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Shiny new thread. xx

I'm feeling completely out of it, thornbird - just need to keep going through it.

How's everyone doing today?

Still not seen Dr. They know how I feel.

It is very trite but keep going fluffy, if not for yourself then for everyone who loves and cares about you. Tell me to shut up if you want.

Sorry the meds are zonking you out thornbird and Snowy.

I have had a dreadful day with rude children. Well to be fair just a few rude children but they have made me stressed and tired and I'm losing my voice.

Popping in to say hi. Hugs to all, especially fluffy right now.
Awful here. Cpn in morning. Losing hope.

Still feeling very anxious but managed to make it out of bed which is an improvement on yesterday.

((( hugs to all )))

fluffy hope you have seem the Dr and it was helpful.

Snap MP like u I just made it out of bed today at least.

snowy and thorn sorry the med increase is causing such tiredness hopefully it will start to settle down soon.

pare hope ur getting some rest now and no more rude children to deal with.

nethuns keep it going just the night to get through before seeing ur cpn tomorrow which I hope is helpful for you.

lem hope u keep safe and well whilst away from thread.

Diazepam is just about keeping me sane at the moment.

It all feels so pointless, I spend hours making resources just to spend most of my time managing really extreme behaviour. I used to like teaching, I used to be good at it but I'm not sure I know how to get through to some kids anymore.

((((to everyone who needs them))))

Pare I think I feel like you sometimes only I'm dealing with patients not students. I try to do so much to help some people but they continue to use illicit drugs. It's beyond frustrating.

So sorry so many of us are feeling crap just now. I'm just starting to feel semi-human after a crap day (spent most of it in bed....)

Fluffy hope they move you to 15 mins obs. That would be progress.....

Pare I don't know how you manage to teach (and in secondary) when you are suffering with damn mental health stuff. Suppose you have to work don't you.....?

Oh nethun I know so well that "losing hope" feeling - my CPN told me that one of the most deceitful things about depression is that one of the symptoms is the thought that you will never get well again. But of course we can't believe that we will be ok again when we are in the depths...

Collardove good luck for your interview tomorrow.

Keema how did you get on with your Care Co - I'm worried about you. Can you pop by and let us know how you are.

Sorry can't remember what everyone has said - should be name the village "Shitsville" or "Crapville" - no that would be defeatist wouldn't it. Just the way I am feeling. Hi to MP Snowy Pulled thornbird Vicar - sorry can't remember everyone.

Thanks for the reminder, NN

Good luck for tomorrow, collardove

Yes, good luck collardove.

Hi everyone I have had company at home a lot of the day keeping me distracted.

Nana and Snowy - thanks for thinking of me and my job interview tomorrow!
I am quietly terrified and was looking forward to it being over by 3pm tomorrow. Until a friend reminded me I may have to hold my nerve a few days after until I hear my fate :(
Then again some folk don't even tell you nowadays even if it's a rejection, so the worst of my anxiety could be yet to come!! :(

Fluffy - thinking of you.

I have to do some interview prep and reading now about the company.

(((Hugs))) for you all and take care of yourself Lem ;)

Good luck Collar

Will be thinking of you collar. Hope it goes well! :)

Feel pretty rubbish today, again mostly physically, I had to phone up sick in the morning which made me feel awful. It is the first time in over 7 months that I have had absence specifically for my ME (I've had the odd day for viruses etc which are made worse by ME, but no time off just for a relapse IYSWIM) so that makes me really sad and hopeless. OTOH once I'd finally let myself phone up sick - I probably should have done so a couple of weeks ago but I was stubborn and struggled on at work - I relaxed a bit and felt more able to rest properly.

Tomorrow I have to do both school runs and dinner and all that jazz which is terrifying because of how I'm feeling both physically and mentally. At least I don't work Tuesdays anyway so I can rest in the daytime.

Good luck with the interview collar. I had mine not so long ago and about to start working soon :).

I had to cancel my care co appt as DD had something on at school that I had to go to (and had completely forgotten about!). I do need to speak to her though.

Good luck for your interview tomorrow collar. I'll have everything crossed for you.

Love to all x

Didn't see the doctor in the end, still on constants. Talked about difficult stuff today.

