Thanks silvery. I wonder what it is if I get dressed but then undressed the second I return from the school run? As I plan to do tomorrow. Oh crap though I can't as tesco delivery is due 10-11. Bollocks. Since I'd have to get dressed for work (leave at 2) there's no point, it's not worth the physical effort of changing.
I wore dirty clothes again the other day. I usually stick on yesterday's clothes for the school run (quite often stay in the top I slept in) but I didn't realise til I left that there were grubby spill marks on the t-shirt. Thankfully I had my coat on so I zipped it right up (and sweated in the heat). Ugh I hate being so gross. But not enough to change it, apparently. Everything seems so pointless.
Been in bed an hour and can't sleep. Have that knotty feeling in my chest that means I'm anxious, but I'm not really sure why. Pain is at epic proportions and I'm now remembering, having felt like I was getting by reasonably well, why ME and POTS are classed as disabilities :( I'm so scared of how I will manage - this is the first relapse I've had since DH started his FT job. Before this he could, and did, pick up the slack.
Oh hang on, I think I've realised what that knot of anxiety is about. Duh.
Spidey I go a bit loopy in shops sometimes too. I don't think it's mania related as I've only ever had depression, not bipolar. I get overwhelmed in shops and my capacity for reason goes out the window. Never big expensive things but on our low budget it's still not good, a tenner here and there, it adds up fast.
Huge well done for drawing the greenhouse - that's amazing (and I think chucking it away was a good idea)