"Summer is Coming, the Village is warm and safe - support for depression, anxiety and other MH issues"

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New thread, everyone :) First attempt at a thread title for us.

I've just posted on the old one, am really struggling today. Was feeling numb, still do, to be honest. Need to get myself through today.

(((( katkins )))) I really hope they can fit you in sooner than Friday as you are on so much distress at the moment. Thinking of you x

Phew Katkins at least this clinic now realise you need anti-psychotics, which is a step forward. Was it the same nurse that you saw before - he/she obviously can't prescribe meds for psychosis and hopefully when you see the psychiatrist on Friday (or sooner) you will get a diagnosis and appropriate treatment. Good that he is going to try and move your appointment forward. It sounds like mental health services where you live are very poor, and surely the mental health nurses must be used to patients presenting with complex symptoms!

Hope you can get the help and support that you desperately need.

I hope the drugs kick in, pulledapart

Only 3 more days til Friday, katkins

NN, I hope you get through ok with the meds change.

Thanks Snowy always nice to see your posts. I've just scrolled back to the beginning of this thread and see lot of people have "fallen by the wayside" so to speak, but hope they know they can pop in again anytime.

Pulledapart I wanted to read your OP and finally found it - you do have a lot to contend with, having both mental and physical illness. Are you on any meds to cope with the hallucinations as they sound distressing for you.

CIQ glad you started counselling - you will probably know from the counselling you've been having that it can make you feel very drained. Really hope it helps you and your DH whatever way you decide to go. My eldest son and my DIL are splitting up after 24 years - nothing major apparently - just grown apart and they are being very amicable about it, but it's still very sad. DH and I sometimes feel angry with both of them because of the effect on DGD who is 14 but she is coping well, and I know they will both do everything they can to dilute the hurt/harm to her, but we are grieving the loss of them as a family.

Still feeling physically crap but makes a change from depression!

I think Collardove is on holiday. Lem is waiting for Thursday - Silvery wondering how you are, nethuns Pyrrgh (although she was moving house so is probably very busy.

Hope you are doing, Ok, Nana. Same Nurse- is my CPN apparently (!). He can't prescribe, no, says I need a Doctor to do all of this for me really.

Snowy- how are you doing with the voices?

I am missing my DD :(

I'm lurking, I'm afraid I can't keep up with it at the moment and can't think of anything sensible to say. Feeling constantly sick, getting pins and needles in my head and my eyes are going funny. Think it's probably to do with this cyst I'm incubating as it's all been since the beginning of the year when i had a pregnancy scare, and seems like pregnancy symptoms. I don't know if ovarian cysts can do that.

Completely freaked out today when someone addressed me by name in the lift at the supermarket. I must have looked blank because she said who she was (I recognised her, but couldn't' work out who she was) and she was my GP. Now I'm really worried as to why she would remember who I am. Had to fight down a panic attack doing the shopping. thank god the DC were well behaved. Contracts exchanged today. Moving next weekend. Have a house to pack and figure out where everything is going (we are losing two rooms) and I shall also lose my computer because there won't be room for it and DH doesn't' see why I need one. I don't even know where to start. I'm not sure I'll be able to contribute much in the near future, but I'll come back on and lurk maybe. Feel a bit a fraud posting here anyway.

Hugs to everyone.

pyrrhagena hope your move goes well. I'm sure your GP just remembers most patients - mines seems to know everyone locally :-)

NN - I am taking a generic version of the ad which means that each time i get it - can be from a different manufacturer. Hope you get the reductions sorted soon to minimise the withdrawals. i wonder if they will have to reduce the sertraline slightly if you dont reduce the other drug so quickly to avoid you taking too much?

Sorry everyone is having difficult days :-(
So re the inconsistencies of care for people. Wishing everyone more peaceful days.

I can't do this :(

Hugs lem. You can. I hope you're not too upset by that other thread :(

Well Katkins I just hope your CPN is a whole lot more helpful once you have seen the psychiatrist and have a diagnosis and treatment plan. Are you getting to see your LO on a regular basis. I think that's important for her, so she knows you haven't just disappeared from her life. Hopefully once you are on meds and are stabilised you will be able to resume caring for her. Is the friend who is caring for her keeping in touch with you, to let you know how she is, and supporting you.

Pyrrhagena The symptoms you describe sound like anxiety to me, and you mentioned a panic attack with is anxiety plus plus........it's small wonder you are feeling anxious with this impending house move. Are you having any help with "packing up your house" and the move in general. Why do you feel a fraud to post on here - you sound like a really lovely woman who has a low opinion of herself which is a real shame.

