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Autumn days in the village with lots of support for all kinds of MH problems - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis etc

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fluffydressinggown · 14/09/2014 22:50

Shiny new thread. xx

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Pulledapart · 15/09/2014 10:33

Sorry don't know why it's posted twice Blush I've messaged mumsnet to remove the duplicate.

fluffydressinggown · 15/09/2014 10:48

Welcome fuzzpig and juneywooney - nice to see you here. Juney I also have a diagnosis of BPD.

Had another bad night, ended up doing something again. Hopefully seeing a doctor today.

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Pulledapart · 15/09/2014 11:03

It looks like mumsnet have deleted both my post when I asked for only one to be deleted Confused

I can't remember what I said before so this will be brief.

katkins please talk your friend in RL that u mentioned previously. She may be able to get help for u.

((( fluffy ))) sorry ur night was bad & hope U see the Dr asap Flowers

Welcome juneywoony and fuzzpig

NanaNina · 15/09/2014 11:09

Hope we've all found the new Autumn thread. I saw your post on the old thread snowy and agree with you. I somehow have a feeling though that the drama/emotional manipulation is not going to end anytime soon - but here's hoping.......

SO good to see you Vicar - I still think of these as "your" threads. How are you doing? I know you're busy but it would be nice if you could pop by the village occasionally x

Pyrrhegena Reading your post I began to recall the difficulties that you were having with your son and how you found him quite a "handful" (for want of a better word) I'm sure you are not to blame for your son's difficulties, and I wish you could feel better about yourself as I think you self esteem is quite low - no sure if you agree?

Look I really don't like anyone trying to "diagnose" on these threads, but the constant checking and re-checking and intrusive thoughts about your DH do sound a bit like OCD. Have you thought about this I wonder? So sorry you are still struggling, but then that's what this thread is about isn't it, most of us struggling to a greater or lesser extent.

Juney you don't have to apologise for your post and it certainly doesn't read as "woe is me....." sounds like you are really struggling at present. Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder - hmm I often think this is a bit of a "catch all" diagnosis, when someone doesn't fit neatly into another category of mental illness. Hope you have a supportive DH/DP and others around you. I often wonder how you moms with young children cope with mental illness and children, but I suppose you have to as there is no other choice. On my bad days I have trouble coping with the cats!

Hi Lem - I will PM you.

Welcome fuzzpig - do you want to tell us a bit more about your difficulties?

NanaNina · 15/09/2014 11:14

Hope you're recovering from the upset with your dad Pulled

Fluffy sorry to hear you've had a bad night. I never know whether BPD is Bipolar Disorder or Borderline Personality Disorder - I think the latter?

Hope you have a reasonable day - is there any OT available on the ward?

SnowyMouse · 15/09/2014 11:32

((( fluffy ))) I hope you get to see a dr and they have some useful input.

fluffydressinggown · 15/09/2014 11:36

Borderline Personality Disorder

Nice 1:1s this morning.

There is a nice OT yes but I don't feel like doingmuch tbh. Mostly just watching TV and reading.

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TheSilveryPussycat · 15/09/2014 11:42

Bloomin labels for illness - IMHO they are just helpful(ish) identifiers for symptom clusters - helpful in that they can be linked with meds or other treatment that may help. But we are all unique...

KeemaNaanAndCurryOn · 15/09/2014 11:49

Having a nice 1:1 makes a huge difference. When I was on them, there was one HCA who played games with me, one who chatted and one who I lent books to so we could read in peace.

Then there was the pilsbury dough boy woman who just sat with me in the lounge and griped about her job and sighed to her colleagues about how dull it was on 1:1s. I had a proper rant about her in the end.

Sorry to hear you had a bad night. It's such an utter load of pants.

Pulled: hope your dad is on the mend, it must have been so stressful for you.

Pyrrhegena: my DS was diagnosed with high functioning Autism. All the way through the process, I wondered if it was all because I was a shit parent. Shit parents wouldn't even consider if they were to blame at all, so you're certainly not.

