"Summer is Coming, the Village is warm and safe - support for depression, anxiety and other MH issues"

[LollipopViolet]

New thread, everyone :) First attempt at a thread title for us.

I've just posted on the old one, am really struggling today. Was feeling numb, still do, to be honest. Need to get myself through today.

Thanks Snowy!

Hope you get a good nights sleep and that your CPN gets to you finally tomorrow :) x

NanaNina :) thinking of you through this extra challenging time for you.

I hope very much that by the end of the month when it's all kicked in, that it has been a change of meds for the better for you x

Nana I think its tutoring on a one to one basis but yes I need to find out more.

How's everyone doing? My cpn may be coming later. No man's land sounds challenging,(((( NN )))). I hope time doesn't stretch out too much :/

LEM 1-to-1 tutoring with young people (assuming they want to be there, at least in part) could be good, I think. Would you have support ie someone to talk to about how it's going?

NN what can I say except grit your teeth and hang in there.

As happened 2 years ago, the Quetiapine have been causing problems waking up in the morning, but I have spoken to my psych and he's put them down to 150 mg. My theory which is mine is that they help me catch up after periods of sleep deprivation, and then as I'm caught up, they carry on doing their stuff. Psychiatrists see them first and foremost as a mood stabiliser though, but I wonder if that's how they do the mood stabilising iyswim. Since my divorce 2 years ago my sleep pattern has improved tremendously, although I still have problems cos of being the wrong temperature in bed, and (don't take this the wrong way!) find it hard to sleep well in the same bed as Lovely Man.

I have managed to stop taking naps, which might also be thanks to Q, or maybe the sodium valporate. Also because I feel much more like doing things. Today I took some stuff to the recycling centre - stuff that's been outside the back door for years, while neither I nor H stepped up to the plate to deal with them.

Support group was good today - I even managed to get there by bus instead of taxi, woohoo!

They reiterated what I thought, I am progressing. Self evaluation they call it - looking at how your feeling and trying to pinpoint why you're feeling that way instead of letting your emotions spiral.

We talked about Fathers Day, and I am going to do something to mark it, I'm not sure what yet, but I'll do something.

Mildly productive day, flipping great spider interrupted my bathroom cleaning which was unfortunate. Cat was no help so had to tackle it with the hoover, which meant I ended up just carrying on and hoovering the whole house. Sorted a GP appointment for Monday as well.

NN Im not sure if this is any help at all but that is exactly what i needed to do with medication switch. (ie take diazepam to bridge that period between one type leaving my system and the other one building up to a decent enough level.) I do remember it being really awful but things did improve... I know the end of the month must feel ages away but if you can keep telling yourself 'this too will pass' ....
I know - easy for me to say !

inthewoods Re feeling detached from loved ones - its a very common symtom of anxiety.

Hi all :-). Sorry for silence recently. Things are a bit better here, dare I say it?? By no means fine, but definitely improved.
Nana I'm so sorry you're having such a rubbish time :-(. I hope the new meds help once things stabilize.
Hi collar, lem, lollipop and everyone. Will try to get on track with the thread over the next few days :-)

All is very quiet in the village.... Hope everyone is ok? ;)

Nethuns - that is good to hear that life is good :) x

Wow victrix that sounds like a highly productive day!
Hope you're doing ok on the new meds NN.
We've been away for a week. Come back to a mountain of washing, packing boxes, no contract of sale in the post, so we don't even know if the sale is going ahead and complete silence from our agent. He is so incompetent it is ridiculous.

I have to go to the doctors tomorrow (smear) and am completely freaking out about it. I've already cancelled once and if I do so again I'll get the practice nurse on the phone telling me off. Sigh. How do you know if something is worth asking the doctor about without appearing like a crazy paranoid fool?

Really good news about the job LEM. Is it something you'd be comfortable to do?

How are things going snowy, DD, CIQ, TSP? (and any one else I've forgotten)

Lollipop thinking of you today

I went to my first parkrun yesterday. The support and encouragement as I plodded round was amazing. Got round in 46.37 and was next to last (only because the nice lady I was going round with sent me on ahead of her to the finish) but do not care! I had a great time.

I felt really revitalised, in body and actually, felt really good in mind too.

Today, however, I just ache

Just popping in to say hello. Feel ok ish

Hi phyy, collar and everyone, that's fantastic vic! Worth the work :-). Lem,, glad you're OK today. Nana, how's things?
I'm having a rubbish day today, no peace, feel Overwhelmed, gah! And bloody bitch neighbour told ds1 he couldn't play with her son today as usual. Made pathetic excuse, but it's because he's a bit different :-(. I'm so sad.
Next few weeks there is more going on than I can deal with :-, trying to ask dh for help but he isn't listening. Fantasies about leaving home becoming more frequent. I'd love to just go away alone, unannounced, and scare everyone into accepting how bad things are.

I feel like a bit of a fraud now - my thought process was less "might as well do the whole house" and more "the more stuff I can get in the hoover on top of this spider the less likely it is to use its mighty spider powers to smash its way out of the hoover"*.

Still, the housework got done so I suppose it still counts as a win.

*I appreciate this is unlikely but tell that to the arachnophobia.

Oh my god! I also do that. DH laughed at me the other day as he got the hoover to get one off the ceiling and I asked if it was in the hoover properly or would it come to get me in the night

I don't hoover spiders, but do find that if I can bring myself to hoover anything (eg carpets!) it can get the momentum going.

Plus unless I do whole ground floor more or less together, dirt from uncleaned areas migrates to clean ones (not that I always care ).

Had a good weekend, visit from cousin, nice food, nice walk today. Seem to be feeling kind of harmonious benefit from meds combination - I do so hope you will find the same "NN".

Well, that's me told. Trying to toilet train DD. DS has just said "Go. leave me alone with DD in peace!" He is looking at a book with her in the bathroom. Cup of tea for me :) little buggers have been up for over an hour and a half already. Not so :)

I've given up hoovering at the moment and just sweep the patches of floor I can see

Hi all, struggling today.

Nethuns - hugs! sorry you are struggling today :( Today is not a good day for me either :(

I am going to seek refuge in my bed and hope the world will seem a little better in a few hours...

Hugs to all struggling. Been told today I have a teratoma on my ovary. Revolting! Not sure whether or not to tell DH or wait 4 months until the next check up.

(((Hugs))) to all struggling esp nethuns, collar

pyrrh what is that? Not serious I hope.

V busy few days preparing for end of year show at college. A lot of work but all done. Pic..

Hi folks - sorry been absent for a while. I haven't known whether I've been coming or going and some family problems haven't helped, but things a bit more settled now. On week 4 of my meds change - started 100mg Sertraline today - had some horrendous days in the past 2 weeks but last few days have been more or less ok, though I've learned not to be too optimistic. My CPN is coming out on Thursday with the psychiatrist to review the meds change and agree with me where we go from here.........she is SO lovely and helpful and been on the end of some phone calls from me wailing down the phone at her just lately!

Sorry feel out of touch with everyone. CIQ those paintings are wonderful - are they watercolour, or maybe oil or acrylic....I did go to painting classes some years ago but I was still at work and was always knackered as it was in the evening. I didn't have any talent but enjoyed fiddling about with the paints.

The village is very quiet - it's late and I should be in bed but will be back tomorrow.

Snowy are you ok?

Thank you Blossomy that was useful to know. I've certainly needed this diazepam this past couple of weeks.