Still Autumn days in the village with lots of support for all kinds of MH problems - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis etc thread 2

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The thread filled up!
I made a new one hope no one minds.

Hi Dizzy, feel similar myself sometimes. It's 'just' depression/anxiety but it's been an issue since I was 13 due to severe bullying that started around then, so growing up I've been shaped by it. In some ways made stronger though, which I try to hold on to. I can remember thinking about not wanting to be here as early as 12 so it's something I worry about with DS. He luckily seems much more outgoing and happy than I was as a child though Natural to worry (a bit anyway). You wouldn't wish this stuff on an enemy let alone your children.

Can't believe some of the people on that site stuff thread I posted when I was suicidal last year (but did put trigger warning in the actual title as I was worried). I got the help I needed more thanks to MN than my family, who just didn't know how to help and a rubbish GP. I think MNHQ will leave it be, they must know how many people get help and like people said, you can just ignore a thread.

Looking forward to Halloween. But having a terrible week. After all the breakup stuff, then being ill my uncle (who had bipolar and a gambling addiction) has just dropped it on the family that he's being taken to court by work for stealing on the job and has already resigned (despite needing the money as he has a wife and kids). He used it to gamble as my aunt has control of finances because of his gambling. Just a nightmare. She doesn't work. And he has a habbit of dissapearing, last time to kill himself but he was found and arrested/sectioned. The whole family is scared and I don't have the heart to tell my DM how bad I'm feeling on top of it. I know she'd want me to but I'm leaving it a week or so. I have a friend in rl I can talk to about it, at least.

What an essay

Hope everyone's ok this morning. Good luck with the dentist Snowy

No boat, not paddle. Just people standing on the bank lobbing stones in the general direction...

Was doing ok, but those threads on site stuff have actually unsettled me (more than anything else I've ever read on here) so am going to step away.

I think I'm going to hide today. I had plans of things to do, but feel as all my energy has been sucked away. Potty training DD so an increased wash load! Desperately need to clean. Invited people I know from playgroup around on Tuesday and no one even bothered to answer me. Not one. Not even to say no thanks, we have other plans. And I know they all saw because I did it over facebook and it tells me when they've read the message. Someone else has posted today inviting everyone to theirs this afternoon and everyone else has answered to say either yes or no. I'm going to decline because I don't think I can face it.

Just had a text message from my counsellor suggesting a call today. Bit worried. Not spoken to him for a while now (3 months?) apart from a couple of brief check ins. Very nervous, which I know is stupid.

Hope you are all ok. not going to name people as I'm sure I'll miss someone out.

Morning all,

Dropped DD off to school, how I managed that I don't know. Just sat down for a and 's need the energy boost.

Welcome dizzy

orchard I hope ur uncle's family sort things out, it sounds like a horrible situation to be in. ((( hugs ))) for you.

pyrhhh potty training is very hard my DD only got it 3 months ago and she is 4 I was worried she would start school in nappies but she just got it one day. Ur DD will do too.

I read some of the threads yesterday but like everyone found the comments really upsetting so just stepped away.

Hope everyone else is having an ok morning

Just popping in to say hello and then goodbye.

Too many things have happened on mnet that i feel like it is any longer the place for me.

This thread has been my lifeline over the past few years so i want to thank you all. I wont list names but you'll know who you are. Keep safe and be kind to yourselves

Xxxxxxxxx

(((( LEM ))) hope u stay safe too, please look after urself & should you want to pop back in please do.

Im hoping in a selfish way that the thread will remain open as right now I really need a space to be able to talk about my feelings/fears etc. And everyone on here has been such great support. Even when I lurke I feel supported.

Take care of yourself LEM

I'm getting the feeling that lots of people are looking for something to be angry about at the moment

((( LEM ))) Please take care, I'll miss you.

Take care of yourself lem. Thank you for your support, advice and kindness.

I hope so too pulled but I get the impression we're not the kind of posters who are wanted here . I'll stay til they close the thread down :(

Reeling a bit. I'm going to have to email my counsellor and tell him I don't actually remember any of our phone call (during which I burnt the Dc's lunch!) and he's going to have to recap for me by email. Feeling useless. Should take the DC out for a walk as we have a rare day of sunshine, but DS doesn't want to go out and DD has just asked to go to bed for a nap.

