Anxiety support, Hand hold or chit chat come say hi #2

[Fairydust26]

Hi everyone this is part 2 as the original thread is full up! But as the title says this thread is support for all that are struggling and could do with a handhold and a chit chat so come and say hello😊.

Struggling slightly today have an event later and will see people I haven’t seen in a while... Wouldn’t say I’m purposely worrying about it however subconsciously it’s making me feel anxious if that’s even possible!. But anyway how’s everyone else getting on?.

I'm doing OK, had a breastfeeding class this morning, finished the nct so feel a bit deflated as I enjoyed the classes. We can still meet up as a group, but not sure when. And I'm worrying about the the perinatal mental health team, and medication when breastfeeding. After today I'm worried about getting blocked ducts and mastitis overnight as I'm on a sedative medication. I've got to wait nearly 2 weeks to have that discussion with the midwife and obsiatrician. I was told the perinatal team recommending an increase in dose is playing on my mind as the psychiatrists were happy with my current dose and I felt pleased that I'm stable on that dose and can stop worrying about it. I need to have another discussion as I don't even know who recommended the increase dose or why. I read with increase blood in late pregnancy dose might be increased but i allready increased my dose in the 3rd trimester and only have 4 weeks until the due date.

I'm doing okay. Going from really really excited to crying. Fairydust26 just remember you'll enjoy it when you're there.
My DS is going off on Hols on the 26th for 2 weeks and missing his birthday so struggling with that. I have to let him go he's 19 I'm not selfish and I smile and get excited for him but inside I'm dying and i know part of it is because I'm lonely.

Hope everyone is doing well today.
I woke up early but feel OK about it as its light. I had antenatal depression over the winter, without being able to go back to sleep after waking but feel better now I'm on meds and the days are longer. I've started reading the positive birth book recommended to me. I was hooked from the introduction which said pregnant women often go into either fight (treat childbirth and pregnancy like a PhD and learn everything which the a uther did) or flight (be passive, accept lack of control and 'Go with the flow' which has been my approach). Got a nice day out with dh in Oxford for his first fathers day today, or last year not as a dad?? He's wanted to go for ages but I was not mentally well last time we went and had motion sickness so hated the travel. Today I'm looking forward to it. He's been drinking recently and I've felt helpless but yesterday after a big hangover when he was upset to have missed last nct he admitted that he's been in a negative spiral and not asked for help. He says he's crappy and useless. I'm feeling positive as I know he's pulled himself out of worse depression before and has lots going for him. Our obstetrics appointment together in a couple of weeks will probably be quite intense as my care coordinator is coming too.
@fairy hope you had a good day yesterday.

Him saying he's crappy makes me feel so sad, I've been crying a bit the past couple of days but I'm glad I can let out my emotions recently, I've been avoiding conflict and doing my own thing when he drinks too much. I'm pleased we are communicating again.

It's very good that you're communicating. Not so good that's relying on Drink though. Still talking is the first step as they say.
I was also very go with flow on childbirth. It didn't help that I was in denial for about 6 months hoping it would just go away. (It as in the pregnancy not calling my DS it)
Once DS was born though I took to being a mother. I was in a strange sort of limbo though I hated being a mother and loved being a mother if that makes sense. I suppose i hated the restriction but loved my ds.( I was and still a lone parent). Looking back now that was probably the start of my depression.

@fairydust26 hope you had a good time.

Does anyone else go to sleep feeling tired and wake up feeling tired or is it just me?? I'm exhausted again today just want to crawl back to bed but heading to a football match today so will be gone all day.

When my dh puts his mind to something he's very good at it. He always said he's not going to drink around the baby as his parents were drinkers. He's decided to stop drinking alone and yesterday he tidyed and cleaned the kitchen. I was going to make him breakfast for fathers, I'd bought things but didn't want to mess up the kitchen.he wanted to make breakfast so he did as well as walking the dog. He asked if I could do the washing up, went into the kitchen and he'd done it. we're going to have a nice day out. I'm worried about motherhood, I really want children but I also feel very proud and identify with my job so I've been very distracted in this pregnancy. I also have a love hate relationship with my job and an concidering alternatives. I'd say my depression started at university, doing my radiography course. I decided then I'd finish my course, work for a few years but never wanted to be like some of the bitter older radiographers, complaining about how the NHS used to be better, good hours, less stressful, better paid etc... I didn't understand as I knew they could leave the profession get another job... I may do bank work for the flexibility.

