Autumn days in the village with lots of support for all kinds of MH problems - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis etc

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We were considering Turkey but that's not really any further from the trouble! Possibly Italy or Spain maybe. Not got a clue.

Hey fluffy, I hope you all don't mind me intruding on this thread but I followed your story when you were very unwell last year and was amazed by your strength then and how far you have come.

I can imagine how horrific things are right now as I have been in a similar place. Recovery from severe mental illness is a long haul and I know it's hard but try not to see relapsing as a fail.

I just wondered if you would consider a different approach to your situation. I don't believe that a chemical imbalance causes suffering and I don't believe that medication is the answer, the medical model doesn't suit everyone . I think that extreme human reaction like hearing voices and seeing visions is a very logical response to extreme experiences whether that be stress or adversity and trauma in the past. There are lots of studies that show a correlation between trauma or adversity and mental illness.

Do you think it's possible that these very real messages you are receiving are actually not wanting you to harm yourself but are communicating something else entirely. Is it something you could explore in therapy? Something relating to your past? You seem so stuck at the moment.

I strongly believe there is hope for your recovery fluffy and a happy life is there somewhere. People can recover. Thinking of you x x x

I haven't been able to stop sobbing since two days ago. I should have more resilience than this, it would have been lose-lose either way. If they'd said I needed a face to face assessment I wouldn't have coped, but the result I got is also upsetting because it backs up everyone who said I didn't need to worry because I'm so, so disabled.

((((Snowy))))

Oh Snowy .....sending a hug . Haven't been posting here for a long time now but read your post.
I can understand your feelings re this hideous assessment you have had to deal with . Awful bureaucratic tick boxing that dehumanises those at the receiving end .

Snowy .......I have huge regard for you as so many others here do also.
Your resilience and kindness shines . Your wisdom and tenacity .....the effort you make in doing OU degree .......the fact you always make the best of your day . Your endless patience .
That makes you in my eyes a very very valuable person who inspires others struggling . So much to give .

You have been dealt a shit card in life ........but your disability does not define you . Snowy you are much much more . X

Oh snowy! and (((hugs))) so sorry that you are so down and upset :(

Fluffy - thinking of you too lovely

Spidey - hopefully you will find a great holiday alternative. The Middle East is just too unstable and unpredictable. Westerners are at real risk.
It causes me a problem sometimes, but I am rather partial to keeping my head with the rest of my body! It would terrify me to go to any country that is volatile and extremely dangerous. skeggy would win hands down on that one!!

MP - glad you had a great time at the concert! (I am still curious as to who it was! But understand your reasons for not making that revelation!)

I am ticking along ok. Preparing myself for my second interview on Wed. The job is in retail, but it's quite a nice one with good hours for me.

Thinking of the rest of you NanaNina, Nethuns, Lem, CIQ, Fuzzpig, Pare, Victrix, Silvery, Vicard, Pulled, Thorn. I think that is all of you :)
Apologies if I have missed anyone. But if I go back a page now I will lose my post!

Thanks for all the support, made me Maybe the weekend will help.

Thinking of all of you.

I have no idea how or why but I've just realised I totally forgot to eat today! I had my shake for breakfast but since then apart from water and a couple of coffees it never occurred to me to eat! I've fed ds at all the right times but forgot to feed me!
I should be starving but I'm not even hungry.
Very odd for a comfort eating fatty!

Yes snowy hope you will pick up a bit now over the weekend :)

Well I am going to watch strictly now with a good bag of crisps for company!

Ooh, crisps, I have crisps...

Feeling crap this evening as DH and I were all snappy with each other, my brain being stupid and obsessive - basically I kept on at DH until he sorted an issue that could totally have waited, my paranoia gets overwhelming sometimes and combined with DH's understandable frustration when I'm repeating myself, it makes for an occasional blip in an otherwise brilliant marriage.

I don't know if any of you watch Big Bang Theory but in one newer episode Sheldon describes unresolved issues as like having an itch in your brain you can't scratch - that's totally what it feels like. And actually once I reminded DH of that it was sorted really.

Had a nice snuggle on the sofa after I told him how bad I've been feeling generally - honestly started feeling they'd all be better off without me :( - but he's dog tired (hence snappiness) and I'm totally wired so I'm not ready to sleep, I'm holed up on the sofa with family guy instead.

Hi all, sorry things are so rubbish snowy and fuzz, and everyone else who is struggling today ((( ))).
Congratulations mp for getting out last night! And good luck with next interview collar xx
Hi nn, fluffy et al, sorry I'm rubbish at remembering names!
Well, cpn has got me appointment next Thursday with psychiatrist at last, hurrah!! The psych in question has a special interest in psychopharmacology so ideal under my circumstances.
Dh back to work next Tuesday :-(. He's been off several weeks to look after me. Worried :-(.
Weekend ahead, hope it's ok for everyone.

Still on constants! Ridic. Had a visit from my friend and my parents are coming tomorrow.

Sorry about your holiday spidey I am sure you will find something equally good. Make sure you eat something lovey! (somrthing yummy)

Thank you for your kind thoughts tonight I will have a think about what you said.

