Still Autumn days in the village with lots of support for all kinds of MH problems - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis etc thread 2

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I was tearfully grateful to the nurses who sat with me or hugged me or whatever because they were being SO kind and my friends weren't.

Oh yeah, you really know who you're friends are when things like this hit.

Can be so dissapointing on top of everything else. But better to know!

And there really are some lovely people in the MH profession, for all the shit ones

Apart from an incredible consultant psychiatrist I didn't see any other mh staff, just medical ones. I did however spend three days waiting for a mh person to come and see me.

A month ago I was told that the mental health access team had decided that I needed more support than they could offer so they'd passed me on to cmht, except its been a month with no support at all, I needed someone last week but don't know who I could call. Luckily I'm doing ok and really just want to talk through what's happening with the voice and seeing things but have no where to turn.
Had I become really ill and gone into crisis I would have no one to help me.
The mh support in this country is abysmal.
Last night I was feeling pretty rough overnight, I'm struggling to sleep and feel much worse when I'm awake in the night, I was considering how I could get the hospital to admit me because at the moment it seems that there's only help and support for inpatients.
I just need to open my brain and let it all out.

Oh you sweetheart. Can you google the number for the crisis team and ring them? Or turn up at out of hours and request they do something? Easier said than done I understand.

I'm seeing my gp tomorrow afternoon and I'm going to ask her to help me to find the support.
I've even tried the Samaritans but they were little help, all they wanted to know was whether I was in immediate danger and when I said no they didn't seem interested.
Everyone thinks I'm all better I don't want to shatter their illusions because I am doing well, my mood is better and a bit more stable but the monster is still there he's just pushed back a bit.

I text the samaritians a lot. It can take a little while for them to reply sometimes but I've found it easier to explain how I feel that way. Maybe try that?

((( spidey ))) Good luck with the G.P tomorrow I hope he/she is helpful. Sounds like you need the extra support. Maybe ask your GP to call the Cmht tomorrow while your there to find out what's going on?

Hello to everyone else and hope the day has been kind to you

I've spent the day in bed mostly thanks to the voices bringing me down. Not been able to concentrate on anything or anyone for that matter. DH & family have gone out for the evening. I'm enjoying the quite of the house but just wished my head would do the same i feel exhausted from fighting with my voices all day. Counting the hours to bed time now.

Hope you feel better soon pulled

I've felt really uncomfortably numb/unreal all day & just snappy with DS. It feels strange & weirds me out but I know obsessing about it makes it worse. DS is waking a lot so I'm not sleeping well & just feeling edgy.

Feeling crap here today, in bed with a tub if ice cream.

Also just had a Ben & jerry's (half baked, my fave!) MP

Had a bad day? What flavour have you got?

Bad day for no reason. I have Haagen Dazs macadamia nut brittle. I'm not even hungry, I had a huge portion of toad in the hole for supper. Ice cream is just comforting.

Spidey - hope your Gp will be helpful and give you the help and support you need.

MP - sorry that you are feeling crap :( is the ice cream helping?!! What flavour? I have a thing for dark choc mint mini magnums at the mo :)

Pulled and Orchard - (((hugs))) for you both

Snowy - how are you today?

Hope everyone else has had an ok day? :)

Oh wow, I feel like a heathen now...Can I retract that and say mine was Pistachio?

Sorry to hear that. I should have loved being at the zoo with DS earlier but I just felt numb, drained and hated the crowds. Then felt guilty on top for not enjoying it for DS. Nevermind.

Hope the ice cream helps mine has

Ha! Glad I am not the only ice cream flavour curious... :)

I'm restless and irritable so I've spent most of the afternoon cooking and baking to try and keep it functional.

I'm having a bad day collar, physically and mentally rough.

Sorry so many people are having a rough time, hope tomorrow is a better day for all.

Sorry to hear that Snowy

orchard thanks for the and thanks for the hugs collar

Oh ice cream is a good call I fancy some now too. Will have to wait till DD is in bed before I raid the fridge as they are back.

MP & snowy ((( hugs )))

Sorry so many of us are feeling crap

orchard I'm sure your DS enjoyed the trip and probably didn't even notice anything on your part sorry u didn't enjoy it much, it must have been tough especially with feeling numb and drained.

I have internet again! Free hospital WiFi is a glorious thing. Still in pain but there was no way to do the surgery over the weekend due to proper emergencies. Hopefully if I'm still in they might be able to do it this week.

On a more selfish note I am really grateful to my DP for bringing me my headphones- I appreciate that the woman in the bed next to me is also ill and in pain but she hasn't shut up talking/singing/whingeing and complaining for 48 hours and I need silence to function

Icecream...!i can't have ivecre, well I coy but even ignoring the calories it sets off my IBS so isn't worth it.
I have eaten meat and potato pie with peas and bakewell tart with custard and a fat gooey piece of chocolaty cake for tea, Also taste tested mil new Christmas cake recipe which is amazing! Diet day off is awesome! Back on it tomorrow.

The gp always seems so pleased that I'm doing ok I don't want to upset her by saying I'm not really ok at the moment, I can't concentrate and when I went to the cash machine tonight (in the dark because I'm an idiot) there was a man stood at the other side of the carpark and I convinced myself he was there to mug me, even though I'd be finished and back in the car before he could cover the distance! I was so freaked out I got back in the car and got halfway out of the carpark before I persuaded myself to go back.
Once I'd gone back and was using the machine when I'd typed the amount in I was aware of a man standing behind me, I could feel his presence and sort of see him in my peripheral vision I was convinced he had a knife, when I turned round to defend myself there was no one there and of course the voice was putting his oar in telling me I was going to be stabbed, I was going to be robbed and they'd steal the car with ds in it too.
Of course looking back now I know there was no one there and since the carpark was empty (the guy had wandered off down the road by the time I'd psyched myself up to getting out of the car) there was very little chance anyone would have been there, I also know that the voice talks bollocks but it was so real and so terrifying it was over an hour ago and my heart is still pounding.

I'm supposed to be getting better but this is more stressful and upsetting than the depression.

Also I need icecream now

Tesco finest stem ginger, if anyone is offering.

((( victrix ))) really hope they do the surgery next week and stop you suffering in pain. Your not being selfish about needing silence either. I'm sure I would have killed someone today if my family hadn't given me a break for a couple of hours.

Sorry to hear that Spidey. Sounds scary. I had similar when very very stressed in hospital (minus the voice) and that feeling of someone being there/you being in danger is really horrible even if it's not real. Hope you can talk to your GP about it.

Sympathize on the IBS front. Been ok this month but it can be doubly miserable when you can't even comfort eat

Hope everyone has a better day tomorrow.