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Shiny new thread. xx

Fluffy: are they actually helping you at all. Sounds like they just storing you there.

I took my olanzapine but do not think there is going to be any change. I haven't gained any weight on it luckily.

Are you taking the meds, fluffy? Hang on in there.

Ooh that's great thanks LEM! I will definitely check that out.

I am an intelligent person. In fact it's the only good thing about myself that I've ever recognised or admitted.

The ME has ruined my brain though. A common symptom is cognitive impairment aka 'brain fog' - this latest relapse has been terrible for it, it's really frustrating that my mind doesn't work properly!

An aim of my occupational therapy (a big part of my treatment with St Bart's) is to find things to exercise my mind, but my OT was totally in agreement that it mustn't be pressured.

I will definitely look into that! So thanks very much :)

This month I am focusing on some (thankfully light) reading I have to do for work, the event - not something I'm qualified for but they're allowing some of us lowly folk to attend too :o - is at the end of the month and so in October I'm hoping to gradually start my own OT programme. DH is going to help with the physical stuff as he trained as a personal trainer while he was on JSA last year. I'm going to take it very gently but I can't just keep doing nothing all the time, even though a lot of the time I want to :(

Anyway the other learning thing I'm doing is trying to teach myself to read and write Japanese! :o I've got a Hiragana (basic Japanese characters) workbook. I'm a huge anime fan so it just occurred to me to challenge myself.

Sorry I'll stop waffling now

I miss my rats too - it's a long time since I had any, they are so full of life and curiosity (at least the girls are, IME the boys just slob out) - they used to cheer me up :)

fuzzpig so sorry to hear about your ailments - I seem to remember your work was understanding though?

Rewind therapy sounds very like the Neurolingistic Programming technique "fast phobia cure" - I am qualified to Master Practitioner, and once cured a friend of a phobia of wet tea-bags!

When I was in earlier this year it did feel like we were being "stored there" as thornbird says. And medicated to keep us out of the way at night. Nevertheless antipsychotic meds got me down very quickly, within a week I was a lot better, but unfortunately was in over 3 bank holidays, which meant psych rounds were rather seldom. I am now on dekapote and quetiapine, the quetiapine is helping me get to sleep faster and sleep better, I doubt the dekapote is doing much tbh but my bloods are being monitored and I don't have any side effects, and my psych will review next year, so I'm being compliant, as I usually am.

Morning all. Welcome fuzzpig x.
Oh rodent fans! I have a guinea pig on my lap as I type. One of a long line! have had rats and hamsters too. Lovely. Guinea is very soothing.
I am so sorry people are suffering . It's crap xx. I'm struggling and I am finding the aftermath of the referendum really really upsetting up here in Scotland. It's awful round here. Feels like my home has been ripped apart and will never heal which is a bit of a rflection on how I feel about myself. It's too much.

Morning, I am washed and dressed and slept in LATE which was amazing :)

No meds yet.

nethuns I used to have a guinea pig, I love them, they are such good company

Hope everyone is ok.

It's awful isn't it nethuns I don't live in Glasgow any more but my friends who do are scared.

I have a cold. But I will press on with today's plan of stripping the AWFUL wallpaper in the bathroom that I have hated since we moved in two years ago. It's surprisingly therapeutic

Nice one, fluffy! Sleep is great! I do tend to carry guinea around as if he were a comforter, which he is !!
Victrix, it's breaking my heart. I generally stay off social media, but glance occasionally then wish I hadn't. Have removed fb from devices now so that I have to go out of my way to look. Sorry you've got a cold, colds suck.

I'm going to deactivate FB for a bit I think.

I love the noise guinea pigs make but I've never owned one. Degus make the same little burbling noises though- so cute

I'm glad you had a good night Fluffy

Whichever way the vote went it was going to be difficult. It was such a devicive question.

I'm glad Scotland is still in the union. My family is a proper hotchpotch of Scottish, Welsh and English heritage all rolled into one, so it's difficult to work out which is more. My children have Irish in the mix too. I think the way the world is today, operating as two smaller countries would be difficult for both. But I also understand the ethos behind the wish for independence too.

It's just a shame it's splitting families and friends. One look at the indiref threads shows that.

Anyway - fluffy,glad you're feeling a bit better today and hello to everyone e else too x

Ooh, I didn't know degus burbled too , cute!
Yep, v divisive but will try to block it out and will stay off fb and indy ref threads. Or try too.
I'm washed and dressed. Hanging in there for cpn on Tuesday. . . Been a long wait, hope it's worth it.

why cant I deal with things without descending into massive panics? There's maggots in my wheelybin again and two got in the house, I've waited in all morning for Dhs new iphone to be delivered only to find it's somewhere in Germany, I have to go to the retail park later which for some reason triggers a panic attack every time I go there.
It's supposed to be my day to go to mils, I have one meal off diet and she helps with ds so I can relax and drink coffee and crochet, now we're only going to be able to make it for tea.. Usually we get there any 10am and stay till 7pm so ds is straight to bed when he gets in. We've done it one day every weekend since ds was 3weeks old I really look forward to it. Sadly mil is my only friend.

