"Summer is Coming, the Village is warm and safe - support for depression, anxiety and other MH issues"

[LollipopViolet]

New thread, everyone :) First attempt at a thread title for us.

I've just posted on the old one, am really struggling today. Was feeling numb, still do, to be honest. Need to get myself through today.

Oh lem thats a tough one. Do you know when your appt is? (((Hugs)))

How's everyone else doing today? I have not had a v productive day. My friend didn't come over to paint so I haven't painted. Did a little photography and sketching. Just couldn't get going.

Next Thursday ciq. I am terrified but surely if there was anything sinister it would have been picked up??

Just read through last few pages - just wanted to say hello to new people. I love that this thread is reaching so many of us. I can't respond on my phone as I lose track of who said what and what with my head being all over the place its difficult.

Ciq I am sorry you are struggling. Photos and pics sound great. I have been doing some crochet -it is relaxing and reminds me of you and Edwina (I wonder how she is?).

Nana thanks for the kind words. I would tutor dd myself but like many children she is very stubborn for mum but pretty good for othets so thinking tutor would be short term syart then once I have some techniques will hopefully step in. Its more of a releif than a worry if im honest. We have knosinown for a long time so an official diagnosis is a good thing as it opens some doors to access support.

Collared how are you doing? You seem more together??

Katkins -I hope you are managing and the meds are helping. You aee doing so wellxx

Hugs to all -silvery, blossom. Victrix .pulled apart. Anyone ive forgotten xxxx

Just to say thinking of you all.

(((( LEM )))) The waiting/not knowing must be awful

Snowy thankyou -how are you today??? To be fair I think its just a belt and braces check up and re drain. My dr said nothing to worry about ahahahaha!!! Im actually more stressed about getting stressed if that makes sense.

you're right lem they'd have been on to anything bad way before now. Like the crochet and being thought of.

Hi snowy have you managed to get out today?

I do sometimes wish I could have a head transplant! I am fed up that it can still go so wonky despite loads of counselling and ADs. Moan moan moan. Lack of concentration and in a treacly daze. OK enough of the self pity. I have got some stuff done today.

I'm struggling, but I did manage to get out today to the corner shop.

I hope that the stress goes away, LEM I'm sorry you're struggling too CIQ

We dont really have any corner shops here now. Shame.

(Lem). I picked up my DD from school today, went to the shops, took her to a friends house and then back home for bath and bed. Think I managed quite well. The guy from the clinic says he will report me to social services, but to be frank, he hasn't even phoned my friend to check DD is where she says she is. I'm not fussed; she's staying put with me. If I get too ill, I will know now and get a taxi straight to a n e. I'm really, really tired and now have to battle with the job centre tomorrow. Still getting low level hallucinations.

I'm really losing track of what was a dream and what is reality

Katkins what guy from what clinic is reporting you to Social Services?? Oh god the Job Centre - you could do without that. Were you working before you became ill?

Oh I saw a duty nurse on Tuesday and told him little one was with friend. Gave him friends number. He never checked. Then I asked about looking after her on meds, he said leave her with friend. I wanted her today and my friend was going out, so I picked her up from school, took her to replace toothbrush and stuff we lost and then went to see other friend and baby. Walked back through park and gave her bath, then put her to bed. Nothing happened, everyone safe. I phoned the clinic this afternoon because I'm still having low level stuff and asked to see some one or get more diapazem, said I want my Daughter back. He said no to crisis team number ,no to hone care and no to seeing someone. He said if I take her back he will report me. At the assessment, I told him that was my worst paranoid delusion. He hasn't rung friend to check where daughter is,or reported me. If I get a visit from social services, I'll ask them to help me with support. If I don't, I might self refer as its clear I need some extra help. I've been left with no follow up, no info and no care really. He broke a child protection rule by not checking anyway. She's safe here with me. In case of removal, two friends will have her. But one visit here and social services won't remove, they will most likely help. I have just finished a degree, I missed an appointment at the job centre and got sanctioned. Tha t was the trigger. Tomorrow I can do without.and I wouldn't have taken daughter back if I couldn't cope. I promise.

