Being Mentally Normal: The Theory and The Actuality

[Mitchy1nge]

we must be on part 11 or something by now?

Millie transfusions are not great, hooked up for a length of time. Hopefully won't come to that, just need to convince my self to take iron.....hard because feel so depressed and in a dark place at the moment x

No not great for being hooked up, but I felt so much better afterwards. Unfortunately, they took my blood too soon after the first one and got a false reading, so I had to have another.
Self care is bloody hard when in that dark place. Do you have iron pills?

Need to see gp for iron tabs

Can you try and make an appt today? I need to make an appt too re sick leave and keep putting it off, which just makes things worse :/

wow luck on my side for once. Gp making a gradual ret to work, rung for an appointment today to discuss bloods and guess what....managed to get appt with my own gp for today! wow.

good work bright!

feel disabled by my back, hope driving #3 to school then a bath will help, I'm also extremely fat not that anyone cares

I'm willing to say that other people in the world will be fatter, and that it's probably just marathon fuel anyway.

I'm still in bed, was due at work I hour and 1 minute ago.

Bright, that's good. You've inspired me to try and get an appt with my GP. Once I've finished this cup of tea!

Caulk, does it matter that you're not in work?

Mitchy, hugs

Not really. I'm in now, and no one else is. I do flexi time for a small charity and Tuesday is my quiet day, so it's ok.

oh dear, do you feel up to going in later?

technically haven't gained a gram (actually is in increments of 100g) despite netting quite an impressive volume of cals over past week but I have sort of quadrupled in size (nobody was wondering but I don't see why I should go through it alone)

I'm so fat I even type painfully slowly

well done for getting to work

thanks for hugs (might prefer drugs but is all v welcome :))

I'm wondering if I can just leave work soon? 12? And go home and lie in bed? I saw the crisis team this morning who said rest and stay warm and take medication but the boss won't be too happy if that's all I do.

Have gained two pounds this week, despite not eating in fear of the ed assessment next week. Beat that.

2lbs is within standard error thing, it doesn't even count

resting and staying warm is my prescription for the day too :) wish hadn't left phone cable in car though, this is why I don't deserve to live, even Rose West was probably less annoying than me :(

I don't think I can say to my boss "sorry I'm too busy crying and being fat and wanting to be dead to be at work today, but please pay me anyway". Sometimes she is understanding but I think even that is beyond her capabilities.

Mitchy, you more than deserve to live
I'm being a t**t. Today's self sabotaging involves resisting phoning the GP (they won't give me another sick note without an appt). I let things drag on and they end up 100X worse.

Caulk, hugs
How was therapy yesterday?

you sound so much like my mad cancerous friend! If you were Jewish I would be freaked out

Millie I have an aversion to getting that sort of thing done too, went for over a year with no lithium level tests, am currently dodging everyone - ridiculous because my back actually KILLS and I could do with anything that isn't tramadol

would prefer to see a vet though they are much nicer to deal with

Therapy was fine, is is brilliant, knows me very well. We spent half the time talking about how eating is actually important, regardless of an ed assessment or not, and then me crying about not wanting to live anymore.

It's rare to talk about historical stuff or the family or anything, but I love her and would have not moved away a few times so I can carry on seeing her.

Vets, I can deal with. I might pretend to be a horse!!
Caulk, I'm the same with my therapist? What theoretical model does she work with? Mine's a psychoanalyst, but we are doing mentalisation based work at the moment, so don't really do historical stuff either

Integrative psychotherapy.

She is brilliant and I love her.

Ooh, without outing myself, u know quite a lot about that... Happy to out myself via PM ;)

Pm me, unless you are a therapist in Birmingham because you could be her and that would throw me completely.

That's not me ;)

Hi. Thanks for all support. Had gp appt, went well, came away with iron prescription. Told need to take them because won't get better bcs of poor diet. Had bone density scan in Sept and Dr was extremely surprised it was normal.

Here to the rest of the day. Tired and exhausted but need to do lots of exercise