Blossomy no they are increasing the Sertraline and I've come down from 200mg imipramine to 50mg so just need to slow down the last 50mg (I'm hoping they will agree to a 10mg drop per week or even 2 weeks) The psych explained about the need to avoid "serotonin syndrome" (too much) which can apparently be fatal in some cases.

Lem you are bound to be worse as Thursday gets nearer. What time is your appointment?

How are you Snowy

((( NN katkins pyrrh LEM blossomy all )))
I'm struggling like many of you.

Checking in...now on a higher dose of citalopram which has hit me very hard. Finally down from my incredibly anxious weekend.

Managed to get my budget spreadsheet up to date as this week I'll get my first wage of stat sick pay, luckily everything will be covered so I can relax about that at least.

((everyone)) as it seems like times are tough all round

((( everyone )))

I hope the side effects are transient, victrix

Got through today thanks to diazepam and my friend who despite waiting for chemo (she is terrified) and having only one breast she put up with my whining what ifs.

Sorry you are all struggling x

(((( LEM )))) I'm sure you were a support for her too.

Hope everyone is doing ok. Hang in there, Lem. How are things going now, snowy?

My friend is in touch every day, Nana. She face books me and tells me what DD is doing, and little things. I see my DD whenever I want. I haven't last two days, as she had dance class and then to her 'boyfriend's' house today. We are trying to keep her routine as normal as possible, even if that means me not seeing her so she can do the things she normally does. I take her things like colouring books, loom bands, hair bands, that sort of thing. My friend is coming with me to the DR on Friday, and we are going to talk about what to do with DD when I go to theirs for tea tomorrow. I do seem to be stabilising; but I think it's the diapazem that does it, and I'm needing to sleep so much. I collected my 100mg sertraline today, dreading upping it.

I'm soso thanks katkins, can't see the point in contacting CMHT as they'll just deny everything. Only two more days til your appointment on Friday. Good luck with the meds increase, you can do it!

Katkins really glad to hear that your friend is keeping you in touch with DD and you can see her often, and you're right to keep her routine as normal as possible. Your friend sounds very supportive and something of a lifeline for you just now and good thing she is going with you to your appointment on Friday. That CPN needs to get his act together in my view. I upped from 50mg Sertraline to 100 without any trouble, so I wouldn't worry too much about that, as you will probably be ok.

Snowy not sure what you mean about CMHT denying everything. Is this related to your AP meds that make you so tired - there is someone on another thread on APs and she has just managed to get them changed after quite a fight I think. Is there an alternative AP that doesn't cause so much fatigue.

Lem - we'll all be waiting to hear the outcome of your appointment I'm sure!

I'm a bit anxious about more decrease in imipramine (seeing CPN on Friday) as the withdrawal symptoms I had were terrifying and are only really starting to subside. Usually my CPN is very supportive but I have a feeling that the psych is going to want me to get off imipramine asap, but I am going to be assertive, as it's my body/brain!

Hi, can I join you all?
I'm struggling again recently and have been referred back to the local mental health team. Feeling like a massive failure and generally crap about everything.

Welcome jellybean

It's all my meds, NN Good luck with your assertiveness.

Hi Jellybean :)
Hope it goes well today, Lem.
Nana, upping the dose was OK- a bit more feeling sick than usual, but I sorted that with crisps and cakes (!). I feel very down today, really quite depressed (like sh/ suicidal), even with diapazem. Some of my psychotic symptoms are ebbing away; but I still have very odd beliefs (i.e there's a giant spider behind me, one of my voices is watching me, residual hallucinations and spiders on my skin). I'm quite calm about it, though. I'm wondering if, given the duration of this episode (intermittent for two years , symptoms- I didn't realise) and for almost a month in a very active stage (31st May ish was my first hallucination) that I have schizophrenia; I think it fits. I'd like to ask others what they think, though. My Mother has it, so that upps my chances. Obviously, I'll wait for a Doctor to say, but I just wonder what others views are...

Sorry you're feeling so down, (((( katkins ))))

I've emailed the general address for CMHT, saying I've stopped my meds and why.

I got the all clear. They want to check me again in 3 months but they are sure its nothing nasty. The dr was so lovely. They want to recheck in three months which worried me a bit but I have to accept that they have said its ok and just get on with things -I get the impression that the appointment was more to reassure me. My appointment was 2 hours late though so as you can imagine I was climbing the walls.

Oh no LEM - sorry you had such a wait. I'm glad you got the all clear though!

Spoke to someone from CMHT today, and they want a dr to see me.