Still Autumn days in the village with lots of support for all kinds of MH problems - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis etc thread 2

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Oh no spidey! How awful.

You CAN do this.

Keep repeating to yourself, as many times as you need. He IS ok. He IS ok.

Hugs xx

He's in pain and he needs me and I'm curled up in a ball freaking out I'm an awful person I need to go to him

(((Spidey))) thinking of you x

You can do this spidey. Take a couple of deep breaths. He's ok and that's the most important thing.

He's at the hospital now, his chest hurts, Ds is at school and I'm going back to be with Dh.

(((( spidey )))) Your poor DH, and poor you.

He'd only had the car a couple of months too.

Ecg has come back ok so he can come home, he's battered and bruised but he'll be ok.

I'm wishing I had some diazapam right about now, I'm massively hyped up and stressed and panicky and can't calm down.

Glad he's getting home Spidey x

((( spidey ))) ((( all )))

Thinking of everyone whilst lurking x

Glad to hear your DH is ok spidey. I hope you feel better soon.

I've had a phone call from the DWP, I've been put in the support group.

Is that the one you wanted, Snowy? That's the one without interviews etc isn't it?

I've been doing some reading since I'll have been off work for 6 months next week and that's the end of their "supported absence" period. Been referred to occupational health too. Most of that is telephone based so they are going to need to come up with an alternative because I really can't do phones right now.

At this moment I really don't see myself being able to go back to my job. Too hard.

On the plus side I made today.

Take care all x

snowy that's good news isn't it? You must be very relieved.

Sorry to hear about your work troubles victrix but yay for cake.

I think my cold is now a chest infection, which serves me right for smoking I suppose, but I feel miserable. What's the odds I manage to get a GP appointment tomorrow afternoon?

Yes, it is the one I was hoping for, thanks both A big relief, wont quite believe it until I get the letter.

Cake is good, victrix

I hope you get an appointment somehow, mp

It's an apple, walnut and raisin cake and because it has cinnamon, nutmeg and cloves in it my house smells lovely

Plus it's freezing here today so having the oven on made my kitchen all cozy.

Sounds yummy

Sounds like a great cake. I've got bad cake cravings now and all I have is a packet of digestives which are, frankly, no substitute

I've resisted adding cake to my online shop coming tomorrow, I've ordered mango and antipasto as treats. (As I'm on my own, there's only me that would eat a whole cake easily - ocado/waitrose do a yummy cherry and marzipan cake).

Dh keeps finding new things that hurt and his chest is really sore so I'm letting him have whatever he wants from the Chinese, after today I think we can say bollocks to the diet.
When Ds came out of school yhe teacher took me to one side apparently he's been going round the class and calling everyone "piss face" for a kid with delayed speech its really clear!
Then he asked me in the car if because daddy went to the hospital whether that meant daddy had gone to heaven, I had to explain that not everyone who goes to hospital goes to heaven and that daddy was really ok just sore. He didn't believe me and has been following Dh round all evening and kissing and cuddling him all the time. Hopefully he will get over the stress of it soon.
I'm calmer now although still prone to bursting into tears at odd intervals. The police said that if he'd been driving his old car and not the Audi it would have more than likely flipped and been a very bad accident. We're considering whether to sue for compensation because all the time he's carless Dh is losing money and he's losing three days pay because he missed today and he's not allowed to go back until at least Monday.
She admitted to the police and has put it in a statement that she came to the T junction to pull onto the main road and was dazzled by the sun but instead of stopping and trying to see better she just pulled out.
I'm calmer but I still have a lead ball of panic in my chest that doesn't want to go.

(((( spidey and DH and DS ))))

Hello all - Spidey, that's a big shock for everyone and I'm really glad that your DH is ok barring the bumps and bruises. I've been in an accident and it was the delayed shock that hit a day or so later that did it for me. Lots of love to you and the family.

Victrix - I've been off work now for about 7 months and am going through the process with OH and HR and the rest. The process itself is stressful, never good when you're already struggling with an illness that is sensitive to stress. I have been taking an advocate with me. Either my CCo or the union. Do you have anyone who could help you?

I've asked for a meds review as I really need to shift this depression. It's been going on for nearly a year now and I'd really like my life back. While they don't like to prescribe anti depressants to me as they can make me manic, there must be a way of balancing the mood stabilisers, antipsychotics with something that stops me being so fucking depressed all the time.

Fluffy - just seen your last post. I know antipsychotics have worked for you in the past, so I'm at a loss as to why they're saying you don't need them now.

Sometimes I feel like mental health is a dartboard and they just throw in the odd dart to see where it lands and whether it helps, rather than actually knowing how to get a triple twenty.

TBH I would be OK with a face-to-face meeting, weirdly I can handle that because I can see the other person's face. Just won't be able to do it if it needs to be over the phone.

I'm sort of at peace with the whole thing because I know I've done all that I can, I'm doing all that I can to get better, if it takes too long for this job then that's not in my control. I'm in the extremely fortunate position that DP's salary comfortably covers our outgoings so I can afford to take the time I need to get better.

Still shit in the meantime though.

I've bitten the bullet and made an appt at the doctors. Going to try and get the ball rolling with CMHT.

All the treatment I've ever had - both medication and therapy - has been assuming that depression is the problem, but I've come to realise over the last couple of years that it's actually only a symptom of deeper ingrained problems. So it's no wonder nothing's worked!