Being Mentally Normal: The Theory and The Actuality

[Mitchy1nge]

we must be on part 11 or something by now?

Nice one Mitchy.

Yay Mitch!

Caulk, hope you're doing ok tonight
And hugs to anyone else in need, you're all in my thoughts

I can't get into TV, might try and get some sleep in case DD wakes up soon (she thinks sleep is for wimps)

Good idea Millie - grab any chance at sleep

Hello I've not posted on here for a bit as have been very busy trying to be mentally normal. In the last month I have achieved:

Mania - 3 weeks
Pregnancies - 1 due to bad decision-making (see previous)
Meds - Stopped all cold turkey (see previous)
Depression and intrusive thoughts - day 10 and counting (see previous)
Appointments gained with health professionals in next fortnight = 7

It's really not going too well is it?

Sorry to hear so many of you are struggling as well.

Pretty disruptive few weeks from the sound of it Ivy. Sorry to hear it's all gone a bit tits up.

I think last time I saw you on here was when I was being very mentally unnormal a couple of months ago, Ivy (sorry about that, by the way).

I'm glad you've got some appointments in place.

No worries Enpoid I like the mentally unnormal you! Good to see things have picked up for you now.

My perinatal psychiatrist is going to kick my ass into next week tomorrow which should be fun

When actually none of this is my fault really. Only got discharged from perinatal 4 months ago and still haven't seen the community psych I was meant to be transferred to so am bouncing back having had bugger all support for the interim. Quality service.

Just finished dinner (partridge, roasted veg and garlic, repurposed leftover pepper sauce).

Yes, things are looking good for me at the moment. Hoping to work out how to keep them this way

Doesn't seem your team have been very effective at that part of it, though, Ivy It's not just cruel and incredibly disruptive for you, it's shortsighted of whoever makes these decisions in the first place - surely having you bouncing back with an acute problem costs them more than it would've done to give you proper support in the first place?

Partridge on a Wednesday night? You are vair posh. I had half a lidl pizza

Does it make a difference that the partridges were from Lidl too? In my mind you said your post in the same tone of voice as the Aunt Bessie's "Roasties? On a weekday?" advert.

Didn't even know you could get partridge in Lidl - only ever seen the reindeer but never quite fancied it. I bloody love Lidl.

Mmm… Lidly goodness

I liked the reindeer but it was a bit tougher than I'm used to for leg steaks. Every so often I treat myself to weird meats - kangaroo, crocodile, whatever

I am rather partial to a bit of ostrich!

What kind of pizza was it?

Bog standard cheese and tom. With BBQ sauce on the side.

Had a long day in London so needed an easy tea.

Sounds delicious. And probably healthier than my dinner which I've put into MyFitnessPal and calculated at 1400kcal

What were you up to in London? I pretty much never go, despite living a fairly short train-ride away.

Half a trattoria Alfredo only 316kcal in MFP and I hit my 10,000 steps with my fitbit today

Right. I've emailed my boss and told her that I need some time off, and won't be in tomorrow.
This is pretty much failure in her eyes, and I feel like a terrible terrible person, but I think it will help. It better help anyway.

Nice work Ivy

Sleep well and good luck tomorrow.

Well done Caulky.

I hope you'll be better able to get well without the extra stress of work. In the long term it will be better.

It will won't it? I had some time off with anorexia years ago, but apart from that I've always worked. The idea of not being there is both thrilling and terrifying. Can I just sleep and mope about and cry all day or will I have to have deep thoughts and save the world from my sofa?

Don't ask me I've been out of work for my entire life over a decade and haven't even saved the world once.

Phew. That makes me feel better.

One brother is too fat to work, and other brother is too naughty to work (prison) so all the power is on me. No one does anything in my family so I suppose I might as well not try to either, at least for a while.