Lem I hope one day you will feel ready to come back xx
I do feel like the rest of mumsnet doesn't want us here. It's making me sad.

Hugs LEM, thank you for your support over the last 6 months I've been in the village.
Spidey, yep me too. Yet the village is really the only place I feel I can get reliable support on mn these days.

Sorry to see you go, LM. I haven't been on this thread for long and haven't posted much, but I find it really helpful.

Dizzy - welcome. I know what you mean about mental illness affecting your life even when one is well. Like you, I was horrifically bullied at school and I'm sure that is one of the causes of my depression.

I have bipolar.

Hi all - hugs to those who are struggling.

I have finally emerged from a month long spell of depression. I think a lot of it was caused by real life events - my dad was ill (now better) and there been some worrying things going on as well.

It's such a horrible illness. Of course, after the down came the high. I didn't let it go on too much and took some extra quetiapine, as advised by my psychiatrist. The high was actually rather unpleasant - felt really agitated and restless.

I know this maybe a premature reaction on my part but if MN did close the threads down where would you all move over to get the same kind of support???

I've just searched the net and can't say anywhere jumped at me and it's starting to worry me

I have no idea pulled.

Sorry to hear that LEM. And thank you.

Those site stuff threads are depressing. Posted on one but it was just so upsetting! Makes me feel bad for posting and getting help off here last year. Like I don't feel guilty enough...

MN can be shit sometimes.

It's just goes to show the stigma in it's full glory

Seems that way. I'm not the only one who feels it's a little MH-shaming am I? May just be over reacting but people post about other very distressing things (stillbirths, misscarriages, cancer etc) and no one would ask them not to or ridicule them for posting on MN instead of having rl support etc. But that's what I've read a lot of. I'm eternally greatful to MN and those who posted on my thread a year ago. Got me the support I needed, because frankly, I found the Samaritans a bit rubbish not saying they are I just needed more advice than they could give and the GP was being crap at the time. The best advice I got during that time was from MN.

Hope that's not what's driven you away LEM (You actually posted on my thread back then but I was under a name change, but thank you)!

It's exactly that isn't it. HQ have put a post at the top of this (Mental health) board suggesting we might like to read the post (they've linked it, don't read it if you're feeling shaky) or comment on separately on the one on the MH board.

Just read the newest one in site stuff, from MNHQ and it's not a nice read. Would advise others to steer clear. And people say there's lots more understanding now etc

Couldn't agree more orchard it's very upsetting to see us being singled out.

Just seen the the thread at the top of mental health board. Not sure I want to leave a comment on either thread tbh.

Something about it just seems so wrong. I love MN but it's unsettling. Hidden the threads to avoid temptation to post something angry in response to some of the worse things that have been posted.

On the plus side my favourite show is on tonight, so I'm settling in with that and my new massive duvet. I'm hoping new bedding will cheer me up. Nothing better than throwing out sheets you and your ex shared

Hope everyone else is having an ok afternoon

Please post your views here - possibility of stating how you feel about it.

I'm hacked off with the whole thing. Seriously hacked off.

Terrible things happen to people and they can post on MN, yet somehow we need protecting from outselves and peer support doesn't count, it has to be the fucking Samaritans.

This is a form of RL help for me. When I was in hospital, being able to escape to MN every now and again allowed me to chat to folks away from the hospital setting, and away from my family that had all of their own shit to deal with.

All of the lovely MNers who sent me post. All of them who came and talked and sympathised or made me laugh.

ARGH. It's so bloody frustrating.

Like I said in my post on Rowan's thread, there seem to be people who want to infantilise us.

Arggggghhhh lost my post stupid phone.

orchard hope the duvet changing does make you feel better. What is ur fav programme? I could do with a distraction tonight.

I'm not sure I should even say this but when I was at my lowest contacting the Samaritans actually made me feel worse than better. It was actually me stumbling across here that helped me. People were so kind and helpful. I just didn't want to talk to anyone in RL so I talked on here.

snowy I read ur post, very well put. I was going to also add my opinion but I don't really know what to say or how to say it without sounding emotionally unstable