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Feeling very sad and lonely today. I hate my birthday and wish I could just opt out. As I walked between classrooms today a Year 11 student asked if I was okay because I looked 'really sad'.

Positive is that my classes today were relatively good and I only had to break up one fight all day, which is good for where I teach.

I hope tomorrow is a better day, NN

I hope the spacey feeling goes, Victrix

Oh dear (((( Pare ))))

NanaNina - so sorry most of the day has been a crap one.
At least you made yourself go to the park and enjoy the lovely sunshine :)

Pare - thinking of you today ;)

Well my positive for the day has to be just before 6pm I found I have been selected for a second interview next week! :) yay!

Well done Collar.

Thanks Pare ;)

Well done collar!

My voice is back, usually it only shows up when I'm upset or really tired but this evening he's decided I need telling off anyway.
I'm trying to ignore him, the counciller thinks he's a flash back as he's saying all the things my abusers said and has his voice. I just wish he would shut the fuck up.
I wanted a nice relaxing evening. Hopefully he will get bored when he realises I'm not going to talk to him.

Excellent news, collar

I find telling my voices later, not now or simply no can help.

It's probably like the broken record technique.

I'm feeling really anxious (I don't normally struggle with anxiety).

I've just found out that my GP sent the form that ATOS had sent them back last week, without looking at my form I really will struggle if I have to go to an assessment. The uncertainty is getting to me. I feel awful.

The weird thing is, his voice is here but I'm not rel down and upset like I usu am when he comes I'm actually feeling pretty good, it's like someone left a really bad radio playing in my head, I can't switch it off but I can ignore it and put it to the back of my mind.
I know that sounds ridiculous but it's the only way I can think to describe it.

Oh (((snowy))) I cannot ever really remember since being on the thread you saying that you feel anxious.
I hope it will not be necessary for you to attend an assessment.
Bake off is on in a few minutes so perhaps this will cheer you a little :)

Spidey - I hope you can distract yourself from the voice.

Well done collar

Snowy I'm not quite sure what you mean. I know you were worried that you had changed GPs and wondered whether the new one had your records - have I got that right? Is this the new GP who has sent the form back - how do you know they haven't looked at your form? Sorry but what are the implications of looking at your form? Sorry for all the Qs - I just read about the damn hoops that people have to jump through these days, and feel angry that people suffering have to do so much to prove they are entitled to benefits.

Look Snowy I know I've said this before but I'll say it again. Whilst I think this DWP/ATOS thing is ridiculous and have ruined the lives of so many people I simply cannot believe that someone in your position suffering complex mental health issues and what sound like serious physical disabilities is going to be refused benefit. Is that the main worry or being called in for assessment?

Can you get your CPN to help sort out this issue with the forms etc. I feel SO angry on your behalf that you struggle with these conditions, yet never complain and always reach out to others, and yet have to go through this ridiculous rigmarole to get your benefits. Good reason not to let the Tories back in next May!!!

SO deep breaths, and contact your CPN tomorrow.

That's good you can ignore it, Spidey

Thanks collar and NN.

I'm worried in case I get put into the work related activity group, rather than the support group. I can't get to the job centre unaided, and it means paying for a carer for 2.5 hours more than usual. If they see me in my manual wheelchair being pushed they might not believe I have a power chair. If they agree I can't self-propel, I should go into the support group.

I have emailed my CPN.

Thanks nana :)

Snowy - fingers crossed that your CPN will step in on your behalf to your benefit, and resolve this in a timely manner for you :)

Surely snowy they can't put you into the work related group because you are simply not able to work - even ATOS must be able to see this. Does your GP and CPN have an input into this application. Have you been in the "support" group of ESA before - I think I've read it that people have to be re-assessed every 12 months - is this what is happening to you?

Sorry I don't quite understand the self-propel issue - does having a power chair mean that you can't self propel? If this is the case they can't just not believe you have a power chair. You could provide evidence that you do have one .........aaaaaargh this is SO awful Snowy you just don't need this.

Please try not to worry and I know that's easier said than done.

This is my first time around of being assessed for ESA, I'm on SDA at the moment. They haven't contacted my CPN, they contacted my GP who I haven't seen for ages.

The NHS will only provide a power chair if you can't self-propel (which I get because I can't).

It's doing my head in, NN I think I might add some temazepam or diazepam to tonight's meds...

Well done collar

Great news collar well done!

Snowy... oh what a nightmare. I sympathise. DH had an awful time with ESA, the whole system is a fucking joke. I'm a bit confused about where you are in the application process but you could perhaps get help from the CAB, it might be worth giving them a ring . They were amazing when I applied for DLA when my ME was at its worse.

Nana please don't feel bad about 'moaning' on here, we are all equals here, age or amount of illness matters not! :)

Pare I'm sorry your birthday is so tough for you, what an awful set of memories to contend with :( I'm glad a pupil noticed though, at least, I always feel a bit better if somebody notices, I don't feel so invisible then.

Victrix please can you tell me how you do baked potato in the slow cooker? Our oven isn't working (haven't got LL in to fix it as our house is such a mess) and microwave jackets are just not the same!

I can't stop crying. I should be more resilient than this

Oh Snowy take whatever you need to try to calm yourself. They can't possibly put you in the "work related" group - you say yourself that if you can't self propel then you will go in the support group, and you can't self propel and you have the power chair to prove it.........please try not to stress too much - they do try to get people working but not someone in your position. Hope your CPN can help put your mind at rest.

Thinking about you snowy xxx

I am struggling a bit. The TV has told me to kill myself and it is hard to ignore when it is God himself talking to you.

It's a life-changer fuzzpig

Just wrap jacket potatoes in tinfoil with a little olive oil and salt & pepper and leave them in the slow cooker on low all day or on high for about 4 hours. Only thing is you don't get crispy skins.

((fluffy)) & ((Snowy)) so sorry you are struggling today x

Night all x