Still Autumn days in the village with lots of support for all kinds of MH problems - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis etc thread 2

[MySpideySenseTickles]

The thread filled up!
I made a new one hope no one minds.

Keema - well that's the kind of putting it out there that you need! Very well done its a great article :)

CIQ - thinking of you and your family x

Pulled and Nethuns - you have both been a little quiet. Hope you are both ok? :)

Another okay/fairly good day today. Anxiety seems to have dropped way back down to a decent level again, so am once again bumbling along fairly normally!

Thinking of you all ((hugs))

Can't sleep- cat is taking up most of my pillow and DP is talking in his sleep

I suppose it isn't that bad, I don't want to move the cat because she's doing the twitchy-paw kitten flashback thing, plus she's been really clingy since I got out of hospital, bless her!

Although DP did frighten the life out of me a few minutes ago when instead of muttering he announced "Well that needs sorting out, disgraceful!" Really rather loudly! No idea what needs sorting

I've tested it was negative.
I know we can't afford a baby, I know I've been told that I shouldn't get pregnant again and I know I'm not well enough yet to even think about it.
I know all these things but I'm devastated anyway.
I called Dh to tell him and even though he's been very vocal about it not being a good thing if I was he seemed a bit disappointed too.
He says maybe in a couple of years when I'm healthier and fitter maybe we could go to the drs and see if I could manage it. I'll not hold my breath though.

Thanks collar glad your anxiety is better today.
spidey hmm his partner sounds interesting! Be kind to yourself this afternoon, I think there's often a weird mixture of emotions with a negative result like yours.

victrix hope you got some sleep in the end. Cat sounds cute though!

Well went out for a walk with a good friend this morning, did supermarket run. Dh rang sounded v low " got to stand on my own two feet. .." and I haven't managed to pick myself up since.

Ds has cried tonight because for days he's been asking if there's a baby in my tummy, no idea where he got the idea because he was asking before I realised I was late.
I've been saying "no there's no baby In my tummy" tonight I told him I'd checked and definately no baby. He was gutted he says he wants a baby to share his bedroom and play with him.
I feel a bit extra shit now for keeping him an only child, it's extremely unlikely I'll ever have another baby so he'll miss out on having a sibling, although my siblings didn't turn out to be such a good thing.

((( spidey ))) Does DS have any cousins/close friends?

((( CIQ ))) It must be very difficult.

Lol victrix

I'm glad things are going ok, collar

Do you mean CIQ your DH was saying "he had to stand on his own two feet" - it sounds a sort of male comment if you know what I mean. I often think mental illness might be more difficult for men, as in the main they aren't used to discussing their feelings and confiding in others, in the way that most women are... I always feel a bit ashamed when I have bad days and in the past, this was a more or less permanent emotion I experienced, which is illogical really as I don't feel like this with a physical illness. I think depression is a deceitful illness because it makes us think things about ourselves that aren't true and my CPN tells me that this is in fact a symptom of depression, as is the belief that we'll never get better.

You've had your own experience of depression CIQ so you will be in a good position to understand DH - it's very early days too, as he is an IP he is obviously severely depressed and I don't think you can expect too much just now. You need to make sure you get support for yourself too.

Hello to everyone else ......... just can't keep up with you all now, as am only lurking, but sending warm wishes to all.

He has cousins but they're older and we're NC with my family. Dh family have no children ds is the only child to be born this generation.
None of Dh friends have kids and I'm too awkward to have any friends. He'll have to settle for the cat.

I bought a size 16 skirt today! I'm not a size 24 anymore!

Congratulations on the weight loss, spidey

Is anyone watching doctor who?

Hi snowy no just a bit of strictly tonight then chat with an old friend. Was it a good one?

Spidey that's brilliant!

Long day ok visit to dh with kids, clearly pleased to see him. Good friend round this eve had a good chat. Rather daunted by tomorrow - first Sunday recently just me and the kids and they have lots of homework left to do. .. Oh well.
Take care all x

I miss proper sleep. At least once I get my op a week tomorrow that's one thing sorted.

Having a with my cat right now

I only meant to come down for a drink and painkillers, but now the cat is sleeping on me so I'm stuck here

It was ok, last one until Christmas.

I hope you got some more sleep, victrix

Thanks for the heads up keema, you're doing a great job

Thanks Snowy. It's been all consuming this week, but it's worth it if it changes what they've done.

No sleep Snowy but I did a bit of gardening so hopefully the fresh air will help me sleep tonight

Have shared your page Keema

Have shared your page keema.

Snowy How's today been?

Victrix cat sounds cute!

Dh rang me early pm to at he'd been moved to another hospital. Complete surprise. Had to ring round four wards before I could find him. Feeling overwhelmed.

That's rubbish for you CIQ

I'm trying to do some more of my OU course today, concentration is challenging.

That sort of stress is so unnecessary, hope you feel a bit better now CIQ x

My concentration and short term memory is shocking just now Snowy I feel your pain!

Feeling like today has actually been ok despite the lack of sleep, my dad popped in for a visit which was nice. Got the degus moved into their nice new cage so they're happy and I did some terrible knitting while watching the F1.
Keep feeling like I'm on the verge of another gallstone attack but since they are getting removed a week tomorrow I've taken my max dose of pain relief and given them a stern talking too! It's my birthday on Wednesday and I'm not spending it in hospital, I refuse

At least I should sleep tonight.

Fighting talk victrix good for you! And thanks x

snowy good for you for giving it a go.

Ended up ringing a friend to ask her to come over to help me with kids. Feel guilty though as she has a huge amount going on and looked knackered. She also suggested I get back in touch with my counsellor so feel paranoid that it's too much for her supporting me. ..

Maybe worth a shot CiQ, give you somewhere to vent a bit.

Hope you've staved off an attack Victrix!

I don't know how you manage Snowy! are you learning anything interesting?

Hope you're ok lem and nn and everyone else.

I'm in a fog of nothing here. Just realised I haven't paid any bills for the past two months...nor filed my tax return...nor done anything else I should.The place is a mess and I've not cleaned properly for a while now. Trying to drag myself into sorting things, but it seems insurmountable :(

I got a letter the other day to remind me I'd forgotten to apply for Ds to go to school! Im so shit at this parenting thing!

Don't worry spidey I did the same! At least there's two of us. I assumed he would be automatically enrolled. He wasn't!