"Summer is Coming, the Village is warm and safe - support for depression, anxiety and other MH issues"

[LollipopViolet]

New thread, everyone :) First attempt at a thread title for us.

I've just posted on the old one, am really struggling today. Was feeling numb, still do, to be honest. Need to get myself through today.

I can relate to lots of what you are saying nikki. I think ive had all those conditions too!! Too tired to post much just now. Am struggling

Bit DO go and ask for the sertraline if it helped last time.

I can relate to the health anxiety too. It became coupled with a fear of seeing doctors and being laughed at, and so an underlying minor condition was left undiagnosed for a couple of decades. Depression was a side effect!

I've had years of counselling too, and am hoping to get on a mindfulness course as I think that will help with my health anxiety and panic in a crisis.

Sorry you are struggling LEM. Mental health problems are so horrible as people are less sympathetic and they are harder to cure.

Luckily I don't have the Gp fear yegods. I am actually there now for an abdominal scan. Funnily enough I am less anxious at a gp or hospital as I feel more in control and that something is being done. Plus it stops my mind running away with itself. Trying not to think about what they might find but will know soon enough. Maybe I should get a job in a gp surgery! It is like my safe place

Hi all

(((lem)))

hi nikki welcome. Sounds like it would be worth trying to get back to the GP (without the dcs?) Have you ever tried cbt? supposed to be helpful with health anxiety.

Hi snowy hope your day's going ok

hi yegods I started a mindfulness book (Finding peace in a frantic world) and it was helpful. Need to try and read some more!

mp hope today goes ok too.

hi vanda do you have anything you know that calms you down? Going for a walk? Listening to music, doing something creative? Hope today is a bit less stressful.

Hi mrsnoggin, tul, fluffy, wipedout, deepest, fringehead, victrix, lollipop, nana and anyone I've missed. Hope today's an ok day. I am back on the sofa, but remembering to be kind to myself. Did manage to do 20 mins yoga which is good.

Hi all

Having a wobble today, back in my cocoon. I'm going on holiday a week today and I'm dreading it.

therapy went badly today, she called it a day as I was so sleepy...

Hi all,

Big hugs to those of you who are feeling shitty today. Sorry I'm on my phone - the new meds are making me woozy and every time I try to remember everyone's names I just get pissed off with myself when I inevitably forget.

Doing ok today. I was completely tortured by paranoia the last few days. Turns out I was right not good but I'm glad my asshole-radar is still intact and functioning well.

Although I'm a bit woozy, I'm feeling a bit more stable and a lot less like hurting myself badly. Another bonus.

It's pissing down here...... Again and I'm travelling by bike. I've given ex-dh my car as well as the house and the kids whilst I try to muster up some level of normality.

The child protection meeting went well yesterday - as well as can be expected. The outcome was that I have historically been a fantastic mum and that the services that have previously let me down need to support me. I can see my kids whenever I want. I'll see them every day after school at my house and do dinner and homeworks. I'll take them for trips out over the weekend too. So we've done a complete roll reversal - exdh will run the house and I'll do all the nice things for a few weeks.

Sorry for the lengthy speel. Just wanted to update you all.

Huge virtual hugs and kisses to you all.

Glad to see you are feeling better and your meeting went well, wipedoutmammy

I have given myself a small to-do list, it seems to help.

Thanks Vic - yippppeee I remembered a name

I did a list yesterday. I'm also working from a schedule today and it's helping.... Lots. I'm really loving crossing off the things I've achieved. Aye ok it's as basic as eating breakfast but I'm doing it

Hope you have a lovely, productive day xxxxxxxxxx

Hi all, hi Nana, LEM, snowy, mp, vic, everyone!

Welcome new people

Nice mew thread lolly.

Just popping my head in to say hi, a bit knackered today, I made it through the work thing yesterday, it was an ordeal but I did survive. Having a very quiet day at home today, but feel not too bad.

Have a decent day people x

I'm struggling with my own name at the moment - other people's names are a bit advanced

Yeah, my list is also things like eat, get dressed, have a shower etc - it's amazing how tough it actually is to function on a truly basic level.

It is Vic,

On the plus side though - we're functioning go us.

