Still Autumn days in the village with lots of support for all kinds of MH problems - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis etc thread 2

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CIQ -We wouldn't have you post anywhere else, and it's when you feel at that low point that you need to be here ;)
You have many friends here in the village, and you need support after your very difficult time x

I hope you can get some sleep xx

Thanks collar I really needed to hear those words of support tonight xx

Oh CIQ I'm so sorry to hear that your DH is an IP - assume he has a diagnosis of severe depression/anxiety. I know you said a while ago that you were worried he was "slipping" I terms of his mental health (my word not yours). Am I right in thinking this whole thing started with your DH's depression and then you became depressed, and seemed to get better, although like most of us you fluctuated, and then there were difficulties in your r/ship with DH, and now DH is depressed again..............and you are unsurprisingly feeling very low, and vulnerable and oh I dunno just really anxious I imagine.

Please stay in the Village - you are one of the "core group" of villagers and need to be where you can get some virtual support. I dip in and out of the thread, but usually lurk when I'm not posting, but will make sure I look in to see how you are.

Hope the hospital is not too far away. Being an IP can be very boring and time passes very slowly - and to be honest in my experience there is not a great deal of compassion from the staff, but that does depend on individuals I know. Other patients can sometimes be irritating when you are feeling so crap. I hope he has his own room (think shared rooms have thankfully been phased out) and at least he is safe there for now.

Take care and keep posting if it helps.

Oh ciq hugs. I hope you managed to get some sleep. Take care of yourself.

Thanks pyrrh, nana
He's safe now and staff seem good.

History in a nutshell - dh v anxious and depressed for 2012 finally sought treatment Sept. I became ill beginning 2013 as result of stress of that plus several other very difficult events. Recovered and pretty well this year. Struggling in relationship with dh, started Relate this summer (in hindsight prob dh slipping back into depression contributed to my feelings about him) dh stopped sleeping beginning Sept and things went rapidly downhill from there. I remain well but clearly this is a v difficult time so am up and down and sometimes anxiety gets out of control - like last night - but have had a good day today x

(( CIQ )) Glad you've had a good day today

Anyone else's street resemble a war zone this evening?

Sorry to hear of your troubles CIQ I will be thinking of you.

I am trying to get back into this thread.

I am being discharged on Monday, on fluxoetine and aripriprazole. Feel good and bad and have some very dark days still. I am still sectioned which sucks but hopefully it will be taken off soon. I am tired of everything but trying to be hopeful.

Oh fuck that's bad.... Like literally the worst thing that could happen..
I realised yesterday that my period is about two weeks late, the smell of bonfire smoke just made me throw up...
I can't be pregnant! I can't have a baby, I can physically get pregnant but it's a really bad idea as ds had me wheelchair bound temporarily but I was warned another baby might put me in a chair permanently and we couldn't afford it and I wouldnt cope with another dc
I darent test, I'm just hoping my period comes soon.

(((( CIQ ))))
(((( fluffy ))))

((spidey))
((fluffy)) and thanks.
thanks victrix yes, only just calming down here!

Better day today. Had chat with a lovely friend before going off to visit dh, and that helped with visit. Dh increased Sertraline on Mon and he's a lot more anxious - but I know its cos of the Sertraline. OK visit. Me and my lovely dad took kids to see some fireworks and they were a real boost for everyone . College tomorrow which is good too.

CIQ - I am so pleased that today has been a better day :)
You did well to take your DC out this evening with your dad for fireworks. A little enjoyable distraction is a good thing ;)
Just make sure you take good care of yourself, it sounds as though you have good RL support around you :)

Fluffy - good to hear from you :) sending you ((hugs))

Spidey - fingers crossed for you that it comes asap!!

Nana - did you have a good time over in the Emerald Isle?

Victrix - hell no not stopped here yet!! We have never done fireworks, but always leave my patio door curtains open to mump off watching my neighbours fireworks!

Snowy - hope your day was ok?

Nethuns - how are you?

I haven't had too bad a day today thank god! Very busy at work, but at least it distracts me for 8 hours!
However looking forward to being off tomorrow. I shall start a little online Xmas shopping :)

I've had no sleep but I'm getting stuff delivered so I can't sleep now

Well done Keema

Keep looking after yourself too x

Made a start on my ESA application. Clear as mud

I need advice
I think I've dug myself a hole, I really struggle in social situations and struggle to understand body language, especially in men, and due to my childhood I have a tendency to interact with men in a flirty way. It's not intentional and I try to just talk normally but somewhere along the line it always ends up a little flirty.
Long story short ive been chatting to one of the dads on the school run, his Ds and mine hit it off on the first day of school and now they're BFFs no one else in the playground has bothered to talk to me probably because I never seem to fit in properly, I'm always dressed a little smarter (not in my pjs at 3pm!) I don't hang round outside the gates smoking and I'm painfully shy so wouldnt dream of walking up to people and saying hi!
Well this guy approached me a few weeks ago and we chatted a bit about our dc and how well they got on, at first we just said hi etc if we happened to be standing near each other but then it progressed to him seeking me out in the playground and today we were chatting at pick up and his ds came out first, he waited for my ds to come out then walked down to my car with me despite him living in completely the opposite direction and he's always making little comments about how much his coat cost and how many toys his ds has etc as if he's trying to impress me.
Am I thinking too much into it? As I say I really struggle to know what people mean and how people behave, he's met my husband and ive met his partner so it's not like I've made out I'm availiable but when his partner comes to do the school run or my Dh comes its totally different just a "hi" and a wave across the playground.

I was going to invite his ds to play at the weekend but because they're only 3 and the kid doesn't know me he'd have to bring a parent. I'm reluctant to invite him in case this guy thinks I'm leading him on.

Ugh if I try to distance myself he'll think I'm really rude.
I don't know what to do!
(Although this is distracting me a bit from the glaring absence of my period)

I might've lied when I said "long story short" sorry.

I found the benefits and work website useful, victrix

I hope someone comes along with advice, spidey, I'm no good at that sort of thing.

Spidey- my bet is he is lonely.

WOW the New Statesman no less Keema - very impressed. It's a brilliant article.

He maybe is, Dh doesn't think there's anything to it. I just don't have a compass on these things. Dh can be insanely jelous sometimes so he must think it's harmless and I'm just thinking too hard about it.

Brilliant keema !
Spidet - maybe meet somewhere public with kids eg indoor play place. I think lonely is prob true.

Good luck victrix

I've met his partner a few times and if I'm honest she seems a bit of a bitch, she was bollocking him quite loudly in the full playground once for putting the wrong colour socks on their ds, it's not a uniform requirement to wear certain socks so I don't know why the fuss but it was a bit off to do it in front of everyone.
Maybe be thinks I'm lonely too, he probably thinks right!