Lost all hope.

[Lostthepointoflife]

Posting here as a last resort. No one cares about me anymore. I can’t talk to my parents. I don’t want to bother my friends anymore with my problems.

I’m falling behind at school. My anxiety keeps worsening, my panic attacks are getting worse. I can’t stop harming myself. Tried counselling but given up. Everyone’s getting tired of me and I don’t want to bother anyone anymore.

Anxiety is worsening, depression is worsening, panic attacks are getting stronger. I can’t go on antidepressants as too young. No one will care anymore if I go. There’s nothing I want to do more than just end it all.

Had another depression and anxiety review/questionnaire based on the last two weeks. Many of these things have been happening for almost the past two years. I really shouldn’t have let things go on this long. But at least I’m getting things sorted now.

Those exam results are “spilled milk”- what’s done is done.
Almost 2 years is a long time- I’m glad you’re starting to get some help.

Take good care of yourself today.
(I know- it’s easy for me to say, but you have to do all the work! )

lost I'm so glad you are getting help. Please don't blame yourself for letting things go on for too long. You are very young, people much older than you don't know how/haven't got the energy to seek help, then how should you.
Really hope your parents are starting to be supportive.

Hang in there, things may be sh.., but you are doing something, getting help. If you get ads it takes time for them to work, but they do.

Re. School and exams, I know everybody is pressurizing to get through, finish the year, moving forward. But you know, you are not very far in the educational system, there is always a solution. Doing exams later on, waiting for you to feel better. Being depressed, takes your mind of everything, but it also affects your memory and does so for quite a while. Talk to those who are accessing your, your gp, school about how to go about this.

My ds didn't attend his university classes for several months, he simply couldn't. But guess what, when he started feeling better, he returned and he is up to speed and has finalized his master.

You can do this, you have years ahead of you to take those darn exams, if it doesn't work right now.

Best wishes and strenght to you.

Hiya thought I’d update you all. Spending the night in hospital, going to talk to CAHMS in the morning. My dad has started to become more supportive which is great.

Thanks for letting us know. Post again when you can.
I’m glad your dad is becoming more supportive.
Hugs to you.

Thanks for updating. Glad you get some support. Good luck with the talks. Remember you got to be truthful to get the right support.

Am now home. Spoke to CAHMS yesterday which tbh feel sh*t. I didn’t really feel comfortable talking to the person, but I do have another (the original scheduled one) in July so hopefully it’ll be easier to talk then. I am feeling better since my hospital stay now, returning to school on Thursday

Sorry you didn’t “connect” with that person.
Your July appointment isn’t far away.
I’m glad you’re feeling better!

Thanks for update. Perhaps you feel a little better because you have opened up a little. Are you 'just' talking atm or are they about to set up a treatment plan?
Best of luck, you are very strong to seek help by yourself.

I’ve NC’d, I am the OP. Today I returned to school and it was horrible, I lasted 2 lessons. Luckily I only had the morning, but I am terrified for tomorrow (full day). I have been hearing things, and after talking about it with a friend I am aware that it isn’t normal?

Sorry lost that school was bad. Don't know about hearing hallucinations, please insist on seeing the school nurse tomorrow, if possible? And talk things through with her.

Try not to focus on the hearing, I understand it is scary, but by focusing on it, I imagine it might be worse. Like when you hear a sound when home alone, and you strain you hearing so much you hear all sorts of things?

Sorry to not be of much help. Hope you feel better tomorrow.

Sorry today was difficult. Were other students a problem? Or maybe you just didn’t feel well?
It is important to tell your GP, nurse, etc. about your hallucinations. Is that part of what your parents were uncomfortable talking about?

I haven’t been able to tell anyone about that. I have said to the doctor from CAHMS in A+E but he kind of dismissed it. I actually felt uncomfortable talking to the CAHMS person, but I told him and one friend about those voices. “Luckily” it hasn’t been brought up again (I find it kind of hard to talk about).

I’m surprised the CAHMS person didn’t seem concerned. Maybe they think it will be handled at your July appointment.
I’m glad you were able to tell your friend.
The doctors will figure out why you’re having hallucinations and the best way to help you.
Hugs to you. Things will get sorted.

Hope school was better Friday. I really think you need to talk to someone, nurse, gp or if you feel really bad a&e. But please contact your school nurse asap. Hope you have a better weekend.