Being Mentally Normal: The Theory and The Actuality

[Mitchy1nge]

we must be on part 11 or something by now?

I was right in thinking you'd all be lovely - glad I dropped by. Thanks for your thoughts too Enpoid

Ah bugger Caulk, that's really hard. You're doing so well; try not to let the fuckwits Crisis Team's bullshit bother you.

Are you texting Samaritans?

Yep.

Caulk sending love. Did they suggest the hot bath ?

This morning they said to if I needed to relax. It's one of my last resorts though, too easy to end up cutting.

I'm sorry for all the rubbishness folks.

I'm glad you're here Caulk
Enpoid will get you through, she's lovely

Can you text or email uber therapist, Caulk? I really don't get what the crisis team do? is that all try have to offer?
How could they better support you, Caulk? Is there anything any of us can do?
I made (microwaved) dinner, but was too full to eat it. D'oh. It was a low cal meal from waitrose and tasted like cardboard anyhow, so I wasn't missing much
We may wake up to snow here. DD hates it, well she hated it in France and hated her snowsuit even more!

don't be sorry :(

wish could think of something helpful to do, take something sedating (not too much) and go to bed?

Yes I've text her. I have no clue what I want crisis team to do or whatever but I know that Freud and the therapist will say did I call them so I can say yes.

I've got lithium quetiapine citalopram and promazine. Not sure which would be most sedating, plus terrified that if I go to sleep I'll then wake up tomorrow and feel the same - know how stupid that is.

quetiapine is safest and can be sedating

is a bit drastic but I'm not good at these things, sedatives are all anyone offers me, but you are safe when asleep and sleep can be so healing there's a really good chance of feeling a bit better tomorrow

It's a legitimate fear. I'd guess either quetiapine or promazine as the most sedating?

hopefully lithium will commence its magic soon too

I've just emailed my line manager, who is currently on safari and in no way responsible (and probably totally unaware of) this mess. I've just re-read the email I sent and it sounds incredibly aggressive and a tad threatening.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck

It's taking forever dor me to type, sorry!

Quetiapine is part of normal bedtime meds, I'm on 100mg. Horrible restless legs if I take it when I'm not too tired, but yes you are right, probably most sedating.

Thank you for being lovely everyone.

Have just finished dinner and back on thread.

Caulk, have you seen "your" cat today? If it doesn't sound too daft, you could tell the cat how you're feeling I used to cuddle my rats a lot when I felt urges.

tooth, maybe it's coming across aggressively in your head because of how you're feeling at the moment and its not actually too bad? [hopeful]

Thank you Juggling I don't feel lovely

Cat. Good plan.

It's snowing here, is it snowing there, Caulk, or is this weird microclimate again? :D
I'm cuddled up in bed with DD, who is either asleep or pretending to be asleep and will start giggling shortly. We shall see...

Yes it's snowing. Arse. Have to be safe if snowing as cannot drive anywhere. Poo.

No snow here.

Sorry you're feeling so rubbish Caulk, I don't know what I can say that will help.

A fairly quiet evening for me today. Lots of Star Trek to catch up on.

We're bickering over the recycling bin. My evening is that boring.

We have two recycling boxes and one is in the field across the road. Given how I haven't stood up for a wee in 4 hours I don't think I'm off to go and rescue it.

Did the wind take it? It was pretty blustery here this morning.