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Psychiatrists hate her! One weird £5 trick for Mental Normality

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Ennn · 07/02/2015 16:53

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UpOnDown · 10/02/2015 16:30

(((( all ))))

UpOnDown · 10/02/2015 17:03

How is everyone doing?

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Ennn · 10/02/2015 17:14

I'm okay; chatted to my mum and dad a bit earlier, commiserated with each other on our current earworms (me: WOS, mum, Greensleeves, just like the last fifty years, and dad, I'm Henry the Eighth I Am), and discussed my purported mentalness (they're the ones building a tiny hut village in the garden, haring around the countryside, and taking up six new hobbies at a time - is mentalness hereditary?).

Sitting on swells of anxiety and hiding from waves of depression and doing a fairly good job of it.

Are you listening to any music at the moment Up? I'm wavering between mediaeval European folk music and mid c20 popular jazz ATM.

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UpOnDown · 10/02/2015 17:20

Well done on sitting on and hiding from Smile It's nice to chat to family. I've got doctor who on in the background.

HellinaHandbasket · 10/02/2015 17:35

I've had a busy day with two clinics. Just finishing up now and getting ready to head home. I'm having some weird intrusive thoughts that I'm trying to ignore. Better than an earworm I suppose.

Sorry your day has been so difficult Up.

UpOnDown · 10/02/2015 17:39

I hope your drive isn't too long, Hellina Thanks.

Millie2013 · 10/02/2015 17:39

Hugs, Up, Hellina and anyone else in need

UpOnDown · 10/02/2015 17:42

Sorry to hear about the intrusive thoughts.

HellinaHandbasket · 10/02/2015 17:51

I'm sure the thoughts will go away Up and I see my CPN tomorrow so I can always mention them to her. My drive is between 30 and 40 minutes so I better get going!

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Ennn · 10/02/2015 17:52

Mmm, intrusive thoughts are horrible; my sympathies Helli.

Which Doctor is it, Up? I like the newest one but his storylines have been dire.

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UpOnDown · 10/02/2015 17:59

It's Matt Smith with Clara. Glad you see your CPN tomorrow, Hellina. Intrusive thoughts are rubbish! I agree re: new one's storylines.

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Ennn · 10/02/2015 18:15

Ugh. Really tired. I can feel myself slowing down. I remember when I was younger I used to slow down to a complete stop. Was kind of weird, people treated me like I couldn't hear them - one doctor started picking bits of me up and moving them and commenting on it to people Confused

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UpOnDown · 10/02/2015 18:22

(((( Ennn )))) Do you think you're getting unwell?

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Ennn · 10/02/2015 18:33

Yeah, think I'm mildly depressed. It happens sometimes. I haven't had a properly bad one for years, though. I don't think they understand what I mean when I talk about fear of becoming depressed, though - it's weeks/months where every muscle hurts because everything goes stiff and immobile, sitting up in bed takes a couple of hours, I have to be guided to the loo and back, step by step, DP used to try to feed me but I couldn't really chew. I couldn't move or talk a lot of the time, would sit in one position for hours. Couldn't move my face, swallow, bloody anything. It's the most painful horrible thing and it lasts for ever.

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Ennn · 10/02/2015 18:34

It's not the kind of thing you can go to a support group for, really.

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Ennn · 10/02/2015 18:39

So for example, DP would light a cigarette for me, after determining that's what I wanted, put it in my hand, and it would burn down to my fingers and leave horrible blisters because I couldn't move my hands. He only did that once Grin

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Ennn · 10/02/2015 18:44

Poor guy, he felt awful. It was because it was a prefab rather than a rollie like we usually had. A rollie would just go out when I zoned out.

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UpOnDown · 10/02/2015 18:47

That sounds awful, Ennn Sad I hope it's mild this time, or a blip.

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Ennn · 10/02/2015 18:49

I hope so too, Up.

Has the crisis team rung you yet?

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HellinaHandbasket · 10/02/2015 18:50

Enn it sounds bad, I hope you're not headed down that path. I hear you with the cigarettes though. Last time I was severely depressed, which was ages ago thankfully, I just put cigarettes out on the back of my hand. I hope never to be in that state again.

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Ennn · 10/02/2015 18:53

Ouch Hell Sad

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HellinaHandbasket · 10/02/2015 18:53

I still have the scars Blush

PollyPooic · 10/02/2015 18:54

poor you up :( you should hear from the crisis team soon?

that certainly sounds like a state to fear enn, was it phenelzine that helped you last time?

I had a nice walk with a friend and it wasn't excruciatingly painful, am walking like a normal person I think

dunno about boxing/bag thing - I can imagine it involving the sort of pressure on the ball of my foot that would be unhelpful, but maybe when it is bit more healed? one of my other old gyms does great boxing classes with a drum n bass dj and laser lights but that would be a bit much, I am stuck with the spin bike and rower for now, and the pool when I can make myself less phobic of it

UpOnDown · 10/02/2015 18:58

That sounds awful, Hell They should be ringing soon. Sad

HellinaHandbasket · 10/02/2015 18:59

Sounds like things might be improving with the wonky leg Polly. I know it's not the same as running do you get any satisfaction from the bike and rower?