Autumn days in the village with lots of support for all kinds of MH problems - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis etc

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Shiny new thread. xx

Hello. Is it possible to join you all? I'm into my second year of depression hell with a lot of baggage. I could do with support but im crap at getting it either in real life or here. Defense thing I think. Anyway. Hi!

((( all )))

I'm sat here in tears but of the good kind. It was parents evenings at DD's school tonight which I nearly missed as I had forgotten till they reminded all the parents at pick up time. DD has been getting on tremendously well, is polite & helpful, confident when she needs to be and great help to all her friends and very aware of her manners (says thank you, please, sorry at the right times) The teacher said and I quote "she is an absolute sweetheart and a credit to you for your up bringing. Be a very proud mum" I managed to hold back the tears inside but as soon as I walked out I just wept with pride. This has taken all the pain of today away and I just wanted to share with you all. For all those times where I felt like such a failure as a mother these kind words have made me feel normal again as a mother. Sorry for rambling on but I really wanted to share this with u all

Hi chicken, welcome!

That's lovely to hear, pulled

voilet I hope the carer assessment goes well and they can help with your son or get you in touch with someone who can at least. Swimming sounds great fun

Welcome chicken

Aw Pulled that's brilliant

Hi Chicken, welcome to the village.

violets how very difficult for you. I have seen the effects of alcohol abuse in friends, they did manage to deal with it - in their 50's (we are all in 60's now). It certainly sounds like your DS needs specialist help.

victrix you are not a failure! Did you do you job well before you became ill?

How would the money aspect of it (should it happen) affect you? There are many ways to contribute to the world, although earning money does help

Thanks voilet and victrix

Thanks Silvery, just feeling very flat about the whole thing. Luckily DP's salary covers our monthly outgoings and he has told my my priority needs to be my health and he can deal with everything else.

I was good at my job, but it relies on organisation and communication which quite frankly I can't do right now.

(((( Victrix )))) You are not a failure.

I'm starting CBT next week, I saw a different CPN about it, luckily she wasn't phased by my previous experience of using it with clients, that's always a bit of a worry.

Well done to your dd, pulled

Thinking of everyone, I was worrying over the CBT assessment.

Thanks for the welcomes. I am going to lurk for a bit and get to know you all.

Welcome, AChickenNamedDirk

Thanks Snow. I am so relieved to be welcomed.

Night all. Hoping it all looks better in the morning x

Welcome chicken, I suffered long-term depression, some of it was reactive though, as I thought my depression was making my marriage shit, when a lot of it was the other way round... Since my divorce 2 years ago I've been having a late flowering (though not without incident as you'll have gathered from my posts, perhaps)

Fab stuff pulled

Welcome chicken

Bad night. More ligatures. Feel so low.

Sorry not adding much at the moment.

Hi all - joining the village :)

I have a long history of mental illness, including hospital stays.

I have bipolar type 2.

Yay welcome new villagers. We shall need a new thread soon!
My run really helped yesterday, I've been emailing Samaritans but they just seem to have no idea what they're on about. I'm sure it's more helpful to phone but I can't talk on the phone.
I was waiting for it but Dh finall said what I've been expecting "can you do a bit of cleaning today? It's starting to get messy" when I was very poorly before I was constantly anxious about mess and cleaning up and did about 5 hours cleaning a day, now I do much less (not dirty but not exactly immaculate) and on running days it's lucky if I manage to wash up.
He's gotten used to me hoovering three times a day and he can't understand why suddenly it's only two or three times a week.

I'm just trying to focus on me for the first time but he's used to me neglecting myself to be a domestic goddess, I don't want to spend all my life cleaning and cooking I want to get outside and run and maybe in the future make a couple of friends.
He wants me to get back to the confidence I seemingly had when I met him (which was all a front) but still wants the cleaning and cooking done. I can't be both people and I don't want to be tied to the house forever.
For the first time in my life I'm beginning to find out who I am and find out what I enjoy rather than going along with what others want. He will have to get used to it.

And now the fucking exhaust has fallen off the fucking car!

(((( fluffy ))))

Welcome greyhound

Oh dear spidey, that's rubbish Does it cost much to fix?

Depends if it can be welded or if it needs replacing, it's snapped in half. If it's a big job the cars not worth the cost of repairs so I don't know what I'd do.

(((( spidey )))) I hope it can be welded, you don't need this.

I really want takeaway (haven't since September), but I don't want to stop calorie counting either. (first world problem, I know).

According to Dh it's broken in the same place where we had it welded last time.
Dh has bought himself a lovely Audi a3 and I drive a pile of shit. Admittedly he needs a good car because he travels a lot for work but still it's be nice if things didn't drop off my car!
Hopefully we can raid some money from the holiday savings to cover it.

Most pissed off if it can't be driven because Sil is having Ds all day tomorrow to take him to see his first football match and I was going to go for a run, if I can't drive the car I can't go and I'm not brave enough to run anywhere else but my woods yet.