Being Mentally Normal: The Theory and The Actuality

[Mitchy1nge]

we must be on part 11 or something by now?

What's for lunch today everyone? I have achieved nothing whilst sitting in the office, so I may as well walk to the shop and find something.

It's a soup day, I think, but I have no soup and it's snowing and I'm not keen on venturing out

I have only just woken up, despite having set six alarms which I have apparently deactivated in my sleep. Bloody antidepressants. How are you supposed to lead a normal life when the only drugs that make you feel normal again also make you sleep 2am-midday?

Reading everyone else's updates is cheering tho Getting things done, yeah

SNOWING?
It's not snowing here

I had a big arsey moan the other day maybe here about how impossible it is to hold down a job with mh stuff mainly because of all the sleep and all the appointments. I slept far too late this morning due to the increase of stuff to make me normal, so I am less normal because I can't do a normal work day. Grr

And relax.

Dinner, raw broccoli yum yum

have some kind of mad fatigue type thing going on here, am on brink of sleep at all times but is not meds

trying to watch spiral but it's sunny outside and my run seems less and less likely and I feel more and more self-pitying

I want to run today but I can hear the rain under the tyres of the traffic as it passes my bedroom window, which rattles in the wind. Unappealing.

We live near the top of a hill (you can probably guess where, as there's only one hill in our village) and we have our own microclimate :)

Snow is sticking and I need to pick DD up later.
Bum!
I still haven't phoned the GP, if I could just do it, I'd feel better. I'm useless!

I'll ring them for you.

Can you do my planning though? Ta.

It's sleeting here, but it's more rain than snow. I'm thinking of heading home before I end up thinking I should be productive or something.

Yeah, let's swap sources of procrastination!

running in the rain is ok once the first awful 30 seconds are out of the way

on this ridiculously calorific regime I feel hungrier than usual but think I might try Doing Walking before lunch if possible, it's all lower back/hips and putting on shoes will be horrible

it's a beautiful day here I spend my LIFE out there in fucking awful weather and now I'm imprisoned by my own disintegrating body while the sun is actually shining for once

WHY IS LIFE SO CRUEL

Go and lie on the grass in the sunshine for a while.

nah mate are you mental? It's about 9c out there, 26 in the house!

Yeh but it'll make you appreciate the weather or something.

Still in bed.

CPN2 has cancelled, CPN1 is on leave...and I can't get the oomph to phone and speak to the duty person - all they will say is distract yourself.

Do you need to get up, or can you have a quiet day enpoid?

((( mitch ))) will you go for a walk later, or is your body too bad?

You can phone them millie!

Eventually dragged myself out of bed cause I was desperate for a wee.

I do kind of need to be up and about as I've not been doing nearly enough exercise this week (cough, phlegm, unpleasantness). Am getting dressing in jogging clothes in hopes that will motivate me

Sounds tough Snowy. What do you like to do to distract yourself?

I hope the clothes help, enpoid

My concentration is shot, so it's difficult. Messing around on the computer, audiobooks are good though, I might do that - Stephen Fry is soothing to listen to.

Ah, lovely Stephen.

I do wonder if he is entirely Mentally Normal at the moment.

millie, pick up the phone and make the appt....I know it is hard, it has taken me 15 weeks, yikes

going for a walk NOW hopefully prowling around the outside world for a bit will help

staying inside is v bad when in pursuit of Being Mentally Normal

am getting someone to do horses and pretty much everything else though, unfortunately people are all being a bit 'what does the dr say/think?' OBVIOUSLY am not going to a dr, why would I take responsibility for my own problems when I can just whinge and cry instead? People are annoying

(I don't like Stephen Fry)