Sorry you feel rubbish nethuns I hope your CPN is useful for you

MH I hope you continue to recover

pare I don't know how you manage it, I used to be a teacher and it is such a hard job, take care of yourself x

Hope tomorrow is a better day NN

Good luck collar

Hope you feel better tomorrow fuzzpig

Hope you can contact your care-co keema

Love to all xxx

good luck collar....fingers crossed for you, i will dedicate the good karma generated from my mediations to you tomorrow!

hope everyone else is managing....

i LOVED the meditation retreat - it was fab. the people i met were just lovely and im staying in touch with a couple of them.

im trying to continue to do some daily meditation - it quiets the mind in such a lovely way, im making time to do it daily.

back to earth today with a bang....new set of people im working with - people lovely....management - not so lovely....lets say we didnt get off the best of starts. clearly been told that im a "social worker" who spends too much time with people....

ive contacted my union rep to say that if the upper management want the likes of me then they better tell the middle management sometime soon....

anyway. its a new start so im going to try and make the most of it - if this doesnt work out im out of the service for good.
ill go and live at the buddist retreat - you can go and live there! you can work in exchange for food and a bed....
not sure the family would be thrilled but it appeals in many ways....if i leave work it seriously consider moving in for a month or so to get my head back to where it should be.

anyway.
how is everyone else faring? .i think it might be bed time....im reading a fab book though and dont want to put it down....

Hi lem, collar I'm doing ok thanks - am well really, despite difficult situation at home, so doesn't feel appropriate to post... I am watching though and think of you all often xx

Nana,snowy,Victrix,fuzzpig,thorn,pare,keema,fluffy and Vicard ((hugs to all))

Thank you all for your messages of good luck. It's means a lot to me :)

Vicard - any great karma vibes gratefully received!!

CIQ - good to hear from you! :)

MP, Nethuns, pulled, silvery and anyone I may of forgotten - hugs to you too.

Well the gerbils running the wheel inside my brain have given up the ghost now for the night. I simply cannot process any more information.

Here's hoping tomorrow will be a more positive day for us all nite xx

I Feel like I shouldn't be posting on here anymore, I'm not feeling too bad at the moment and I think everyone else has worse problems so I don think I deserve to be in the village anymore.
Would anyone mind if I hung around anyway?

I actually think it's really important to have people who are doing well on the thread.

First off, it's a great reminder that things can and will get better and that there's a mental health out there, not just mental illness. Secondly, when you're well, you may have more emotional energy to give support to those who need it.

Lastly, I really believe it's good to find a bright side even in your darkest moments. Laugh at a crappy joke, wish someone well on their interview. Share moments of silliness or good things that you've seen.

There's so much more to give than needing support and supporting people when you're not well. There has to be a balance, so it's accepting, supportive and there's :) and the odd alongside the :( and .

Morning all.
I'd totally agree with what keema just said, DO please stick around spider : ) xxx
Off to cpn soon. Feel anxious but relieved too.
Best wishes to all xxx

Crap day here again - hoped yesterday was a one-off but should have known better. That's a very inspirational post Keema and I totally agree that we have more emotional energy to give support to others when we are ok. I must confess though I find it really difficult to find any balance when I am feeling crap - but it's given me food for thought......

Spidey we all deserve to be in the Village even if sometimes we don't peek out of our beds/cottages. Nethuns and Pulled Snowy fuzzpigPare and MP and others struggling - there will be days when we can meet on the green and feel better about life and tell silly jokes.

How are you doing today Fluffy - is there anywhere you can sit outside in your present quarters?

I read your post last night fuzzpig and can't believe that you manage to work as well as cope with mental and physical health problems and children and all that goes with that..........makes me feel I should never complain, as children all grown - just me and DP and 2 cats....I just don't know how you young mothers cope. I salute you!

Vicar glad you enjoyed the retreat. Better not let the "Force" know about it - grounds for instant dismissal I'd have thought! I went to a couple of Buddhist meetings for meditation/mindfulness but it wasn't for me - too much chanting and praying don't sit easily with an atheist!

I love September - it's my favourite month and the fine weather seems to be holding at least where I am in the West Midlands. See I'm trying to be a bit positive even though I feel shite..........I'll work on it!