Spidey - very true about the effects of sugar free sweets!
God that American platter sounds good....
Not such a great day for me. Sorry my post is a bit long :( but I need some advice.
A friend who I deem to be a good friend (an ex work colleague who also left where I did recently) has really upset me today.
She's someone who has found my MH issues this year hard to understand. She tells everyone we are best friends, same interests, we have been on small trips away, but she has never stuck her neck out to support me when she possibly could have.
I have seen her a few times in the past few days, and had a feeling there was some kind of small issue. She can be quite a coward in the way if there is something that she doesn't want to say but has to she will always text it at some obscure time...
So this morning at 5.45am! I got a text from her. Firstly it woke me up! I keep my phone next to me at night as my 84yr dad is poorly at the mo.
Message said hi and and a small reply to something I texted her about yest.
Then she 'mentioned' she was invited to our ex workplace's Xmas party and 'wanted' to let me know...
I read her text and it being so early morning, my mind was caught at a vulnerable time. So after an anxiety/angry half hour spent in bed, once again being provoked as I had guessed by now I had not been invited, even though she had left 2 months before me. I texted her back, telling her she had woken me and now irritated me telling me something to ease her mind, but cause upset to me. That we were both off today, why was she texting me at this early time for something non urgent.
My day off was already ruined by then I knew it :( I told her what she wants to do in her time is up to her, but that sometimes it's kinder to keep such things to herself as I had so obviously not been invited.
I found out she was asked last week, there's many a time she could of said to my face but didn't. I also found out my ex manager vetoed me being invited because I 'might have a funny 5 minutes' in reference to my MH issues. She is a nasty person, but so many other excolleagues would of liked me to of been asked.
Am I being unreasonable in thinking my friend knowing this, and being aware how much that would upset me,could of stood up for me and declined her invite on the basis of how her 'best' friend was being treated? And if I was not welcome that she would not go.
If the roles were reversed I would do that for such a good friend.
Her response was sorry for disturbing me so early, but she didn't want to keep anything from me... And now I know she said she won't bring it up again.
She has never put herself out there for me, I am thinking this could of been a time she could of?
Sigh.... I feel very upset and sad at all angles of this. I prob wouldn't of gone, but would of been nice to of been asked.
You all understand how anxiety can make you feel slightly unreasonable sometimes. I have questioned today our 'friendship'. It certainly has eaten away at me all day.
Have I over reacted? Or is it time to call it a day with this 'friend'?
All replies welcome :)