Full Mental Normality

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Kubricking it.

Thanks enpo

I am ok, nice that someone was wondering :)

attempting to warm self up a bit between a plug in electric heater and the oven - we got the message that tomorrow's meet has been cancelled rather late grrrrrrrr so that was disappointing and frustrating. We could in theory tag along with friends who are going out with a different but they are such an unfriendly lot (the hunt not our friends), and there will be more jumping (it's pretty much all ditches with our crew) and it won't be the friendly low key fun one might hope for an anxious autistic teen on a very green and very young pony

plus it's ££££ our one is practically free for children

and anyway it is TOO COLD FOR ALL THAT

sorry to hear of gp woes, my nose is still a bit out of joint over the whole paracetamol for my incredibly severe back pain thing but I was there today and it's such a flash place, and generally everyone is really nice, and #1 used to be best friends with the senior partner's son at nursery so we all go back a long way

plus it is the only one anyway

Glad to hear you're ok, mitchy

I'm sorry the meet has been cancelled, they must be good fun (I used to beat for shoots as a teenager).

did they feed you well afterwards?

I ran through a shoot recently, the pheasants were flapping out from cover in alarm to my left and to my right shots were aimed at them - it was an actual road as well, bit naughty?

We're still on for tomorrow's hunt. Big grey horse will love it but I'm worried about the cold, wuss that I am. Maybe it will snow tonight.

Yes. lovely lunch afterwards, and £5.

That does sound a bit naughty. Fingers crossed, chapuys

I'm glad your appointment went so well, if I had the money I'd pay to see my old psychiatrist.

I'm glad to hear that you met a useful psychiatrist Chapuys. Did you have any medication changes?

Yes, the cold tomorrow influences eating lunch here, rather than in town and waiting for the bus.

reboxetine!

so they DO still make it!

as an antidepressant reboxetine is arguably the most shit, ever

but I loved it

despite my great great love for it am intrigued as to how any discussion about evidence based psychiatry could culminate in reboxetine

If it's still in production am getting myself some though

Am always a bit wary of private psychiatrists as I believe it's easy to find one that will tell you what they think you want to hear if the price is right. Not that I think they do it on purpose as such. My parents are always offering to pay to send me a private psychiatrist so they can be told what they want to hear i.e. that I'm a manic depressive, which is probably what will happen if you pay large amounts of money to someone who specialises in telling rich people they're a little bit bipolar but last time they did that it didn't turn out that great (the doctor told them what they wanted to hear - that their daughter only had trouble because she was intelligent and bored and that they should move me to a more academic private school - where, it turns out, I was still the geeky boffo outcast, but this time in a panama hat).

well I don't think it was the reboxetine but while taking it I slept very little and so nature took its course - I felt sharp, I just loved it (was on a teeny tiny dose too) I felt incredibly purposeful

some bad stuff happened but I think that was me rather than the medication oh yeah I masturbated all the time everywhere, I was always trying to have sex with door frames and things but again me or my disorder not the meds

oh NOW I remember - sooooo many orgasms so effortlessly and so intensely

I don't prescribe reboxetine because it's useless.

I don't prescribe reboxetine either.

But as psych meds go, I'd settle for useless over some of the others

Still feeling unusually low after therapy this week. Talking is an effort right now. I think I'll see therapist again next week rather than waiting till mid February. So many painful issues just bubbled up out of nowhere.

This does seem fairly definitive. (aka what mp just said).

I can't help thinking of it in a punny "it makes you want to re-pack and return all the shit you bought online" kind of a way.

Someone asked me if my phenelzine was a herbal medicine made from fennel. Which is fun.

I might add a private psychiatrist into my list of people. It's always good to be seeing 14+ mental health professionals, right?

I won't btw. I already pay lovely therapists mortgage so everything else will have to be free for me.