HTT are handing me over

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Woop! Just got a call asking if I wanted to be visited today (er, no, ta) and telling me that they're about to call CMHT to hand me over to them. Finally getting off this daily checking up soon I hope

Did I make a typo? No change there if I did.

Er, no. My previous post had so many typos I decided to classify it all as one big typo.

Though thanks for assuming I was yelling at some poor innocent poster (er, you) for a typo

I never noticed any typos. I was busy thinking about my driving instructor. He was about 110 so we didn't stop for cigarettes but he was incredibly patient. My father lasted 10 minutes trying to teach me.

My driving instructor was lovely.

Although he did laugh at my practice car (beige polo, same age as me, with a buzzer installed so you knew when the gearstick was going too close to reverse)

I learned in an ancient range rover. It was a fucking nightmare. I did my tests in a borrowed Fiesta. Took me three times to pass

I HAVE ACHIEVED THE OMELETTE

(but there was no veg just spinach )

I've been driving since I was 11

I used to skip school and drive past it in a car that I suppose I had effectively stolen from home

Hurrah for the omelette!

I've just been looking through my old patient notes. Frankly, I think the term "projection" may have been coined to explain how so many different services/professionals can come up with so many different diagnoses.

Actually, looking through all that was probably a really bad idea, in the context of having to see someone in two days' time whom I will need to trust in order to get a diagnosis and treatment, having just read a lot of what feels like criticism, very little of which was ever disclosed to me (almost none of these diagnoses were told to me at the time). But this is a new doctor and a new treatment team so I guess I have to try and trust in the process.

Now, to try and stop craving omelette Hope it was good.

Mitch, I'm to say that I find your admission of underage driving rather cool and rebellious.

Damn you, streak of teenage anti-authoritarianism!

I should imagine learning in a range rover makes any subsequent car a bit of a weird experience to drive

I went from a range rover to a golf which I got when I started uni. I remember being amazed at how easy it was to park.

That's... unsurprising

Bugger. I've deeply stressed myself out reading all those casenotes.

it is written that you're not a proper mentalist until you've gathered at least ten diagnoses

Best to forget about the past. It's now that really matters.

Ah you're probably both right. Hard to shake the terror though.

I worry that people I see now have also seen this stuff and the fear that it will be prejudicial (in a sort of technical way, I mean, rather than a bigotry way)

so lifetime I've had; anorexia (but was just severe anxiety) then another bout of 'severe anxiety' then an episode of mania, then bipolar disorder (2nd opinion schizoaffective disorder) episode of depression within that, episodes of hypomania (are they separate? Not really) ptsd (which am not sure whether to believe in in general) and some more severe anxiety

don't think that makes ten but like to diagnose self with things that sound more interesting like intermittent explosive disorder

it always really irritated me the way every subsequent dr I've seen is happy to accept the documentation and go along with my diagnoses when I always think 'but the first episode doesn't count, the second was caused by antidepressants, I was just under too much stress' and so on

I would want to start afresh with each patient and give them new and more interesting mental disorders

Those don't sound too bad, Mitch. I wouldn't be embarrassed by any of those, I'll put it that way. I really can't post mine online. But yes, a clean sheet would be lovely.

My favourite disorder name isn't a mental illness but a sleep phenomenon called Exploding Head Syndrome.