summer heat - in the village we'll meet....oh, those summer nights! support for MH issues, depression, anxiety, what ever the issue come visit the village [titled edited by MNHQ]

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new thread guys....feels funny doing the threads again! but nice....

so. for any newbies....the purpose of the "village" threads is to support anyone with MH issues....depression, anxiety, anything at all, for what ever reason.

there is an open door policy in the village! so pull up a pew and get stuck in....

Have you explained what you are feeling, Natasha? Could you ask for an emergency appointment? I'm feeling awful, pain in my throat, really, really tired and I feel really strange...I feel like crying to be honest. All I've managed to do is lie on the sofa and do nothing. Well, after the housework and sending dd out with a friend..She was going to have her today anyway. We are all going out later, that might help. I hope. I'm just so tired. I don't think my meds are right.

Oh that sounds nasty, Katkins, I hope you feel better for getting out. Take it easy.

My doctor and the crisis team know everything that I've posted on here. I can't go to the GP because he said not to come back for 4 weeks and crisis have discharged me.

natasha ask for an emergency appointment. All surgeries have them and they should offer you one. Are you taking any meds at the moment? Sorry I can't remember whether you are.

It's been a duvet day for me as I didn't get to sleep until 7am and was woken up by DD a couple of hours later just counting the hours for DD to be asleep again. Feel terrible about that as I haven't done any activity with her today. She has been plonked in front of tv all day. My fibro pains are terrible today as well which is not helping on top of the exhaustion and headache.

katkins how long have you been on ur meds? Do you it's time they reviewed it to increase the dosage maybe? hope your night out goes well

That is disgusting treatment natasha by ur GP and crisis team. They have a duty of care to you and cannot refuse to see you especially your G.P. Could you present yourself to your local a&e and explain your situation. They should have someone on duty that can speak to you. Sorry I have forgotten the title/role they go by.

I don't need to see anyone, I'm fine. I'm on 200mg sertraline but I don't think it does anything really. I could make an appointment but he said 4 weeks so it would be wrong.

I had a disturbed night too with the dog not being well, he's staying overnight at the vets tonight on a drip to rehydrate him. Hope you get a better sleep tonight Pulledapart.

katkins I can sympathise, it's so draining being in constant pain .

Nothing wrong with a duvet day Pulled, the only time I came downstairs today was when my Tesco delivery arrived!

Natasha I hope you get to speak to someone.

Does anyone know what it means when they say you seem flat?

Maybe subdued, Snowy?

Just a bit less "you" than usual? I describe myself as flat all the time but I had to really think how I would apply it to someone else!

Hi Snowy, when someone has said that to me in the past they meant I seemed numb, sort of emotionless. I wasn't really showing happiness or sadness, more just going through the motions.

Who has said that you seem flat? How do you feel you are?

My CPN said it, she was concerned about me having my first weekend without input this weekend too.

Thanks for the thoughts re: flatness, searching flat and mh brings up supported accommodation.

at the supported accommodation

Snowy, I understand what you mean. After pyschosis, I've got a lot of symptoms of it but it's accompanied by a really hollow following, a lot of emotional numbness. An example might be I love dd, but at tines I'm not connected to her. I could say "love" but I'd have no idea what it feels like, I'd just do things out of responsibility. I think it also happens for me when I get a bit resigned to everything: can't laugh, smile or really pay attention to the world around me. Can't even cry. Google positive and negative symptoms, it'll say schritrophenia, but I think any element of voice hearing or loss of contact with reality has an element of what are called negative symptons- emotional flattening and depression.

How is everyone today?

I'm bagging things up for the charity shop this afternoon and waiting for a phone call about the dog. He's having an x-ray on his stomach, fingers crossed they don't find anything dodgy.

Has anyone tried over the counter sleeping tablets? I tried some last night but they didn't seem to do anything.

I ventured to the post office and spoke to other human beings without feeling terror which is progress.

