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I really hope I'm not alone so I can get some advice and give some hopefully

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SunshineCake · 04/05/2019 20:03

I keep having episodes of not being able to speak. Just had my fourth one but it's different from others. Has anyone else had this?

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swimwithaview · 11/07/2019 19:48

Oh that's lovely!

SunshineCake · 11/07/2019 22:05

I hope it lasts but feel hormones might play a part soon. Still late Confused.

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SunshineCake · 15/07/2019 11:53

Hi again, how are you doing?

I woke up this morning feeling very anxious after some anxiety yesterday too. Didn't want to see anyone or leave the house but I had to walk the dog and went with my friend and I've just been shopping with dd so feel much better. Especially as I've got the rest of my day planned out.

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swimwithaview · 15/07/2019 13:27

Well done for getting yourself out, sounds like it had the right effect.

I'm OK thanks, had a nice weekend. My work is a bit sporadic at the moment so I'm not really in any routine so I'm a bit all off the place with time at the moment. I'm also late - no emotional hormonal effects but physically I feel a bit uncomfortable. Stupid periods. When's therapy this week?

SunshineCake · 15/07/2019 19:09

Therapy is Wednesday this week.

I've just been very upset. I think I made my point with dh and ds but I don't know if it was right or being in my child zone.

I'm so tired and late by 26 days and can't eat chocolate as intolerant Sad.

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swimwithaview · 15/07/2019 22:50

I expect they will survive! I’ve eaten my body weight in sugar today. Tired.

SunshineCake · 16/07/2019 16:21

Another parenting fail. Dd was being rude repeatedly so I told her she was being a cow. I have apologised but she won't accept it and has gone off in a huff. Risky when she needs a minimum of two lifts today and potentially some money.

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SunshineCake · 16/07/2019 16:23

Hope you are less tired today.

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swimwithaview · 17/07/2019 15:07

Hope therapy goes/went well today.

I was still knackered because I'm an idiot who doesn't go to bed early enough! Slept for hours last night though. Hate this heat, I think that finished me off yesterday.

That doesn't sound like a total parenting fail. Your daughter is old enough to know better. Sometimes you have to let them see how their behaviour affects you.

SunshineCake · 17/07/2019 16:15

Therapy today but right now too angry with DS to post. Maybe in a minute. We've paid for optional extra lessons in his GCSE subject and he's missed it as I thought it was one day and he didn't check or correct me. He can't have it another day so it will be September now and we've lost the money, nearly £20. Though she's offered a few minutes extra. At the next one which is kind of her.

THERAPY was good, enlightening, freeing but also scary about what certain bits will mean for me.

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swimwithaview · 18/07/2019 17:04

Oh that's annoying!

I'm glad therapy was good anyway.

SunshineCake · 18/07/2019 20:41

It's taken so many attempts to explain why I said something in therapy to dh and to get some kind of response from him equating to what I needed. I'm not sure he understands or is happy about it but tough really.

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swimwithaview · 19/07/2019 19:56

Yes, tough! He might not understand everything or be happy about it, some things are just like that!

SunshineCake · 20/07/2019 11:46

It's a full on hormonal day I think. Dh is annoying me. I'm cold having got wet twice. I'm shattered after a broken night and early start. Dh is so engrossed in what he is doing he isn't listening to me and I am sick of repeating myself.

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swimwithaview · 20/07/2019 18:09

All that before midday!

I was at a sewing class. Now off to a party that I wish I hadn’t accepted the invitation for, but hey ho, I’m sure it will be ok when I get there. I really had to force myself out the door for the sewing thing this morning and it was worth it. Just feeling quite lethargic this week.

SunshineCake · 20/07/2019 18:38

Maybe leave a bit earlier?

I'm very low today. Had enough of breathing.

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SunshineCake · 20/07/2019 20:54

And now I can't speak

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swimwithaview · 20/07/2019 23:16

It was fine.

I’m sorry you’re feeling so low. Did anything particular tip you over?

Don’t worry about the speaking for now but you do need to keep breathing Flowers

SunshineCake · 21/07/2019 07:12

I honestly don't know and trying to work it our feels impossible. I know it must be hormones as I'm more than a month late and I feel depressed but I already know I won't be able to talk when dh wakes up. I'm going to get up and showered and try and get downstairs before anyone wakes up. Might take doggy for a long walk on my own too. Thank you.

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swimwithaview · 21/07/2019 11:13

Hope you got out for a nice long walk, that sounds like it was a good idea.

I wonder if having to keep repeating yourself had something to do with it? Look after yourself today, get an early night if you need one.

SunshineCake · 21/07/2019 17:34

Had a lovely walk but then saw a friend who told us she'd had to have one of her dogs put to sleep 😢.

Have hardly seen dh all day and he's gone out with ds now but we are going to watch something together once he's back.

Don't feel quite as bad as yesterday but not fully okay yet.

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swimwithaview · 21/07/2019 18:18

Oh that’s so sad.

Watching something sounds like a nice idea, you’re doing it together but less pressure than some things.

SunshineCake · 21/07/2019 18:39

It's hit me that the summer holidays have started. My 18 year old is away for half of it volunteering and I feel he's going off me. Complained about me being grouchy yesterday. Dd has done very little except for a daily run or walk since finishing her exams and my youngest is behind after starting GCSE coursework. Dh will take off minimal time so it's mostly all down to me. Everything goes to pot in the summer holidays. Plus I end up more knackered.

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swimwithaview · 21/07/2019 19:17

The holidays must be quite full on if you're at home.

Because it's much easier to be cheerful about other people's lives, I'm going to offer an alternative perspective Smile

Isn't it good the 18 year old is volunteering? They need to grow up and start making their own way not he world at that age, even if if it is hard to take as a parent. I doubt he's going off you. I don't think children go off their parents, they just annoy the hell out of each other sometimes! You probably were grouchy yesterday by the sounds of things, but that's OK, he's old enough to cope with that!

A walk or run sounds better than just being glued to her phone in her pyjamas all day, but I kind of think they really need the holiday and they won't have that chance often in life, maybe just let her get on with it? As long as it's not creating extra work for you.

The youngest - are you feeling like you need to chase him up? I'm pretty sure my parents had zero idea of the status of any of my coursework! But could you sit down together and figure out a plan? I'm not sure they actually get taught any planning skills.

What would make the holidays easier for you? More time out by yourself? Taking it in turns to make lunch and clear up? A few days out that everyone can agree on, or some one-to-one time with each child doing something you'd both like?

My mum has just phoned me demanding to know the exact details for something that's happening in three weeks time. It's really annoyed me, but I know I'm being totally unreasonable. I need to phone her back wren I'm less annoyed!

SunshineCake · 21/07/2019 22:21

Thank you for what you said re the kids. It really helped and I am going to read your post again in the morning as I'm going to bed now. Hardly slept last night and have loads to do tomorrow. The garden and kitchen need a good tidy and clean and I have a full laundry basket to fold and ironing to do. Will walk doggy first though

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