Still Autumn days in the village with lots of support for all kinds of MH problems - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis etc thread 2

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The thread filled up!
I made a new one hope no one minds.

It was obvious it was me, but there are three people I know who'd report me for sneezing if they thought it would piss me off. I strongly suspect their involvement as they're humourless bastards. To put it mildly.

thanks nana, snowy dh is improving and seems to developing a little self-awareness which is good.
I haven't managed to shake the agitation. Sundays do seem to be my worst day of the week (tho am also wondering if hormones are chipping in). Struggling to find anything to calm myself. Think I need a big walk tomorrow.
victrix good luck tomorrow
keema annoying re: stupid people, but so glad to hear about your progress.
snowy Chinese sounds nice. I tool dh and kids out for pizza today which everyone seemed to enjoy. Cute dolls.
Sympathies pulled hang in there.
fluffy how soon is the meds review stopping not always a good plan
Time to crack open the camomile tea I think. How exciting!

Thanks for the good luck thoughts

I've sorted out my bag for tomorrow and I'm off to bed now having treated myself to a lovely long bath with scented candles and nice bubbles etc.

Feeling surprisingly calm about the whole thing

Victrix - I wish you well for tomorrow :) (((hugs)))

CIQ - sorry to read it's not been a great day today. I had a good walk today with my friends dog that we are sitting, to try and clear my head after the past few days.
I hope you will find some calm tomorrow :)

Snowy - I like the dolls! I have been looking for a postman toy doll for a Xmas present for my friends dog - it's his number one enemy!!

Keema - you are doing such a good thing with your campaign. Pah to those stoopid people.

Pulled - good to see you post, I was wondering how you were as hadn't seen you on the thread in a few days. Sorry you are feeling crap.

Fluffy - good to see you post as well :)

Nethuns - I do hope you are ok?

I do miss when village regulars don't post :( but of course I understand the need to lurk at times when it's a real struggle...

Our online support is just so important to me. This week being a perfect example. I have struggled with some friendships during the course of on/off MH issues going back some 20 years.
I think I have clung on to this 'friendship' with this 'friend' more for fear of not having to think - oh not another friendship bites the dust.
I know deep down she hasn't treated me well for a very long time but I pretended not to notice, but this week was even enough for me.

Thanks to all for giving me the little push I needed to address this issue with her. I have not heard a word back since she told me how angry she was with me on Friday. So there is the anticipation now of shall I leave it as this? I have expect to get a rant from her sometime soon....

Anyway, a long day at work will distract me tomorrow.

(((Hugs to all))) and hope tomorrow will be a kind day to us all x

Collar - I'd not do anything about said friend as the ball is in her court. either she's going to behave like a reasonable human being and apologise, in which case great, or she's going to rant at you, in which case ignore and move on.

Hope it all goes smoothly today Victrix :)

Thanks folks- am gowned up at the moment

Apparently I'm at the top of the list so should be in in about an hour.

Ow

(((hugs)))

Victrix - I was thinking of you today! Hope you are not too uncomfortable, and that all has gone to plan.
Sending you a gentle ((hug)) as you are a somewhat delicate flower right now :)

Keema - thanks :) I do not really have anyone to sound off about the situation, and I really appreciate your words of advice x

CIQ - did you have a better day today?

Snowy - you haven't posted today, are you ok?

Just been given tea and some amazing toast with real butter

Yum that sounds good Victrix :) How long do you think you will be kept in for?

That's good to hear victrix
thanks collar no, not really. Meeting with dh and psych - she said they were working towards a discharge next Wednesday. Completely out of the blue. I have been saying at least once a week for the last four weeks, that he cannot come home until I have some support in place for me. Has anyone got in touch? No. Zilch. Nada. I am just about managing to look after me and the children, not sure I can look after dh too without becoming mentally ill myself. But hey, we'll just go from 24 hour inpatient care to at the moment it seems like dh will have 1 hr per week with a CPN???!!!