The cats fleas are worse than ever and they just seem to laugh at frontline.
The cat has to be shut in a different room from ds because he's constantly attacking him, when he's trying to play the cats jumping at his face all the time. I'm hopin he calms down in a couple of weeks when he's had his balls off. He's mostly ok with Dh and I but hates ds. If it doesn't get better we won't have a choice but to rehome him.

Basically I'm miserable and I've had enough.
I posted on Facebook that I was staying away for a bit longer but apparently worded it wrong because I convinced my entire friends list that I was off to kill myself.

I can't seem to pull myself round, everything we talked about on Thursday is runnin through my head memories I'd suppressed for years and some I'd never told before. I can't see how bringing it all up and torturing myself is supposed to help me get better.

I seem to be in a low level panic all the time too.

And I can't get the image of a greenhouse out of my head, the whole hideous story started in a greenhouse.

I am tires. Increase in meds make me very tired. Managed to do some sport though.

Fluffy why don't you take your meds or is it that you don't need any. Bit confusing why they won't give you meds if you really need them. In hospital where I was once the worst cases got injections. But they were really really bad way.

Snap thornbird - I increased my clozapine last night, and I'm feeling it.

Do think about trying the meds, fluffy.

I'm sorry you're feeling so rough spidey Try to hang in there and talk to people.

Well done for the level 2/3 nethuns

I'm also glad that it was a no vote, but my facebook is full of disappointed people (putting it mildly).

How's everyone doing? I'm having a quiet day, might try to play the Sims.

Level 2 here and having a really crappy day

I'm sorry to hear that, pulled

Hello all. {{hug}} to everyone who's having a crappy day.

Aaah all this talk of rats - pet ones at that - someone described them as furry or fluffy (not to be confused with Fluffy of course) - I hate them all, black ones, brown ones, pet ones, be they white, brown, multi coloured or whatever - they IS nasty rodents. I can't believe so many of you love them and someone (can't remember who) was talking about them kissing her lips....OMG.

Glad you slept in today Fluffy I recall that weekends on the ward were a bit more peaceful, staff a bit more relaxed and wards generally quieter with some going home for weekend.

Nethuns and Victrix sorry that the ref has caused such problems - do you mean families are in conflict over divided loyalties (so to speak) why are people in Glasgow scared Victrix - I agree with Keema's take on the referendum - there aren't going to be any winners are there? There's been a lot of hype - is there any chance things will get back to normal (whatever that is) in the fullness of time - hope so.

Spidey I think I've mentioned it but do have a look at EMDR and Re-Wind therapy - you can just google them. The thing is as I understand it you don't have to go through all the painful details from the past which I can imagine just re-awakens painful memories. Glad you have a nice MIL - I'm one of those and I see quite a few young mothers on MN complaining about MILs! I'm a wonderful one of course!!

Hope you manage to get some sleep thornbird as the meds are zonking you out. Hi snowy and silvery (and you too love rats.........!) you don't do you Snowy. No thought not!

Oh sorry about the crappy day Pulled - do you get any lift as the day goes by. On my crap days I often get a lift in the afternoon or evening, but sometimes have to wait till about 10 at night.

How are ye doing Keema - on a scale of 0 - 10 with 0 being crap!

Hi to all and (((hugs))) all round to everyone in the village who is not having a good day today.

To all the Scottish villagers - sorry that the aftermath of the result is causing angst still to you :(

We just came back from seeing DS who moved into his new student house a few weeks back near his uni.
Well he had 2 very mini (bigger portion of food in the birds dish in my garden) ready meals, half a tub of butter and a pack of Oreo biscuits to eat!
In a month he has lost weight! So took him out for a roast lunch at a nearby pub, and then food shopping and stocked up on food for him! The delight in his face!
When we returned to his house one of his housemates asked him if he could lend her some change for the bus to work. He emptied his pocket of shrapnel and happily handed it over. I advised him after not to make a habit of it, then enquired how much cash he had left? The reply was nothing now!
He has a good heart :) so have I as I gave him everything I had in my purse then!!

MP - have not seen you back on the thread after announcing your sloe gin home brewing session the other day! How did it go? The evenings getting chillier and drawing in now are perfect conditions for a little evening tipple!

NanaNina - Roland Rat is the only rat I could ever love! He was hilarious on TV and I was a huge fan!!

I don't mind rats. How are you doing, NN?

Sounds like you had a nice time with DS, collardove

I've managed to stick to 1200 kcal in total for today.

I'm meh NN. I've managed to get a few things done today, and DH is on a complete mission, but I'm quite low and generally feeling like a crap mother, wife and person in general. My mantra is "of course you feel shit, there's loads going on" as if I can keep in mind that anyone in my current situation would be struggling! I won't get sucked down too much into the mire.

I'm being kind to myself and chilling with a brew and a bit of iPad time before the horrors of Hair Wash Night with the DCs.

My effing autocorrect keeps correcting commas into exclamation marks. It keeps making me sound surprised.

(((( keema ))))

Being kind to yourself is good, good luck with hair wash night!