Anyone around for a hand hold, waiting to be assessed under MHA

[creamhearts]

Title says it all, waiting to see if I will be sectioned.

Tried to kill myself this morning and DH had to 'save' me.

Cut twice this week needing stitches.

Everything is a huge mess.

Hate self.

You still there cream?

Sorry you are feeling so horrific, it sounds awful. Can you tell anyone in real life or is it too hard? Do you have any lorazepam or anything you can take just to take the edge off?

I really hope you have avoided acting into those feelings and are safe. Sending lots of positive thoughts x

I don't want to go back I don't want to be in hospital I don't need to be in hospital.

I need to hurt myself in a permenant way.

I feel desperate.

DH knows. Just says I am unwell.

you have to stay safe cream,
you know your dh is right, you are unwell , its like any other illness .it needs monitoring and treatment , if that means in hospital then so be it.

The desperation is horrific, I can almost feel the pain just reading your posts. I know you just want to hurt and probably can't think of anything but suicide but please just consider for a minute that it can get better. You may not feel like this for ever. There are people who love you and want you to be well. Can you use any techniques to help distract you from the thoughts?

Hospital is shit and it is not great for treatment or recovery but it's so important to keep you safe so you are still here to keep fighting this. Can you just go straight to bed when you get bac?

You have been so strong before, I know you can do it again.

I've texted you, call me if you need me x

Thinking of you

I'm new to this thread and I'm so sorry you feel so much pain. I don't want to say anything trite and I'm struggling myself at the moment, but not to the same degree. I just wish so much that you are able to hang in on there. There's a lot of love on this thread. It's renewing my faith in the world. All these people, and me can see that you are worth hanging on for. Trust them, they're right. When all your thoughts and feelings are painful, it's the illness, it's not the truth about you. The person that you were before all the shit happened is still inside you. I hope so much that you will find her again on day. You are loved

Thank you for your kind thoughts. I am back on the unit, broke my toe in the process but am back.

Feel shit.

Thinking of you

was beginning to wonder where youd gone off to,
most of us here know how your feeling cream, its a truly dark place but it doesnt last forever.
i know its more tiring to fight it, but you have the strength .
stay safe and look after your toe.

No I don't have the strength. I am so tired of this shit.

It is shit cream and I know it feels unbearable and most people can't imagine how intense the pain and desperation is but the truth is you are getting through it. You are fighting it. Despite everything you are still here and I am so glad.

I hope you manage a peaceful night and that your toe isn't too sore. Thinking of you x

Thinking about you this morning x

Sending you a hug and warmest wishes cream.

How are things today? Thinking of you and wishing you well. X

I am ok. Bit sad about everything. At home at the moment.

Well done for keeping going, creamhearts. I hope you can feel the support that you have here. I'm sure I'm not the only one who thinks of you several times a day and feels glad when I see you've managed to post something

Good that you are able to spend a bit of time at home - I bet your cat is pleased to see you

Stay safe

thinking about you too, cream.
how your toe? X

I too am glad to see your posts Cream and am glad to see you have struggled on and coped for another day.

I'm in the north and it's a lovely spring day here. Is the weather nice where you are? Are you able to get out in the garden, my psych hospital has a nice one and it helps a bit to get outside.x

Thinking about you x

Hello. Quiet day today.

Had a terrible dream before which has really shaken me up.

It was sunny here today as well :) There is a garden which I go in to smoke.

Hello cream, was it you who has been put on Aripiprazole? If so, how do you find it so far? I am on it too.

Sorry if it's not you!

Glad you had a fairly good day except for the nightmare. Hope you don't get any tonight. Take care.

Hope the sunshine makes you feel a little brighter!

I remember the first hospital I spent time in was a ward on the fourth floor so obviously no garden. It was just after the smoking ban and nurses couldn't be bothered to escort people outside so everyone including staff smoked in toilets and bathrooms. There were no end suites either so everyone stunk of smoke. Seems hard to imagine that happening now.

Hope you have a peaceful day today, thinking of you. X

how you doing today cream?

Hey! How are you tonight? X