Oh snowy lots of hugs (()) I hope you feel better super soon.

Glad things are going ok collar lots of luck for your interview.

fuzz your DH would def def not be better without you, lots of love xx

nethuns glad you are seeing the psych soon, hopefully they can get you sorted!

Thanks fluffy and nethuns

I am grumpy now, I'd just relaxed properly and the neighbours very noisily arrived home from their week away. It's been so nice and quiet :( but now we are instantly back to shouting/swearing, the overwhelming stench of cannabis, our door being knocked on at least twice a day asking for something... Yaaaaay

In a way it's the latter that bothers me most. I hate answering the door. This is a blissfully quiet place normally, at least it was til they moved in. My home is my sanctuary and I feel it's been violated. I know that sounds really silly but whenever there's a knock on the door my heart sinks.

Probably sound really judgy now but to hell with it I don't care. I really want to move away.

I hope no-one minds if I just reply to snowy tonight. snowy dear snowy - I can only endorse every word Bassetfeet has posted to you and couldn't possibly put it any better myself. You will feel how heart felt that post is I know, and every word of it is true. And you'd better believe it!

You say you should have more resilience - I think you have emotional resilience by the bucketful, and why should you have more resilience about this business with your benefits, it's part of the human condition to get upset at times. you are always reaching out to others and making light of your own difficulties, so in a way it's good that you are able to tell us when you are so upset and we can reach out to you. I was one of the people telling you that you were sure to get into the support group so I'm so sorry if that threw your difficulties into sharp focus.

It seems you are a touch embarrassed at the support you are getting and I wonder if you find it difficult to believe that people on here care about you, but why wouldn't we............hope the sadness you feel lessens over the coming days, but remember you are a much valued person on this thread and it's ok to feel crap and tell us about it. xx

Hello to everyone else.

Keema - you ok? You've gone very quiet

Back in hospital again

The ol' gallstones are back at it and this time there's an infection too. Bleh.

Good post nana.
Aw vic! Sorry to hear that :-( xx

Fuzz, it's horrible having neighbours like that :-( x

'Tis indeed nethuns - she is nice and we chat sometimes but in a way that makes it harder for me (unassertive at the best of times) to ever say no to the constant barrage of canyoutakeDDtoschoolhaveyougotanymilkcanIuseyourphoneIneedbusfarefeedmycats (did you notice the lack of the word PLEASE by the way ).

I had to move my laundry today as if I keep it in the pathway between our houses it will smell of weed :( we are pretty sure she is dealing now too... and there's the dilemma of what to tell DCs about why I don't want them going in their house (I don't mind her DD coming here now and again) without causing problems... See this is why the whole thing renders me a blithering heap of worry.

Anyway my positive for the day :o I had a nice morning, having arranged to try out a particular playground with DD's friend and his family. I nearly cancelled as still very achy but basically we went in the car and then just sat on a bench and talked while the children all played. I didn't really know the mum very well so it was lovely to chat for ages. I'm still sore now but happier for the fresh air and adult conversation! I feel bad for going outside at all having been off sick but thankfully my manager was understanding in the past that staying home all the time can make symptoms worse as your muscles and joints seize up.

It's DS' birthday party tomorrow which is scary and will be tiring so I am resting up now and doing more reading.

I hope I'm over the worst of this relapse and it's just been a short blip, because IME if it's not a really short one, it's a REALLY long one. As in, months :(

Victrix yikes that sounds horrible! Sending gentle hugs!

Snowy I wish I knew what to say, I can see why this stress has triggered all these feelings. I remember feeling humiliated filling the form in - the CAB lady was lovely (actually a regular customer at work) but it's horrible thinking in such cold terms about what you can't do, isn't it? Hugs to you - this is a big thing to deal with.

How many children coming to the party, fuzzpig? Sorry your neighbours are so rubbish.

Oh dear victrix - I hope things are sorted soon, hospitals are not nice places to be in.

Thanks, NN I don't know what to say. Still tearful today, but not as bad.

I hope your visit went well, fluffy

It's just 3 guests at rock climbing so it's not at the house or anything (that would never happen in this house!) but I don't know the parents really (in fact one I've never even met as I've only spent time with the boy's nan) and I'm not sure if they're staying or not, it's only an hour as we can't afford to do food as well so I'm wondering if they'll be judging me as a tightwad, as I don't think we've been to a party that doesn't involve food as well :( but we just can't manage it when the rock climbing is £££.

I'm just putting my energy into making nice party bags (which will have sweets/cake so that's kind of food, right?!). Except the space themed balloons didn't arrive in the post. Sulk. I'll keep them for Xmas stockings I think.

Don't feel It would be rude for them to comment on food or lack thereof, it's the rock climbing that's the event.

Party bags sound good

Sorry you are in hospital vix xx

My positive - saw my parents and it was nice and had my hair done and made some glittery boxes.

That sounds good, fluffy

Glad to hear you had a good day fluffy. Any advance on taking the anti-psychotics.

Quiet day here but feeling a lot better. Seeing occupational health on Monday to talk about going back to work. I really want to get back to normality soon.