Anyone around for a hand hold, waiting to be assessed under MHA

[creamhearts]

Title says it all, waiting to see if I will be sectioned.

Tried to kill myself this morning and DH had to 'save' me.

Cut twice this week needing stitches.

Everything is a huge mess.

Hate self.

Discharge is conditional on how I am presenting so we shall see.

But today I feel ok I guess. I am covered in a horrid rash and my ankle hurts so I think I am too distracted to feel suicidal! Oh well.

Sending hugs xx

Really hope that you will be feeling well enough to be discharged when the time comes, and that the prospect of being at home with your DH and cat will help you to keep yourself safe

How are things cream?

Thinking of you x

I am ok, down days and good days. Hopeful for discharge on Tuesday x

Thinking about you xx

So good to read your latest message, cream. The fact that you are noticing some good days is a positive. Fingers crossed for you for Tuesday

Didn't get discharged :(

I just want to do some damage, some real damage, what I deserve.

xx

Oh cream, you must be so disappointed
Any news of the specialist treatment you're waiting for?

You don't deserve to be hurt, physically or otherwise. Please know that, and be kind to yourself. I saw you posting in similar terms to someone else the other day. Try to talk to yourself the same way?

Thinking of you

Thinking about you today xx

Bit sad today, mostly fed up :(

Only just read this. Wanted to be sympathetic. In patient treatment sucks. I hate hospitals so very much. Really hope you feel better soon and the horrible brain weasels loosen their hold a little.

Not the best day and there is nobody to talk to here so I thought I would have a rant online!

Feel horrible, really self harmy, desparate to do some proper, serious damage. Damage they can't fix because I cannot be fixed. I wish I was dead. I fucking wish I could go to sleep and not wake up because what is the actual point in any of this. I am never free from feeling shit, I am never happy or satisfied. I live my life searching for something I can never find. I just want out of this fucking place so I can find some peace.

I am sorry to read this cream. I am not good with words but sending a hug and I hope you have managed to get some sleep. xx

I hope today has been a better one for you, cream. I wish there was more we could say that would help you to feel differently, but hope that knowing there are people here thinking of you gives you some comfort and strength

Cream, I am so sorry to read of your pain. From your words it really feels intolerable. I hope someone is trying to do something to help.

I am sorry I haven't been around as much recently, having a bit of a tough time. i still think of you every day and believe in your recovery.

madeuplovesong, I'm really sorry to say this, creamheart's DH posted and let everyone know that she has passed away. here

Im so sorry. So so sorry.

I don't know what else to say.

I had promised to send her something and it is still sitting in an envelope downstairs.

I am so sorry.

I'm so sorry madeuplovesong. I have been reading this thread but never posted before because I didn't know what to say, but I didn't want you to happen upon the news all of a sudden. Thinking of you as well x

Thank you Teladi.

This is Creams thread and it doesn't feel right talking about how I feel but I am overwhelmed by this devastating news.

I really believed she would get better.

madeup feel free to start your own thread. Or speak to any of us if you need support too. Have you seen her DH thread? could chat on there too. x

I think the words "Rest in Peace" have never been so apt.