Juney: I remember you from earlier threads. Sorry to hear you wound up in hospital too. It's the pits.

Victrix · 15/09/2014 11:50

Morning all

Garden bin has been emptied but now it is raining which seems unfair. I have lots of lovely flower bulbs to plant for next spring as well.

Managed to phone and get a dr's appointment for Wednesday afternoon. I have my pre-op assessment on Wed at the hospital too, it's going to be a fairly medical day. I'm hoping that I'll be able to dodge all the referendum campaigners since I'll be avoiding the town centre.

Thinking of you all.

SnowyMouse · 15/09/2014 11:56

Good luck for Wednesday victrix, just in case I don't remember.

I've had a medical day, 5 vials of blood (with some difficulty) and admin about the 24 hour blood pressure they want to do in a couple of weeks. I keep forgetting to ask what my blood pressure was. I do feel fortunate that I don't have health anxiety though.

Victrix · 15/09/2014 11:58

Thanks Snowy Smile

I'm actually OK about getting my gallbladder removed - gallstones are the most straightforward medical issue I've ever had Grin

SnowyMouse · 15/09/2014 12:02

That's good to hear Grin

Collardove · 15/09/2014 12:03

Hi everyone - well new day and hopefully a new start for us all :)

Welcome today to fuzzpig :)

Fluffy - how are you today?

As for me I am wondering if I should go back to my GP. I am sinking again. On reduced fluoxetine, but the last week I have been getting increasingly anxious again.

Trying to find a new job over the past couple of weeks with endless online testing has exhausted me. Checking every 5 minutes of the day for an update is raising my anxiety levels to new heights.

I have an interview coming up and am worried that I may not be able to suppress that side of me. But I need a job as money is a little tight with supporting DS at uni again.
I have even started to miss my old job I left a couple of weeks back - and that was the cause of my MH issues!!

My GP seemed keen for me to reduce my meds and come off, so I am wondering what he will say if I tell him I do not think it's working for me? Can he refuse to put me back on them daily?

There is a lot going on at the moment and I can feel myself heading further into the blip...

Collardove · 15/09/2014 12:06

Keema - nice to see you :)

Victrix - I hope it goes well for you. Raining here too :(

Victrix · 15/09/2014 12:09

Collar you could ask to wait until things are settled jobwise etc before reducing your meds? I'm sure your GP would agree with that Smile

SnowyMouse · 15/09/2014 12:12

Perhaps you should go back to your GP, collardove, it doesn't sound great. A lot of people find they need to take it slower than health professionals suggest at first, and job seeking is stressful.

LittleMisslikestobebythesea · 15/09/2014 12:13

Hi everyone is it ok if I join in too?

I have had OCD for over 25 years now, and anxiety including terrible health anxiety.

I'm finding since I took three lots of antibiotics in 3 months that I have had stomach problems since. Don't know if this is linked to my anxiety though, or the tablets. I really should go to the doctor though, but think they fob me off as they know I have health anxiety. I used to go regularly at my old doctors, but now I put off going!

I have got some free counselling which I can take up, and I'm going to, but it's hard making that initial phone call.

I'm lucky in that I have a friend who also suffers anxiety and so we understand each other.

It doesn't help that I'm unhappy in my marriage either, but can't bring myself to leave. (While other thread there so won't bore you with the details!)

I have had citalopram sitting in the cupboard for months, but can't bring myself to take them even though I really want to!

Collardove · 15/09/2014 12:15

Well I am reducing already, and have been for the last 2 weeks. I am thinking I need to go back on them daily again. GP is not as sympathetic as my last, he is quite new at our surgery.

The last conversation I had with him he was of the opinion he thought nearly 12 months on them was long enough :(

SnowyMouse · 15/09/2014 12:16

Welcome LittleMiss Smile I don't know much about OCD or anxiety, but there are people here who do.