Vic, do you get this a lot? Might it be worth getting that checked out with a doctor?

I've got an appointment on Monday with my GP, I'll say to her then. I've had little bits of this before but not like this.

I hope you get on ok katkin, you're having a much rougher time than me by the looks of things x

I only mention it because some of my issues started like this. And that's not to scare you, do get it checked. Even if just to rule anything serious out. It's probably an emotional reaction, but don't risk it x

Hi everyone.

I am off on holiday with DH and DC early Saturday morning, so I am not sure I will get online tomorrow.It's probably the last family hol we will have with DS as he is 20 nearly and has told us that is the case!

I will miss reading how everyone is doing each day.

Since joining this thread the support has really kept me afloat. The understanding, advice, support and comfort shared is second to none :) I will miss that in the next 10 days.

Especially if my current ok mood takes a knock, will have no one around who understands to sound out about it, and probably end up having a hissy fit from hell :(

Lem - Hope your GP is correct and that it is nothing to worry about...

CIQ - I actually enjoyed my birthday in the end today! :) I hope you do yours next week. So early happy birthday for then!

NanaNina - Take care of yourself, hope when I get back in a week and a bit that your meds change has settled down accordingly.

Nethuns, Snowy, Victrix, Lollipop, Silvery, KatKins, PulledApart, Blossomy, FeelingDown and DumDum (how are you? Where are you??) hugs to you all x

collar that's good to hear about your birthday . I know what you mean about this thread - it is an amazing place isn't it.

Wishing you a good and peaceful holiday. Don't overdo it, grab yourself some "me" time when you need it and look forward to hearing all about it.

Morning to all. I am off to brave supermarket

Katkins I am really puzzled about the lack of care you are getting for your mental health. Assume you saw a GP (who didn't believe you were hearing voices I think you said?) and he/she must have prescribed meds, but sounds like you have run out of diazepam. Is this nurse a mental health nurse attached to the GP practice? He sounds most unhelpful - I would have thought the least he could do would be to ensure that you have enough medication to last you till next Friday. I know you have an appointment then - is this with the same GP?

I don't think Social Services will be able to offer any help because I had a look at your profile and if you are still living in that area, that LA is absolutely "on its knees" in terms of children's services, well and everything else really, and the same seems to be true for mental health services. It looks like you will have to rely on your friends for support. Do you not have any supportive family?

Re finances - do they expect you to the "jobseeking" when you are a single parent - wouldn't put it past them. The Work Capability Test is a sham and is declaring almost everyone "fit for work" and I think you have to be near death to get ESA! I think it's particularly bad for mental health too as it is so misunderstood. Maybe you could get advice from CAB although I know they too are inundated because of all these awful cuts that are being made.

Lem hope it turns out ok - next Thursday is a long time to wait but you seem reasonably resigned?
Wishing you a good holiday collardove hope you're going somewhere warm.

How are things today Snowy

It's pouring with rain here - still having withdrawal symptoms but not so bad, achey and nausea and no appetite (other than for biscuits!) so probably no weight loss.

Hoping everyone else is having as good a day as possible.

Thinking of you all ((( all )))

Hi all. Hope you feel better Snowy and Lem and Nana. I'll answer your questions as much as I can, Nana, since today was a better day, though I'm exhausted and the diapazem is just about keeping me going. I'll paste it if that's OK.

Katkins I am really puzzled about the lack of care you are getting for your mental health. Assume you saw a GP (who didn't believe you were hearing voices I think you said?) and he/she must have prescribed meds, but sounds like you have run out of diazepam. No, I saw my GP in the first phase. She said continue taking Prozac (I'd been prescribed three weeks before for depression) and wrote a referral. At this time, I told her I was hearing voices and seeing spiders. I had been hearing voices for three months, spiders for three weeks. Explained this to her. No immediate help was offered, despite me saying it was getting worse. That was Wednesday. It got so bad that by Friday, I saw the out of hours doctor who refused to believe me and sneered at my friend to take me to a n e- where I'd be refused help, he said. I was left with no meds or help until the Monday, when I saw my GP and demanded a referral to the clinic where I saw a nurse...

