Full Mental Normality

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Kubricking it.

I've seen that documentary.
Very Fat People fits into my category which is Real People Doing Ordinary Things ie the benefits stuff on, flashy families, designer kids etc. I love that stuff
I watch have seenThinspo which is normal size people becoming underweight which is on YouTube, tumble etc.

I need a new box set which is real life but not anything to do with my life -prison, lesbians, crime. Maybe I'll just watch OITNB from the start again?

We have two accounts on the Netflix - me and the academic. She watches American trash whereas I watch British trashDocumentaries.

Catfish is great if you ever find that on telly prim line. It's on viva.

I did enjoy breaking bad but that was a long time ago, long enough for #3 to be rewatching it

and I got through Homeland! but think I skipped a season in the middle

am giving Wolf Hall a whirl but the dialogue is so so so bad it lets it down - who would have said mirror in those days? surely they were looking glasses?

We watched that yesterday but I just couldn't get on with it. I also didn't have my glasses on so that might have hindered it somehow.

oh yes I love catfish! CARE how staged or scripted it is

was catfished by #3's dad back in 1997 when the internet was a scary new thing - he said he was 28, 6', black hair and blue eyes (was in my 20s obviously) but he showed up after 6 months of flirting to be 5'8 and in his 40s and a bit silvery at the temples so I let him inseminate me anyway (I didn't actually let him, my one and only contraceptive failure, but we were in a theatre and it was awkward, I think the condom must have fallen off)

or 1998 by the time we got round to meeting and conceiving one of the nicest surprises life has ever given me

Wow! And at a theatre.

My brother met his wife on the Internet and travelled from the iow up to Birmingham to marry her. I don't know if he was catfished though. I kind of wish he was just because it would be a good story.

it's quite a nice grade 1 listed theatre, regency, and when #3's teacher told me they are going on a trip there soon to see a bit of shakespeare I blurted out 'that's brilliant! she was CONCEIVED there!'

Haha. That's so what I would do. I was conceived in the back of a van. Classy, huh?!

I don't know where I was conceived, am not going to ask!

Don't know where #'s 1 and 2 were conceived either, we were constantly shagging, and travelling, could be anywhere. It is much easier to pinpoint these things when you are having An Affair and you are both quite busy and see one another only very infrequently.

Have not started on list, would very very very much like to go back to bed, am really tired - where is my energy? :( good luck finding stuff on Netflix, am going to spend 30 minutes attacking my house

there is only ONE way out of this mindset of mine, it's EXACTLY like running up a hill - attack attack ATTACK!

I've just done that thing where you lie in bed and stair at the wall for a while. I should also get up and attack things.

My mum was having an affair - Real Dad was and still is married. When I found him and contacted him about 2 years ago he told me lots of stuff like the conception which I was fine not knowing!

it's still romantic in its way, a romance as if written by Palahniuk

I am SO TIRED

my attack was half hearted but have nevertheless achieved:

a poo (yay!)
unloading and reloading dishwasher
filling one and a half black bags with stuff that was drifting across the floors - and you can't even tell I've done anything
weighing self only once according to the PTLS 2014 Act which came into force yesterday (am still at least 100g overweight but y'know, that could be my two pairs of socks, jumper etc)
and probably my greatest achievement so far- ordering all the crap from Waitrose that makes life more pleasant, like loo paper, cleaning stuff, laundry tablets and some essentials (fage 0% 170g pots - I have a 500g pot but we stare at one another with hostility and mistrust and then I close the fridge door on him)
replied to some text messages and arranged a hack for 2pm

there is absolutely no point having a wash before riding, it would be foolish in the EXTREME

what is the first thing you are going to attack?

Well done. You have all the awards. Just letting you know though, that it is 2015.

I am going to shower, which I hate
Put away all the clothes from doing washing
Lunch
Empty the kitchen bin

Is that enough? I hate lovely orange green tea to drink so I cannot do anything until I have drunk that.
Are you still staying at the friends tonight?

I did too much yesterday, ate too much and slept too little, and now my body hates me. Lying in bed aching and buzzing.

DP was very honest with me over the Internet that he was old and fat

it didn't come into force immediately, it wasn't due to until my birthday, but the date is from whenever royal assent was obtained

but it is here now anyway, and up to me to implement it

I really don't want to, it's just the fucking effort of it all there is no fucking effort but I am going to anyway

riding should perk me up a bit

but god the effort of that, taking rugs off, tacking up, ugh

Ah it'll be fine. Then you can go to the friends and mope on their sofa and watch rubbish telly with them and if you have enough you can say sorry I'm going now and it'll be ok.

But before you get to see horses, which is very exciting.

on plus side:

can wear new jodhs
can have spinach and feta pizza
my friends are really lovely
am riding with world's dullest person ever so no need to do any chat, I can make like a counsellor/nodding dog and go 'mmhmm' and 'you can only try your best' and 'life is cruel' (have never had counselling so this is a guess)
the moment I sniff a bit of my horse I will feel better even if it is a crying sort of better
I need some fucking exercise, under the terms of whatever I can count riding as exercise just for today

they have made 'my' room extra warm though

they will have put nice big furry cuddly dog toy in there for me in case spaniel doesn't come with (he might have to look after #3)

am allowed to talk about running (this is usually a forbidden topic because I can go on a bit )

am not allowed to talk about Being Fat :(

They do sound lovely and I think I'll go if you don't.

I am definitely going, I have to, they have bought spinach etc

but I have cancelled my hack can't face it and am too busy intermittently rocking back and forth going 'I really can't cope. I can actually cope though. But I really can't cope.' and smoking

then I saw this wonderful my mental health trust has proposed: is it a joke?

I'm sending you a massive hug. Can you go and see the horses even if you didn't do the hack?

I'm pretty sure that suggestion is something that has been blown out of proportion, like a number 16 on a list of 16 possible things to do.

thank you, that is a lovely hug :)

am going to get dressed and take some photos of the horses and walk the spaniel

there is no need to wash before I go to see my friends, I could always wash there but equally they could just burn everything I touched after I've left?

Totally. If they start following you round with a glade room spray just embrace it.

(((( mitchy )))) Enjoy the walk, and visiting your friends. That suggestion is totally bizarre to say the least.

I had pizza for lunch (415 kcal), visitors have been and gone.