Collardove · 15/09/2014 12:17

Snowy - I started off quite upbeat with job hunting.....

I am going to ring my GP and make an apt right now.

NanaNina · 15/09/2014 12:19

Ah Fluffy and Keema - you've made me think of my 2 IP stays (first in 1995 and 2nd in 2010 - both for 3 months) The first one wasn't too bad as it was my first experience of mental illness - severe depression following the death of my closest and dearest friend at aged 46. I responded well to the meds and so got better quickly but the lovely consultant psych on the ward didn't believe in rushing people out and was very caring, if a little odd! I made a complete recovery and was back at work within 3 months of discharge.

I relapsed in 2010 (after coming off the ADs I had been on for 15 years!) even though I did it slowly, within 4 months off finishing I had relapsed. By this time I was 66 and in the "Older People's Ward" - what struck me almost immediately was there was no change in the 15 years between my admissions, in that very basic courtesies were not extended to patients. Staff didn't introduce themselves and that I found really distressing when I was first in and scared of how bad I felt. Oh there was a change - because the Nursing Assts now sat with the patients but it was worse as they just ignored us or talked over our heads or around us.........they never asked how we were or offered any comfort. They were bored out of their minds and often complained about this..........saying how much they had to do at home. The staff nurses were always in the office or bustling about with meds.

There was one NA who was horrendous and my friend commented that she had "the social skills of a slug" so she became known as The Slug. She had a very loud voice and was used to shout rather than talk in a normal voice. She was utterly uncaring and said very nasty things to us and one day actually told me to "pull myself together" - I could barely believe this and I did tell my named nurse, and she wanted to know who had said it but I was too intimidated by the Slug to tell her. The consultant psych was a nightmare - a horrible man who avoided eye contact and he too scored zero in terms of social skills. Reviews were a Q and A session between me and him. All the ward staff were afraid of him and might just as well have been cardboard cut outs in the review, as they dared not speak. He admitted me but then did his best to get me out and I was so bored on the ward, and disliked the NAs so much, but wanted to recover completely before I was discharged as I thought this would happen but of course it didn't this time.

However I did get my own back quite by chance. I was given the opportunity of seeing a Clinical Psychologist on the NHS (she was attached to the psych hospital and worked specifically with older people) I had some 20 sessions with her and I liked her immensely and we had some very useful sessions but unfortunately it didn't improve the fluctuations in my MH. It so happened that during this time the Care Quality Commission (CQC) were carrying out an inspection of the hospital and the psychologist asked if I would like to provide feedback to them, about her and my CPN which I was very happy to do. She didn't think they would want feedback about my IP stay as it was 4 years ago, but it turned out that they definitely did want this feedback, and so I gave it them (in detail!) and I named the Slug and others. Obviously I don't know the outcome but I felt good being able to do this and hope that it might have brought about some improvement in patient care.

Sorry - your comment about a nice 1 : 1 started me on this track Fluffy - also I am putting off cleaning the house..........!

MySpideySenseTickles · 15/09/2014 12:36

I've come back.
I am still feeling horrible bu the anxiety is much worse than the depression is, I only really feel safe hiding in the attic behind the bed wrapped in the duvet. I'm considering moving more stuff in there (it's my bedroom) and just hiding out as much as possible.
Ds has started biting at nursery and I'm convinced the teachers blame me and I'm convinced it's completely my fault.
I'm going to go back to my attic now he's at school and hopefully will feel safe to come out when it's time to collect him.

I've been dieting for a few weeks and gained 3lb so I'm furious with myself too.

fluffydressinggown · 15/09/2014 12:37

Welcome littlemiss. I also have ocd. I would Def try the meds I have been on citalopram and had minimal side effects.

collar I would go back to your gp and allow your med reduction

I'm just watching TV and trying to be safe although really ifeel like good is showing me I shouldn't be.

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fluffydressinggown · 15/09/2014 12:39

Sorry god not good.

sorry if I missed anyone in on my phone

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