On CIQ sorry to hear about your weekend, it does sound pretty ghastly but that revelation that your DH came out with on Sat night was awful for you. I wonder why he decided to tell you - ok it was deceitful but he'd kept it up for so long, you would have been none the wiser. I can well understand why you felt shocked and I imagine angry and upset. I don't think you were over reacting, a reaction is a reaction isn't it -sometimes it's big, sometimes slight, it depends on what we are reacting to, so I always think the term "over reaction" doesn't really mean anything. I suppose over time and when the shock has worn off you might see it slightly differently. I think painful things often do "shrink" over time into something more manageable.
I don't know too much about your past to be honest and hadn't realised your DH had suffered a severe depression, but presumably has recovered? I think you have dep/anx (?) but are up and down with it (is that right) and do you think it's related to your DH's depression.
I know you've been saying for a long time that things weren't right between you and DH and I understand that you don't want to break up your family. It's a tough one isn't it because sometimes staying together for the sake of the kids isn't always the right decision, but it's also tough to think of splitting up. Do you think counselling (for the two of you) might help. I think Relate do it at reasonable cost.
TUL I'm sorry but almost every time you post I wonder why you are so dominated by your DH - he seems to blame you for things that aren't your fault, and I wonder if you just can't/won't stand up to him. Re the leg - do you mean you will have to ask DH IF you can go to see the GP, and ask if he will watch the children - his children. Are you in another country? I think you get good support from your In-Laws don't you - it certainly sounds like you need some support.
Snowy hope you can tell your CPN tomorrow how things really are - the tiredness (which I assume is a side effect of the meds) doesn't seem to be letting up does it. Is there an alternative drug you could try I wonder.
Collardove - you mentioned worrying about whether you were fit for work and I do tend to forget that you young women/mothers mostly have jobs as well as batting with mental health issues. Is it a stressful job, or something you enjoy when you feel well enough.
Silverypussycat are you out there? We're all wondering about you.
Sorry I can't remember anything else but sending good wishes. I've been fairly flat all day - started the new meds today, so time will tell.