Your DH sounds great. It's lovely that he is so supportive and that you are supportive of him.
I was thinking of changing my career but the problem is I love it. It's just not very well paid. I am doing a BA and when I am finished the most I can expect to earn is 12 euro an hour. That is a starting wage in Aldi.
I also have over 10 years experience in my field. At the moment I get 10 euro an hour. I am hoping that the new job pays a bit more.

Can I join in
Need some support right now

Currently out in garden trying to get stuck in and forget those thoughts that keep coming to the forefront

Really bad start this morning, heart beating fast on wake up
Without wanting it I was on the downward slippery slope
I got dark thoughts of this is all too much
I’m sick of having to literally find something (don’t work, well not fit to work) everyday so I sit and get the thought arriving
It’s getting to become like I’m manic
Because I don’t want to sit there
Dp said what would you do if it was raining today (crawling the walls)

Just about managing a butty now, heaving this morning
I haven’t had that for ages

How can you work with depression?
Are you on the mend now?

Mine isn't as bad as that so I can work. I think I'd be worse if I didn't work. Ait of the time I am exhausted when I get home. It's tiring pretending to be fine all day.
It helps that I love what I do.
I ha e bad days. Today seems to a teary day. The football team u20s were lining out and I felt teary. Two of them are friends with my DS so I've known them since they were young.

Also my ass is numb. These plastic seats are not comfortable. Should've brought a cushion with me.

Hi haribogirl. I hope your just having a bad day and tommorow will be better. I've had periods off work for my mental health. I was just one track minded thinking I want to go back to work, had a number of occupational health meetings where they said I wasn't fit and needed a different project but being signed off itself made me more depressed so a vicious cycle. I returned to work but only improved when I started running and came off anti-psychotics, which were making me lethargic but I had to come off them over a period of a few months. So for me excersise helped. And gardening I find good too. For me it's lots of little things but Im still up and down.

As for being manic, I was diagnosed with a psychotic episode a few years ago but looking at my notes I only ticked a few, low level boxes and was not sectioned for it. I some research on it and I personally like to think of it as a spectrum from anxiety - manic - psychotic. This is not a professional view just one I personally like. However, I saw a psycatrist more recently when I thought I was manic and asked him if he thought I was. He said it's hard to say as he doesn't know me but it seems like I'm chatty but not manic.

Hello all and haribogirl
I still feel on the up which is good, although a bit anxious as this week is a busy one for me. But propanalol takes the edge off.
Haribogirl - a couple of years back I was sign off for a few months as I literally could not do anything, the anxiety was such that I was having daily panic attacks and ended up in A&E 3 weeks in a row.
I was too much and I ended up asking my company for a sabbatical, unpaid for a year. I was lucky I had some money saved and with DH salary we could be ok.
During that time I studied something I always wanted to do as a hobby (gardening related) , did volunteer work when a few months later I felt better.
But - I was on talking therapy, CBT, beta blocker medication.
For months all I did is breathing exercises, wrote down worries, watched only funny films, read funny books, went to library, visited gardens plus therapy and medication. Had a nap and went to bed every night at 8/9 pm as my body was so exhausted.
When I was better after 6 months started that study I mentioned.
2 years later I went back to work, part time and different company.
A couple of weeks ago I had a small set back, but as I know the symptoms I went immediately to gp and I am taking beta blockers and about to start therapy again as I want to continue working.
You only know how you feel , it was so bloody hard for me at the time to stop work and allow myself to rest and kinda find myself again.
Not nice at all but you can do it, I mean you know inside you what you need, must be clouded but is there.
Have you done talking therapy or CBT? I cannot recommend it enough

I’ve had anxiety/depression on and off since I was about 23 yrs old
Currently 60 yrs old.

This episode as been since about oct last year, I’m on venlafaxine and recently Diazepam as a when needed basis. Which at the mo is everyday. 2mg
I’ve upped my venlafaxine, did it for about 8 weeks no difference really
So went back down to 150mg.
Asked Gp for propranolol (didn’t want to really have Diazepam) but I was getting light headed on standing. Also at hospital appt they took bp and it was low again. So stopped them and bp is fine now.

I’ve recently tried hypnotherapy, which cost £80 a session had 3 (I was desperate) can’t say it helped me. I had nhs cbt back in 2012, but really was too poorly to interact.

I waiting for appointment to see psychologist, which I’ve waited 8 mths upto now for but they said it should be soon.

