summer heat - in the village we'll meet....oh, those summer nights! support for MH issues, depression, anxiety, what ever the issue come visit the village [titled edited by MNHQ]

[SomethingVicardThisWayComes]

well a well a well a oh tell me more tell me more.....

new thread guys....feels funny doing the threads again! but nice....

so. for any newbies....the purpose of the "village" threads is to support anyone with MH issues....depression, anxiety, anything at all, for what ever reason.

there is an open door policy in the village! so pull up a pew and get stuck in....

[NatashaRostova]

Hope the hiccups and sickness has gone, Victrix, and you are able to come home today.

I'm feeling so low today, been making plans and not the good kind. Need to distract.

Hope everyone else is doing okay.

[Pulledapart]

Hi all,

Where do I start been very low past few weeks, no energy, no interest in anything & DD is on school holidays :( the good thing I've been restarted on diazepam which is at least keeping me sane. Had food poisoning with an allergic reaction a few days ago so just been in bed last 2 days! Eyes looks like someone has punched me & given me black eyes. DD has been practically entertaining herself as I really have no idea until DH gets home & takes over. So of course I feel like the worst mother in the world :( I'm just about to drag myself out of bed.

Can't name check as my stupid brain will forget someone but I am always thinking of u all

[LEMmingaround]

Natasha if you have any thoughts that those ideas are more than thoughts you MUST seek help. I have suicidal thoughts that are just that. Like unwanted thoughts ans scary.

Pulledapart I empathise. Im really struggling with the holiday. Poor dd is bored stiff.

General feeling of crap.

Victrix any progress?

[Victrix]

I'm still quite sore but I think I could manage at home as long as my blood tests are ok. Should find out in a few hours.

[NatashaRostova]

Hope you get home and the soreness eases, Victrix.

LEM I know what I should be doing. I should be following my crisis plan and contacting crisis team or my doctor. I can't seem to do what I should though. I'm totally out of motivation. Even swallowing my medication is hard work.

[SnowyMouse]

Oh dear Victrix

I'm sorry you're low and making plans NR What can you do to distract yourself?

The dentist wasn't great, I'm not brushing my teeth well enough, and I need 2 fillings (first available appointment is october). My wheelchair is playing up again and I've had a letter saying I need to fill in a form for ESA which they will send in the next few weeks (I'm on SDA and IS).

CPN came too today, asked about mood so I explained the above....

I'm seeing my psychiatrist tomorrow, and I'm anxious.

[Katkins1]

Natasha, you must follow your plan, it's there for a reason, and its to help you. Please get some support, I know it's hard.

Hope you feel better Doon, victrix and snowy.

I saw the cpn today, seeing me when she cones back from holiday but says I must get in touch with the clinic if I'm getting worse because I'm still hearing voices. I'm finding having the little one back harder than I thought would be, and am absolutely shattered. Was so dizzy today I nearly fainted when going across the road. Have done so much on the past couple of days, am so so tired now.

[Victrix]

It is good to be home

[SnowyMouse]

Welcome home victrix

The CPN is right re: if things start to get worse, I think things are often harder than you think they will be when you're unwell or getting better, hugs. Sleep is very important.

[Katkins1]

I don't know the difference between getting well and getting better though, snowy.I'm really cagey tired and finding it much much harder to do things, yo the extent that I have to lie down in the afternoon, I just can't carry on like that and have to stop. I get all over body tumbles. Muscle pain, peacefulness, especially when getting up, and huge amounts of anxiety. Even when I'm just walking or going out the physical pain is still there....it build as my emotions do, until I feel like crying. It's agonising, but better on some days than others. Still very hard though.

[NatashaRostova]

How is everyone today?

My dog has perked up a bit so that has made me feel a bit less down. I thought it was the end and I can't face that at the moment. On holiday from work but need to do some work anyway, can't seem to motivate myself.

[Katkins1]

Glad your dog has perked up a bit :) I'm still struggling- tiredness, depressive thoughts and lots of worries. Still experiencing the physcial stuff that goes with depression, too. I wish it would go a little quicker than it is.

[NatashaRostova]

Sorry you still feel rubbish, Katkins.

