Morning everyone. I've been waking up early for the past few days with that horrible knot of worry in my stomach. But it isat least better than the extreme feelings of anxiety that stop me sleeping that I was having.
arghhhhh you don't sound pathetic, you've had a lot of traumatic events happen in a short space of time and they've obviously had a big impact on you. I think I can recognise some similarities with how I feel (although I haven't had to deal with so many things as you). From what you have said, it seems that you have a strong desire for order and control in your life and the anxiety starts when you lose this. Your body believes there is a threat and responds appropriately. Unfortunately when the 'threat' is just that the house is a bit untidy, the response is obviously not appropriate.
You are right that it is good to talk about it.
I know you have said it's difficult to get counselling, have you checked all possible options for this? Sometimes there are charity or council run courses (not necessarily counselling, but aimed at those with anxiety or depression) available.
Do you have any coping mechanisms at the moment that you use?
Fairy I don't take that, but I know when I've had different brands of drugs on prescription (for all sorts of things) it hasn't made any difference. I just see it as different packaging.
larla sorry you were on your own. I hope you were able to sleep ok. Does your DS understand about your anxiety and depression, that it makes some situations more difficult for you to deal with? Have you been able to think about what it is about the GF that you worry about?
Asleep How long have you been apart from ex? I know that when I split from my exH I wanted to contact him because he was the person that I was used to turning to for support (although at the same time he was the one who caused the hurt). Much better if you have someone else you can contact, or write it down somewhere or just post on here.