"Summer is Coming, the Village is warm and safe - support for depression, anxiety and other MH issues"

[LollipopViolet]

New thread, everyone :) First attempt at a thread title for us.

I've just posted on the old one, am really struggling today. Was feeling numb, still do, to be honest. Need to get myself through today.

(((lem)))
Hi collar, nana sorry you're struggling. Pre-menstrual migraine today - rats.

Oh no NN, I'm so sorry things are so bad, do you think it's reducing the medication?

Sorry to hear about your disagreement, collardove, I hope the feelings associated with it go away.

Oh no LEM do you know when it will be reassessed? Thinking of you.

NN, silvery, victrix - I hope you all got some rest, and preferably some sleep.

I'm tired and in a blip, trying not to go back to bed.

((( CIQ )))) I hope the migraine goes away quickly.

NN sorry that you have the head monster back.

Snowy - I am waiting to hear if the clinic want me back. Am hoping they wont and will just tell me to keep an eye on it :(

I'll keep fingers crossed for you, LEM

I'm struggling, looking at one of the threads on chat has reminded me of when I lived in a nursing home and people with dementia used to come into my room and swear/claw at me or collapse cry.

Hi ladies, sorry if this a random question, but do you ever feel a bit detached from your kids? You know you love them, but you just don't quite feel it? I think it's a symptom of anxiety but I hate it xx

Right, given that I did not go back to bed and am therefore back to insomniamindfog status, I am going to go and have a nice bath and go to bed.

inthewoods4, I can't answer re. kids as I haven't got any, but I have been finding that I'm not feeling my emotions just now- I'm sort of aware that I should feel sad/happy/bored or whatever but I'm just...not?

Tomorrow I swear I will clean and tidy the bathroom.

Snowy thankyou -to be fair It is most likely fine and just needs redraining but am freaked out by it.

Inthewoods - I totally understand this and it ruined the relationship between and dd1. I jad convinced myself that one or other of us would die and I put up a protective barrier. Only now do I realise this was anxiety. The detachment is something that affects me badly when im really struggling.

Hi LEM, do you find you get the attachment back when you're feeling better? I seem to fluctuate, so on good days I feel really maternal, but on bad days she can feel like a stranger xx

Yes pretty much. How old are your dc? Have you spoken to anyone about these feelings?

Hi Lem, sorry I went to bed early last night so didn't see your last post! Yes, I've had CBT which helped. It all stems from PND, so I think when I'm feeling low it reminds me of that time again, which was horrible. I think somewhere deep down I blame all this on having kids, because before I never had any MH problems. My DC is nearly 4 xxx

How's everyone doing today?

I think most people's anxiety levels ratch up abit when they have children. Mine got so much worse when dd2 was born but I think I have always had underlying issues.

In other news I was offered a job today

Wow Congratulations LEM!!!

That's great lem can you tell us more?

Hi snowy how's things?

inthewoods yep I'd agree with lem - a lot more to be anxious about with kids around!

well kids are in bed, tho just had to shout at dd for skipping with a skipping rope in her room . Late bedtime as took my df out for a pizza which was nice though the kids weren't best behaved. Been feeling anxious today. Popped round to a friend's this morning which was nice, but haven't felt right since and can't work out why. Started watching ER from Series 1 last night (loved it when it was on 10+ years ago) and it's still good tv. So think I will put that back on as dh out.

But I don't want it!!! I'm not ready

What is it?

Ciq its all I bit weird. Turned up st my friends after walking her dog. Her friend was there who owns a teaching agency and she offered me tutoring work and wouldn't take no for an answer! Will wait and see what comes... scared

Oh wow lem! I can understand you feeling scared. But a little bit of tutoring work that you can control the volume of, could be a good toe in the water? It is good though that your expertise is recognised and valued

I wasn't going to go to support group tomorrow (you can dip in and out, it's formal but very informal in terms of needing to attend etc) but I've really, really missed my granddad this week and have been tearful a lot so I think, deep down I know I need to go.

Well done Lem! :)

I agree with CIQ at least you can do the tutoring as it suits you. So perhaps if you want a weeks break etc you can steer it to your needs.

I wish I would of just stayed in bed today... Made a list of jobs to do in order to distract myself, and did them all. So on a roll I then did lots of other things, then got in a hiss fit as it all got too much. Ended up ruining a much loved piece of clothing :(

Then I decided to take a tea break on my sunbed, sat back and threw hit tea on my face and chest when the head rest fell back :(

Have been nursing ice packs for the past 2 hours on myself. Stings like mad....

Lollipop - hugs to you. I hope you will feel strong enough in yourself to go tomorrow :)

My cpn is coming tomorrow (hopefully).

Ouch collardove :( I hope the ice packs stop the stinging.

Support group sounds like a plan, LV, hugs.

Good luck with the tutoring LEM

(((( all )))) and have a good night's rest.

Lem I think you need to find out a bit more about this. The thing is with Agencies, they obviously make a fair profit out of their business, so you'll need to know exactly what tutoring she has in mind and where and how much will you get paid etc etc. Anyway the term in HE is coming to an end so unlikely to be starting till the autumn term. You don't want to go to a secondary school (as that I think caused you big problems with mental health) so ensure you make it clear that you are only interested in FE or HE. My friend works for a Uni on a sessional basis and sees students who have MH issues (she is an art therapist) but obviously doesn't do this with the students, it's more supporting them with their studies - some have EDs depression/anxiety etc.

I am having a really rough ride with this change over of meds and my anxiety levels are sky high. I've spent most of today in bed and am taking diazepam 4mg x 2 or 3 times a day. My CPN says this is ok. She phoned today and said that I was in a "no man's land" as I'm not on a therapeutic dose of anything - I don't increase the Sertraline to 100mg till next Monday. She says it will be the end of the month before we will know whether this change is beneficial. Seems like a lifetime and I can't remember feeling so bad for a long time.

Sorry can't reach out to others - but thinking of everyone.

Snowy silvery nethun lollipop CIQ collardove and anyone I've forgotten