How's it going with having your DD home?

[Katkins1]

Really tiring Natasha! Absolutely exhausting and my depression is overwhelming.

[NatashaRostova]

Just keep taking it slowly.

[Pulledapart]

Hi all

How is everyone doing today?

I've had a big argument with my mum & now feel like crap :( apparently I'm not fit to be a mother etc etc. my energy levels have dipped right down & I just wanna burry my head in the pillow & hide under the duvet! Just tried mindfulness technique and even that is not working as DD keeps interrupting me so now I've sent her out into the garden! Need to go shopping for an outfit for DD for a wedding this weekend but I'm in no mood to leave the house. Hopefully the diazepam I've taken will help - I just wanna sleep :(

[Katkins1]

You aren't a bad mum. At all. How old is your DD? Could you put off the outfit buying until you are ready,another day, or order online? I'm very tired, had a long lie in today. Dd came in, had breakfast in bed I made for her, napped with me a bit, then was colouring. Her Grandad has taken her out fir the afternoon now. She's very good when I need to rest/sleep and I say why didn't she wake me? She says no need, I was happy colouring! Very lovely girl, but I felt very guilty. We've done lots besides, and have plans for next week, so I feel less guilty, but still.... I know what you mean about energy levels. I think I have some sort of virus, acute all over and very, very tired. Could you have a rest whilst the kids play on their kindled/I pad/do some drawing? I don't know the ages, but dd is almost 7 and as long as she knows I'm.around, she's quite happy to have an hour or two by herself. Moans if I interrupt sometimes! I don't know what your dynamics are like, though,would that help you?

[Pulledapart]

Thanks katkins. I've put the outfit buying off till tomorrow. DD is 4 and only child but very bright for her age (blessing in disguise I think) she is happy playing on her iPad or watching tv most of the day. She knows I'm having a bad day - I don't know how but she just knows - so has spent the afternoon lying in bed with me watching her cartoons. I had food poisoning last week but I think it's still effecting me as I still feel sick every time I eat something.
Your DD sounds wonderful and you sound like you have been doing lots with her which is great. Aside from the wedding I don't think DD will be doing anything exciting as DH is always working & I'm unable to take her out myself due to physical problems :(

[NatashaRostova]

When you are 4 most things can be exciting, Pulledapart. I bet your DD enjoyed watching cartoons with you in bed.

I have to go to see the doctor tomorrow for my repeat prescription. Don't really know how to answer the 'how are you' question.

Hope everyone else is doing okay. We have thunder and lightening here.

[SnowyMouse]

How are you is a hard qu, can you think of something to say in advance, NR?

I hope tomorrow is a better day, pulled.

7 is a good age as far as entertaining themselves goes, katkins

I've gone very low, cried all over my CPN today (she was working the weekend). They've given me an extra week of day hospital.

[Katkins1]

(Snowy) hope day hospital is helping a bit. Yes, how are you is a hard question..And every day is so different, isn't it? I'm really struggling with the exhaustion side of things, it's very physically demanding looking after dd and recovering at the same time. Still very anxious, but able to function a bit better. I was thinking I'd try an early night and hope that helps with my sleep, as that's causing me huge problems at the minute.

[Victrix]

This was going to be a long update but I have to type left handed because I have my baby corn snake in my right sleeve.

So in short, sorry today has been tough and hope tomorrow is better for all.

P.S I hate gallstones.

[Pulledapart]

Thanks Natasha and snowy

It's been long evening, DD just fell asleep. I desperately want to sleep too but it's stormy here & the wind is very loud!

natasha just be honest with ur G.P as much as u can. I usually go blank so can understand how difficult it is.

snowy hope day hospital has been helping.

katkins exhaustion & sleep deprivation are my main problems at the moment too. Hope you have managed to get an early night.

victrix that sound painful on top of the gallstone trouble you have had. Hope you feel better tomorrow.

Looks like another long night for me :(

[NatashaRostova]

Appointment with doctor is in an hour, feeling sick. It always makes me feel worse afterwards.

No idea what I'm going to say.

[SnowyMouse]

I hope it went ok, NR