Is this nurse a mental health nurse attached to the GP practice? He sounds most unhelpful - I would have thought the least he could do would be to ensure that you have enough medication to last you till next Friday. I know you have an appointment then - is this with the same GP?

The nurse is from the community mental health clinic. He did an assessment, gave me seven days of diapazem and sertraline, which was faxed through on the Tuesday. That's 6 days of active and acute psychosis I endured, with no meds or help to calm me down. And no support. He hasn't reported me, by the way. And I couldn't care less if he did- he hasn't checked where she is, so he's in breach of child protection rules. He actually has no idea where she is at all : no-one has checked. I'm getting low level symptoms still , so I need a) more diapazem and b) a prescription of both meds to last until the 4th. The appointment is with a community mental health team Doctor.

I don't think Social Services will be able to offer any help because I had a look at your profile and if you are still living in that area, that LA is absolutely "on its knees" in terms of children's services, well and everything else really, and the same seems to be true for mental health services. It looks like you will have to rely on your friends for support. Do you not have any supportive family?

Yes, same area. The LEA is appalling here- one of the worst, goes back to a case years ago. No supportive family at all. Phone my Dad today, he wasn't interested, started saying things about my Mum (who I don't see) that could trigger me.

Re finances - do they expect you to the "jobseeking" when you are a single parent - wouldn't put it past them.

Have applied for ESA, decision will be made by Monday and need to fill in my form. I've got a first class degree, masters and PhD (all offered) waiting for me, and freelance work.

Sorry- long reply. I'm basically on my own, with no support really. Hope everyone else is holding up OK :) Have a lovely holiday Collar!

Hope you have a lovely holiday, Collar

I found it quite weird without this thread as well when I was away too, I started keeping a diary instead and found that helped

((everyone))

Hi all (((hugs)))

I've been having a terrible sleep for past 2 days. Averaging 2-3 hrs a night. Even sleeping tabs not working :( it's made me very edgy and feeling really low. Hoping tonight I can make up for it. It's really weird as 3 days ago I couldn't sleep enough hours in the day and now it's the opposite.

collar have a great time :)

lem hope all turns out ok & hope your doing ok today.

NN hope you feel better soon & enjoy the biscuits don't feel guilty.

ciq hope the supermarket run went ok & your not too burned out.

snowy hope you having a good day today.

katkins it sounds really tough for you at the moment (((hugs))) well done for keeping yourself going and being there for your DD. It's important not to loose sight of that as often with being so low we forget what a good job we are doing with our DC!

victrix I'm wondering if what you are feeling about the dream is dissociation of some sort. It happens when we don't want to face up something in RL. I often feel that way when I'm really really low. I might have got that completely wrong in your case though.

Hope everyone get through tonight ok x

I think it might be the fact that the weird dreams I've been having are mostly "real life" - people & places I know - but with a weird twist. I'm finding myself chatting to DP about something I did and then realising I dreamed it

I just don't like the feeling that I don't know what has actually happened or not.

Had to check my passport to see how many times I'd been to Canada

Hi pulledapart survived the supermarket thanks. Sorry to hear about your sleeping trouble. Are you able to get out for a walk or something - fresh and air and a little gentle exercise might help, maybe? Hope you have better luck tonight.

victrix my dbro had exactly that - he has just gone up to max dose of sertraline - gp then took him back to previous level. Doesn't sound fun.

katkins you sound like you're doing amazingly well considering how poorly you are and how little support, take lots of care of yourself.

nana really hope those withdrawal symptoms calm down soon.

hello to everyone else.

Getting stuff done today has been like trying to get blood out of a stone. Not feeling great this eve so am wondering if I am coming down with something, headachy, irritable, exhausted, achy pain in far right of abdomen... who knows.

Chest infection and the week from hell at work means I feel like I'm crawling through the sludge at the bottom of the barrel. Hope everyone else is doing better.

Katkins, I'm sorry your care has been so lacking and that you couldn't see a psych sooner. I feel like I need to apologise on behalf of the NHS but I'm glad to see you're coping and even doing a bit better. Hopefully you can get some more appropriate medication sorted soon.