exams, you can do them again at some point. The most important thing right now is to get as much help as possible. Wishing you all the best.

It sounds like the school is really trying get some help started. I hope you and your parents will provide all of the information needed.
Hugs to you.

Likely being pushed up the CAHMS waiting list, the GP was phoned and is also trying to push it as well as the school. This time I won’t leave anything out no matter what my parents say, after all at the end of the day it isn’t about what they want I guess.

Had to retake an exam today as I missed part of it

Tomorrow social services are being called AFAIK, does anyone know what could possibly happen after they’re phoned?

Can't help you there. But bear in mind that you can ask gp or therapists etc. To not have your parents present. So glad that things are moving forward a little.
Best of luck.

It is all about you. Your health. Your safety.

I’m sorry some of the adults in your life have made things more difficult.

I am pleased to say the toughest week is now behind me. Come Monday I have my last exams, so things will hopefully be less stressful (until DofE)

For now school have set up for me to speak to the school nurse weekly as (in some sense) a form of counselling. On Monday/Tuesday have to make a plan on what’s happen if I needed to self harm in class and panic attack strategies.

Well done on getting some help & support!
Remember nurses get a lot of training- you can tell them/ask them anything.
Be kind to yourself as you prepare for your exams on Monday.

Been accepted my CAHMS. Going to be seen within the next 18 weeks. Just hoping tomorrow won’t go too badly

Glad to hear CAHMS is in process.
Good luck with your exams!
(And reward yourself after!)

So glad you are getting help. Hang in there.

Hiya all. Going back to the GP tomorrow, after a few unexpected events today. Had the urge to self harm, managed to overcome it (getting exam results haven’t helped. Although they are apparently good given the circumstances )

Taking the day off tomorrow (was advised to) to sort some things out. I feel as though in the long run it’ll physically and mentally be better for me

Well done on resisting the urge & taking good care of yourself!
Best wishes for your day off (do something fun!) & GP appointment.

Still rooting for you.

Had my appointment. They’re writing to CAHMS again and are strongly considering ADs. Doctor told my parents to make sure they lock away ALL medicine, and sharp knives (to prevent me ending it all).

As they (parents) don’t understand I think I am going to point them in the direction of the child mental heath boards on here. Dreading returning to school as I don’t even want to know the exam results anymore as the past ones have been so bad (ranging from 21-45%). However, ‘luckily’ we have a trip tomorrow so I don’t have to have a chat with the head and returning should be easier (hate Thursdays!).