I've tried over the counter sleeping tablets before, unfortunately the ones with valerian gave me night terrors and the other kind I tried didn't work.

Hi all,

I finally got some sleep last night it was like my body just shut down. Still have the headache and feel nauseous but at least the pains are a little better. Mood is slightly lifted too. DD has a funfair day tomorrow at nursery need to get energy together for that. I don't want her to miss out because of me as she already missed the annual trip :(

snowy I would agree with others when I feel flat it's been when I don't feel any emotion towards anything. I dissociate from reality completely. Usually occurs when I'm under a lot of stress. I've had times where I have gone to places but no memory of how I got there.

natasha I've not tried one the counter sleeping pills. The one I use is zopiclone which is prescribed by G.P

victrix well done for going out that is the hardest task when ur feeling low.

katkins how u today?

Hello to everyone else & ((( hugs ))) to those needing them x

Hello all :)

Hope your dog is OK, Natasha. How are you feeling apart from that?

((Victrix)) Hope tommorow is better for you.

Glad you got some sleep, pulled.

I went out with friends and dd to an animal park today- found it very challenging with pain and psychosis (thinking agressive/ not very nice thoughts that don't feel like me sometimes) It was quite disturbing, but just things like I don't like x y and z, even though they are my friends! It's so intrusive.

I'm not sleeping much and struggling to get out, feeling wooly headed. So scared for going back to school and making sure I leave at 8am or just before (long walk). Absolutely terrified.

I've been crying a lot the past couple of days, too. Have to take my anxiety tablets if I go out. Seeing a Doctor on Tuesday about the pain- and tiredness.

My darling dog, my companion for 15 years, was put to sleep this evening.

((((Natasha)))) So sorry.

((( natasha ))) so sorry to hear that.

katkins hope u get some sleep tonight.

natasha please pm me.
i think others are missing your state of mind atm. im not. i feel similar to you but am also rational enough not to be feeling like going through with it.
i have had a horrible horrible time at work this last 2 weeks. everyone hates me. my sgt confrimed it last week. i did something compassionate and in my job there is not room for sentiment. he told me thats why my colleagues dislike me. i was sent home in disgrace. i cant tell your how hard i am finding walking back into that building right now.

natasha - having a pet pts is awful. you grieve. i fear that it will make you feel even worse than you do now - you are rationally planning your own death - you must read that back and see it how you would if someone else posted that here.
what would you say?
you would not say crack on i can guarantee that.....

natasha you are more ill than your gp, and cpn know. you must tell them.

my rat has just weed on me......lovely.

It was the first thing I thought about Natasha, it was me who asked mn to put the link on for her (sorry). I couldn't find it, and felt at a loss as to what to do. I'm really worried about you, Natasha. I wish there were more we could do. Please phone a cpn, GP, Samartians, anyone...we are all here for you, but you do need some one to talk to in rl.

Something, I followed your other thread-are you back at work now? How are you feeling? And you didn't do anything bad, your colleagues are bullies.

Something I have PM'd you.

Katkins I've told everyone and no-one is interested. I don't have a CPN as you only get them if you have a more 'serious' MH condition and I only have depression/anxiety and PTSD.

I feel hollow tbh. My dog was the one thing that might have kept me here, he needed me and loved me unconditionally. Him going now is like a sign to say I can let go now too.

How are you doing Something, Katkins, Pulledapart, LEM, everyone else?

NAtasha i am so so sorry about your dog. You must be devestated. Do please pm something. We are all worried for you. You are quite poorly. Keep talking to us.

I understand the devastation of losing a pet. They are part of us but just on loan. :( feel for you xxxxxxx

So sorry about your dog, Natasha. Look after yourself x

My walk to the post office yesterday has totally knackered my bad leg, all got too much last night and I ended up crying all over DP about how sore it is and how vulnerable it makes me feel. Another duvet day for me.

Sorry I forgot to say thank you for all of the condolences.

Sorry you are feeling sore, Victrix. How are the gallstones?