Hi all, sorry being intermittent atm. Am feeling a bit meh, but just ordinary mehness, from it having been such an overcast June day. November, no problem, but June, my favourite month!
I was very angry when I went into hypomania in April - angry that DD was the one who had power to ask for help, angry that it would be grist to Ex's delusion that he had to give up work because of my illness Anger at my disappointment - I had had such a good weekend planned, was going to a family party, seeing both DC, introducing Lovely Man - but although I got that all organised, all sorts of trivia plus worry about cat, plus for some stupid reason trying to meet Ex who was going to look after cat at his, just sent me into a spiral.
I walked and ranted for 3 solid days, I do believe (and have said to psych and CPN) that if someone had had the time to listen to my rant, instead of just telling me I was disturbing others, things would have been better.
DD did a good job, I am fine now, and I was never angry with her, only at the situation. But actually I think I am a little shaken by the way in-patient care seems to have changed - they are understaffed and have to spend their time doing things like answering the door, opening the laundry room, doing meds, and writing screeds on the computer.