That sounds crazy ciq. Hope they sort something for you.

How are you feeling victrix?

Think you just have to wait and see collar

Very impressed with your result snowy the concentration is there! How are you?

And everyone else? Hope you're all doing ok.

Feeling ok actually, should be getting home tomorrow morning. Hope you get something sorted CIQ

Pyrrh - good to see you :)
How are you? You have posted to us, but not said how you are ticking along?
I am quitely calm about it all, despite knowing at some point she will rear her ugly head and I don't think it will be a pleasant exchange...
But I have prepared my mind already that this is a doomed friendship, in fact the more I think about it and her horrible reaction, following the upset she caused, the easier it becomes to detach myself ;)
I am thinking it's better to have just one or two good friends to count on, then 5 or more that have no depth below their shallow surface...

CIQ - honestly these people have no idea :(
Of course support must be put in place for you first. You are carrying the burden of the stresses and the situation on your shoulders, as well as having to care for your DC, and try to keep some normality for them.
1 hour CPN apt is absurd, after 24/7 care!
I am sorry for you in this situation, and I hope they sort out a better plan for you asap!

Glad you are feeling ok victrix

CIQ ask for HTT for your DH, you deserve that level of support for at least a week or so. Is he sectioned? He has a legal requirement to support if he is and if it is not enough you can ask for more.

Ok day here today :)

Well I can confirm that gallbladder surgery is a lot less painful than a gallstone attack! Getting to go home this morning

Glad to hear that victrix Take it easy :)

Hope everyone's doing ok today.

Victrix - Are you home? If so hope you have your feet up and someone to look after yer every whim! Glad it's all over and done now for you :)

Okish day here, needed to distract myself a lot in the day from my anxious head. A neighbour across the road was chatting to me when I was clearing leaves in the garden.
She knows about my MH issues, and is always asking me to go to her church with her. She goes to a new agey kind of Christian church. Or to come along to one of her house group sessions.
It sounds quite inviting, but am not sure. She is convinced the only way forward is with the Lord!!
i generally would consider anything, but not sure. I will give it a bit of though though...

Hope everyone has had an good day :)

I got home at 11am and have been relaxing ever since

DP has the week off work so is looking after me

Victrix - good to hear!! :)

Good to hear you're out and home Victrix.

I've had a very, very good day. MN gave me the blog of the day spot and it really gave us a boost. We've got over 350 signatures and loads of views on the blog itself, so all good. Anything that boosts positive reactions to MH issues is a good thing.

Very happy indeed at the mo.

Glad the op went well vic and that your campaign is going well keema, I smiled when I saw blog of the day.

I'm feeling pretty rotten. My period finally returned with a vengeance I've had to bin my pyjamas and i think I'll have to try steam cleaning the mattress. I always get a bit down when I'm due but this ones hit me hard I feel awful and I'm just so angry at everything just in time for the psychological assessment tomorrow which means that they'll see the very worst of how I can be.
Dh was showing me something on his phone and he had a tab on safari open to my facebook page which is hidden and you can only find if you're me or my friend but he's not on facebook. I think he's spy on me. He says I'm being paranoid and that I'm wrong but I know I saw it. I've nothing to hide on fb because it's always been the edited version of events but it's still bothering me that if he's watching me there is he watching me here too? I'm fucking sick of feeling paranoid.
I'm scared for tomorrow too, partly I was always worried about it but now I'm feeling really bad im scared to tell them everything in my head, I've been trying to bury it all again and even the voice had quitened down but he's back now, adding to the paranoia because he keeps telling me im being watched and there's people outside.
I can't even go for a run for a bit of peace because I feel so shitty with this stupid period.

It's stupid being worried about people outside. I live on a busy main road, there's always people outside! I'm not usually convinced that they're looking In and listening at the door though.

There's no one here.
Have sh.
Going to give ds tea and go to bed when Dh comes In.