Still Autumn days in the village with lots of support for all kinds of MH problems - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis etc thread 2

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((((Fluffy)))) we are all here for you.

Snowy - hopefully you will feel chirpier tomorrow :)

Pulled - hope you feel much better tomorrow poor you :(

Victrix - how is your skin today? What was the verdict on chickengate part 2??

Spidey - I second all that silvery said to you. Good god hats off to your auntie! walking 150 miles for the hell of it lol! I'm exhausted just thinking about that....

MP - are you looking forward to a second week back at work?

Silvery - I am glad that you are doing ok :)

Nethuns - how are you?

Juneywoony - good to hear from you. It's small steps so having a bath is good! How long is your home leave?

Fuzzpig - where are you??

Ivy - welcome to the village :)

Hugs to you all and to Nana, Lem and CIQ :)

As for me I have had an okay day. Pottering doing er... not a lot!! But sometimes having a general faff about and wandering aimlessly is good ;)

Skin much better today thanks Collar - and today's chicken wasn't green

I think she did it to prove she could, she's just turned 60 and did a skydive over the summer too. She's awesome I'm glad we're back in contact.
Going to look at a car tomorrow, hopefully it's ok because otherwise I'll be carless till Friday as I can't go to that garage alone and Dh is working, I get anxious going to tesco for milk. I wouldn't cooe at a garage alone.

Victrix - yay on both counts!! :)

Spidey - 60? Oh grief now that really puts me to shame :( I walked back from town yesterday (slightly uphill) and have been moaning to dh and anyone who will listen today about the shin splints I now have today!! I am 43!!
You are not alone in wanting to avoid garages. DH is taking my car Monday as it seems to have an oil leak. I think I would rather boil my head then take it myself!!

hi collar
thanks for the wave glad you've had an ok day. Am lurking.... take care

and best wishes to everyone x

CIQ!!! :) good to hear from you!! ((((Hugs))))

Ugh, my sleep is going downhill again

Might take the doctor up on her offer of more pills at my appt on Tuesday.

I asked for a weeks home leave, basically I'm trying to run before I can walk. I had to convince them I wasn't going to do anything stupid and that I was in control of my thoughts, but when she said that about being in control of my thoughts she planted a seed and I am worrying I am not in control of my thoughts.

I'm not coping at home, I can barely do anything for myself, washing, dressing etc is so so hard. I've forgotten how to cook, clean etc it's not that I can't be bothered it's that I just can't my brain just won't function. I'm so scared that this is now my permanent state of mind and I won't get better.

My brain won't shut off I can't concentrate, I can't watch the tv or read, I can't stand music, I just feel full of panic and dread permanently, I feel like I'm in an awful nightmare that I can't wake up from.

Hi all. Sorry I can't quite keep up with this thread! Fluffy, hope you're hanging in there xxx
Hugs to all who are struggling. My concentration is shocking so am not able to say individual hellos. Pp, sorry I've scrolled down so forgotten your name, but sounds so hard just now for you, I hope you can feel a bit better soon. We've all been there on this thread I think. It's grim, so sending good wishes. I was the same a month ago, still struggling but am up and dressed and even made the tea last night! xxx
One week into quietiapine, on 50 mg. Helps sleep, too early to tell otherwise. Feel a bit achy not sure if it's connected?? Seems counterintuitive to take a drug that sedates when I'm already struggling with energy and motivation, but will try anything!!
Have a restful day all xx

Juney, call them up tell them you weren't ready and can you come back. Maybe have a little more time to heal and when you go home again you'll feel better. Don't stay home and struggle it'll just set you back.
I have bought a fiat punto, basically they're taking my crappy car and giving me a working one which is quite nice and I'm giving them less money than I was quoted to repair mine. The tax is cheaper, insurance is cheaper and I'm dropping from a 2lt beast to a 1.1lt tiny thing.
Dh has christened it the fiat cunto. To anyone else its freddy, can't get it till Tuesday when it's mot'd etc but he's bodged my car (all hail ducttape!) so I can use it for short distances, ds to school I can do my run and then get back to the garage.
All a bit better but the stress of going to the garage has set off my IBS so I'm stuck in the loo. I'm dreading Tuesday, I've got to pick it up by myself while ds is at school because Dh is working.

jooney may I suggest you ring and ask to be re-admitted. It doesn't sound like you're ready to be home yet. Part of being in is not having to think about what to eat, not having to cook, not having to clean.

(((( all ))))

I've given in and ordered pizza. and cookies.

juney I would ask to go back for a bit, can you split your leave up - do a few days at home and a few days back IP

nethuns keep going with the quetiapine, the sleepyness wears off

I am ok today, bit upset and down but ok. Scared about seeing Dr tomorrow. Think I am going to end up in PICU.

(((( fluffy )))) If you do end up in PICU, it'll only be because they think that's the best place to treat you.

Still scary though :( We shall see.

I would but I really hate it there, I have a real phobia of the night times, plus there's one woman who I chat to sometimes who is really suicidal, they have given her 15 minute unescorted leave a day and she was telling me she was thinking of doing something stupid, I just cant cope with that, I had years of my sister telling me she wanted to kill herself and she did.

I don't want to be there and I don't want to be here I just want this to all go away.

((( all )))
Thank you to all for the get well wishes. Been another Crappy day here too just wanna shut down now. sorry I read the thread but nothing registered in my brain so cannot reply to anyone personally
Just taken my meds plus zopiclone and diazepam as need some sleep tonight.
Thinking of u all though and Hope everyone has a peaceful night xxx

I'm used to only seeing people I know well for more than a couple of minutes so going to look at that car today was quite revealing, family accept me as I am and don't seem to notice anything out of the ordinary but after 45min at the garage the guy was chatting to Dh while I was looking round the car and Dh says he commented that it was a good car for me as its a fun car to drive and I seem really eccentric.
I wasn't aware that I sas eccentric but Dh told me apparently my behaviour can be quite odd and erratic sometimes.
Probably because when he wanted to test drive my car I couldn't find the keys in my bag so rotors it out on the forecourt, eight balls of wool, five crochet hooks, fluffy slippers and a few other things spread out on the ground and I was a bit embarrassed by the contents of my bag as I'm not a weird old lady I'm only 31 so waved my slippers at him and said "I've found my keys and my slippers!" And apparently you aren't supposed to name cars and chat to them in garages.
Then I was chatting to mil this afternoon and we were talking about the gbbo and I said applications were open now and I might apply, baking is one thing I'm actually good at! She basically said I shouldn't apply because they wouldn't put me on tv as I seem "unstable and a bit strange" and also I wouldn't be able to handle the stress.
So basically the whole world thinks I'm a sandwich short of a picnic andbhowever hard I try to be normal I come across as weird and nuts.
I think it's the fluoxetine making me act a bit strange, I don't seem to have proper inhibitions at the moment.

Which is a good thing as whether it's drug induced or not a little bit of confidence is amazing for someone with such low self esteem.

Sorry about the typos my phone is an idiot.

It's my birthday today and I'm being spoiled. Feel a bit panicky being the centre of attention but it's nice all the same. Going out now to a restaurant in the village with DP and some friends.

Strength and love to all today.

Happy birthday mp! Enjoy being spoiled, I'll be in Holland for my birthday so I'm expecting to be hugely spoiled lol

Happy birthday MP, enjoy your meal.

Happy birthday MP enjoy

Happy birthday mp hope you had a fab day.

I spent the morning at a soft play 4yr old party - exhausting!