I’ve got an appointment with secondary mh team on Friday, for assessment!! I was under them in 2011 when I was really poorly then
As Nhs funding for mh is non existant, Gp & myself have had a battle to get psych to see me again she told her to up my venlafaxine from 150 to 225mg no way was I upping that much. Were the ones with the SE of medication, so easy to say take this, try this. They did that last time 2011.
So I’m getting assessed again by them and then it goes to the multidisciplinary team meeting who will decide if I’m suitable for this service. I don’t know what I’ll do if they say NO

I need to try and not take the negative thoughts get to me, and alter my mood and thinking. It a thought !! Not real ! Easy said then done.

Any you ladies know any funny films?? Could really do with a belly laugh right now

Hugs to all

Not sure if your type of thing but I watched things like Sex and the City, Magic Mike , etc etc
not usually my type of thing but as a brainless, watching gorgeous people talk silly worked as a distraction for me.
Also used to google funny videos when I could not sleep
Night night I will try to go to bed early today!

Can i.join. feel a fraud though as am not dealing with what a lot of you are. Have criping anxiety which has got worse. Not sleeping or eating and cant process work in my head. Got so bad went to doctors last week and was signed off for 2 weeks. dread going back as fear my performance was bad due to constant worrying about minor stuff.Was given beta blickers. First session with cbt this morning. Am feeling shaking and sick.

Hi everyone, welcome to the new people.

I’m struggling just now. I’m feeling very lonely. We went to an event nearby at the weekend and it seemed like everyone was there as part of a large group whereas we were on our own. I felt really awkward going up to people and speaking to them, like I was crashing their party. It’s made me really self conscious and paranoid. The house is a total mess just now and I do not know where to start with it.

Morning everyone I hope you all managed a decent night sleep!.

wishiwasacollie welcome😊 hoping your first session went well?

Juliecloud I felt exactly the same at a recent event I went to I felt so overwhelmed forcing myself to talk to people I felt like I come across so awkward..deep down I know I probably suffer from social anxiety which is something I can add to my growing list of things wrong with me.

Hello all, I hope you are doing ok.
Yesterday I had my first talking therapy session. I am happy and comfortable with the therapist, I came out very anxious and I needed to do something so I just went for a walk. I felt the need to release some energy.
But last night I slept better than I have done in ages, a really deep sleep.
Today extrangely I feel as if I had done lots of exercise and feel body ache all over.
I am thinking if the body released tension and is manifesting that way?
I find it very interesting at the reactions of the body and mind.
Does anyone else have physical reactions after therapy sessions?

longlunch I had therapy a couple of years ago and I used to be exhausted after the session. I would sleep well that night.

My GP has recommended trying meditation. I’ve downloaded the head space app but not tried it yet.

Longlunch haven’t had therapy but can totally relate to feeling drained and as if I’ve done a full body workout after dealing or talking about anxiety. But a big well done for going it’s a big thing to do hopefully it works for you!.

Juliecloud I’ve used the headspace app couple of times the 10 free sessions are good however I don’t use it enough to justify paying for a subscription.

Bit better day today nothing like yesterday episode
Although I think it anxiety symptoms that bring on the depression as I get no rest from morning anxiety

Download soundcloud it’s free for few things
Lots of
Meditation
Mindfulness
Hypnotherapy
Podcast

Just type in what you want, not music I think you have to pay for that

Hello. New here. I posted earlier on a new thread but just saw this one so I've come here instead.

Just saw the post about tiredness after therapy - yes, I've definitely experienced that.

I've been suffering with anxiety on and off for a few years. Started from marital issues which then led to divorce and subsequent fall out. Just when I think I'm past it all, the anxiety reappears. I don't think most people understand - they think it's just a brief moment of feeling panicky.

I wonder if I can ask, if you experience these:

Completely irrational thoughts. Unable to look at things logically

Planning outlandish solutions to deal with anxiety - for me these tend to involve some way to escape, like physically going away.

Wanting to go to the hospital and just ask them to help me

Feeling unable / unwilling to cope with the physical symptoms. They become overwhelming and seemingly never-ending ending.

Sensitivity to noises or other sensations. Not all noise, but certain ones, particularly electrical/ mechanical can become uncomfortable and aggravate my symptoms.

I have had therapy which has helped me cope with things better but I still struggle to handle bad attacks of anxiety. I try grounding techniques but they don't do anything. I've tried beta blockers but they make me feel ill (I have low blood pressure).

Yes to the escape. I've thought about just disappearing and not telling anyone. In my fantasy it's to a little cabin in the middle of no where.
Before I was on medication shopping centres would stress me out. The noise and The heat would overwhelm me and I'd end up going into a dream like state( feel like I'm dreaming) I'm better now though.