Hope your list includes a wee bit of chocolate xxxx

That's good wipedout, glad it went well. And the list is an idea I may well take up myself!

In today's news, I managed to do the afternoon school run alone. Dragged 2yo DD2 a mile and trailed them both home successfully. Acheived trip to waitrose for posh teabags (trying to get away from the caffeine addiction) with only minor anxiety attack in the queue. First time out of the house alone in a week. Woohoo! Just wish it hadn't been such an effort.

Well done mrs noggin

I'm actually really loving my list. It's made my day really productive. My ds has asd so I was used to setting up schedules for him. I'm doing them for me now. I'm puting wee treats through the lists as an incentive. Seems to be helping xxxxxx

Well done on the list, Wipedoutmammy Well done on the school run, MrsNoggin You can do it, Victrix Well done on surviving, nethunsreject

I'm feeling a bit of failure after my therapy got called off

I think that's normal snowy. I felt an utter failure after one of my sessions was cancelled after 5 mins! But I see now it was exactly the correct thing to do, it would have been no benefit to me whatsoever as I was in such a state. Sounds like she knows what she is doing. Hope you're ok.

good news wipedoutmammy hope that the few weeks off are useful. Well done mrs Noggin never mind snowy hope you are more alert next time. Hi vixtrix nana and CIQ etc. Hope everyone is doing well today.

Had kids for 2 days in a row now and nothing has gone that badly wrong. They seem to have got used to me being a teary mess.

After phoning job centre plus and speaking to 4 different people in 4 a similar amount of different call centres, and then today getting one sensible person phoning me back my benefits have been reinstated! Thank goodness. It shouldn't be that difficult though...it makes you think about people that having learning disabilities, or whose first language isn't English, or who are REALLY mentally or physically ill.

I'm meant to be taking the kids on holiday for a week from Saturday...which should be interesting given that I've been finding it hard leaving the house, or even looking out of the window recently without crying Either my life situation is going to have to change drastically in the next few days, my GP waves a magic wand on Thurs or have to seriously change my way of thinking. Or consume quite a lot of this during the week.

Bets are on the

Went to friendship group after ice skating today - had a lovely chat with the lady who runs the project about Sunday and how down I was feeling.

As I was walking to the station to get the train home she saw me, gave me a hug and said, "It was nice to see you, love. Keep your chin up, you're doing so, so much better than you think you are."

That, and the lovely chats I had in group, really made my day - I often think I'm failing, sinking, when in fact I'm swimming along quite nicely. I guess I sometimes need a reminder of that :)

Sorry about your session snowy. Try not to let it get you down too much. Hopefully the next one will be helpful xxxx

Well done fluffy on 2 days with the kiddies. Mine are used to me crying too - I've told myself it's preferable to me being a wiped out and unfeeling mess

Glad you enjoyed the skating lolli. It's amazing how the kindness and understanding of one person can turn your day around.

Wee question for anyone who may know. Can I still claim Carers allowance if I'm in receipt of ESA?

Feeling totally overwhelmed. Almighty row with dp I feel like running away but ive nowhere to go

Hi everyone,
snowy I can imagine that feels weird after your session - but if you were too sleepy, best to save it for another day and get the most out of it.
Not such a good day, but am trying to keep chin up.... really do notice how I have several good weeks then a couple of bad ones... then good again. Hey ho.

(((lem)))
Try not to make big decisions tonight, can you take yourself off to a different room with and/or with a screen and/or good book?

wipedout - don't know but you could call Carers UK 0808 808 7777 who are v good -or CAB..

He will be taking DD up to bed soon, he isn't speaking to me so he wont be down :( All because his friend taking the piss out of him regarding work and i get it in the neck because he is stressed. I am stressed, ive had a shitty day with his client texting me all day stressing at me over when he is gong to start the job, then he tells me im interfering. I don't know what to think, we rub along so well together but every so often there are some really nasty horrible rows and poor dd always gets upset. I don't know what to think - i just want to wind the clock back and have cuddles and a nice cup of tea. I am supposed to be doing stuff for the pfa tonight but i can't think straight. My head has been tingling all day, its anxiety at its finist