Autumn days in the village with lots of support for all kinds of MH problems - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis etc

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Hi collar, I'm lurking around, occasionally stopping to admire the two litres of gin in the kitchen cupboard.

I'm finding recovery hard and boring. Saw OH this week and they want me to take another 3-4 weeks before going back to work.

There's been some fighting in Glasgow city centre NN, hopefully it will blow over soon

How long do you have to leave the gin, mp?

I hope that it all settles down, victrix, it must be quite frightening.

At least three months snowy at which point you filter and bottle it. The longer you can leave it the better really.

Hello to everyone, I haven't posted on here for a while.

I revealed the cause of my PTSD on my thread. It hasn't really made any difference to me as I still can't imagine talking about it.

I feel exhausted and unable to concentrate on anything.

Hope everyone is having a nice evening.

Ah right. It must be worth the wait

Hmm, Doctor Who is a bit too macabre for me tonight.

MP - 2 litres! You lucky devil :)
Hope you find plenty to distract you in these next few weeks before returning back to work. When I was off long term sick twice this year for a month I found making a list of things to do for the day helpful. Otherwise I would just poodle about aimlessly!!
I gave my notice in and finished my job a couple of weeks back. It was the source of all my MH issues...
I have an interview on Tuesday for a new job. My initial bravado of quitting and starting anew has turned to terror and anxiety!! I cannot sleep, I have only had 3 job interviews in my life! Am feeling out of sorts as the job market is a very different place now.
Will I manage to keep my inner anxious madness at bay without it escaping in some way,shape or form...

Victrix - here's hoping that things will settle after the weekend. I think either way the result would end up with either faction upset, and a need to show that upset. A lot of young people who gave voted for the first time, mainly yes are v.upset.

Snowy - I think I just ate your days calorie amount in one sitting :(

My children are both watching My Little Pony, which is exceptionally chirpy. I'm not sure which is worse when your depressed. Macabre or chirpyness.

Possibly the latter

Collardove. I'm in awe of your bravery and I hope the interview goes well.

Keema - agreed!! :P

That was agreed to chirpyness keema!!

I can just counting the days and hours till it's over. I am in danger of having a huge anxious hissy fit sometime very soon!!!

Hello

I've just been diagnosed with PND. Can I slink in here and join in please

Mummysparkle - welcome :)

Gosh, good luck with the interview, collardove. I'll try to remember on the day.

Welcome MummySparkle

Snowy - :) x

Oh dear, sounds like most are feeling a bit crappy tonight
Had a good chat with sil about ds (she's a childrens social worker) it was helpful really. I sneaky weighed myself and 1 more pound down, it was all going so well until this evening when my ibs realised I'd attempted to sneak a poached egg past him at lunchtime, such blatant insubordination will not go unpunished, I was punished three times at mils, I'm so glad she has ibs too so has aloe era soothing bum wipes to hand and understands. Once again since I got home too.
I know I can't eat eggs but I bloody like them! Ditto pickled foods of all kinds, especially miss pickled eggs! Melted cheese! Raw onion in salad! Burgers! Anything spicy or rich. Oddly I'm slightly dairy intolerant but am coping with the ultraslim shakes which are mostly milk.

Ibs is a total arse.

It was me with the rat kissing.

I'm waiting to see what sort of therapy she thinks is best for me but she's not even ringing till the 30th so she's dug up all these hideous painful memories and left them expose to the air like a nerve and left me to it for two weeks. I'd not thought properly about the greenhouse in years, now it's like it was yesterday and I can see it in my minds eye even down to the cracked and broken filthy glass panes and the weeds and glass on the floor inside I still have a scar on the back of my thigh from that glass.
I'm going to go to bed early and crochet something complicated so I have to keep count of stitches.

Snowymouse : Good to hear I am not the only one having zonked day. I am not wanting to go higher on dose if it causes this kind of tiredness. I have kids etc. so no time to rest.

My husband bought me a SAD light, because last two winters I have suffered badly from depression/mixed episodes. I will start to use right away in the mornings.

Well come mummy sparkle!

Oh spidey that sounds horrible and very vivid :( I don't really know your background as I've only joined this latest thread but have you tried exploring these images in art/writing? I have found that beneficial in the past. I want to try and get art therapy soon. I used to write a lot and when I was an IP in the adolescent unit I did loads of creative stuff, as there was an attached school just for psychiatric patients. It was amazing there. The problem was that when I left, I completely clammed up because I was no longer in a safe environment to be creative. I've had a block about it ever since.

Really shitty day here but mostly physically rather than mentally. Huge pain and brain fog even worse which makes my anxiety worse. Dreading tomorrow as on my own with the DCs again - we were supposed to be going to a run DH is doing but I'm not up to it. TBH even if I could manage physically the crowds would do me in anyway. But I have two very disappointed DCs and they will probably be bored and grumpy.

Hello all,
Thanku for the kind words & hugs much needed today. I don't really what's wrong with me today tbh I just feel flat

victrix hope things settle down I can only imagine how frightening it must feel.

mp the wait for the gin will be worth it be kind to urself during ur time off from work.

NN like u I usually lift in the evening (thanks to the meds I'm sure) but that's bit working tonight for some reason. Hope u have started to lift a bit.

Waves at snowy hope the evening is going well for u. I'm impressed with ur 1200 cals. Like collar I think I've ate though ur days calorie just now with amount of eclairs I've just eaten

((( collar ))) I really hope the interview goes well for you.

((( keema ))) agreed chirpyness would possibly annoy me more also.

pare r u having any treatment for PTSD? Sorry if U've said already I can't remember. I've been having psychotherapy but I don't think it's helping at all. I know others have mentioned EDMR & I think someone said rewind therapy also. Can these be accessed on the Nhs & how do I go about it?

Welcome mummysparkle

Sorry if I've missed anyone it's not intentional x

Fuzz, I was a victim of sexual abuse and neglect for most of my childhood. The first beginnings of sexual abuse was in a greenhouse. I was 8.

I've tried writing stuff down but I'm terrified of anyone seeing it, likewise if I drew or painted anything I wouldn't be able to explain whT it meant because apart from new therapist and gp no one really knows very much of my story irl. They know it's not a happy story but that's about it.

I Crochet though, I can either do something repetitive an mindless if I want to think or complicated and needs counting if I don't wan to think, not getting much time to croche with the bloody cat at the moment though.

((( spidey ))) hope u feel better soon. That sounds awful & painful.

((( fuzzpig ))) sorry ur having a crappy day too. Do u think u might feel better physically tomorrow to maybe go for a bit? Maybe see how you are in the morning.

((( thorn ))) the light sounds a good way to go. Hope it helps.

Am In bed crocheting massively complicated coasters, honestly learning a new stitch and everything, they're for mil to say thankyou for being so supportive. I can have a snuggly lie in with ds in the morning because Dh is doing a carboot sale then we're taking ds to one of his favorite places in the world with his pocket money, the book shop. We're on a "meg and mog" hunt tomorrow.

My PTSD is due the childhood sexual about from the age of 6 (it could have stated started earlier but I don't have any memories of it) till I was 10. No one in RL knows aside from DH - my consultant told him about it when I had my breakdown - but I just can't take to him about it.

Therapy is not working so I just don't know what to do anymore.