"Summer is Coming, the Village is warm and safe - support for depression, anxiety and other MH issues"

[LollipopViolet]

New thread, everyone :) First attempt at a thread title for us.

I've just posted on the old one, am really struggling today. Was feeling numb, still do, to be honest. Need to get myself through today.

Hi everyone.

Yes Snowy I went back to bed and felt the better for it. How has your afternoon been?

DS knocked on the door just after 2pm to say my friend was on the drive waiting for me!

Completely slipped my mind she was taking me to the garden centre!

Thought about coming downstairs and saying that not feeling to good, but instead I got changed and went.

It actually did me some good. Just walking amongst all the lovely flowers and choosing a few for my garden actually lifted my mood. Followed by a latte and a half dipped choc shortbread biscuit, this afternoon the world seems a slightly better place...

Glad you are feeling better today also NanaNina!

Hi to Twosacrowd. This is such a supportive thread :). And to Vicar and TUL who were on the thread long before I joined.

DumDum, Lem, Nethuns, lollipop - Hugs to you.

I hope CIQ is having a nice weekend away. Anyone else I have forgotten to mention, I hope you are all having an ok day x

In honesty I'm struggling I hope tomorrow is a better day for everyone.

Well done on making it to the garden centre, collardove

Thinking of everyone.

Sorry that you are struggling Snowy again today :( it has been a real downer of a week for so many of us...

A friend of mine has also been in a bad place for some time. She sent me a lovely picture through on my phone of a lotus flower in the ground.

She was explaining to me how she finds it symbolic, that such a beautiful flower grows through the murkiest of thick mud...

I have just set it as the wallpaper on my phone x

Just dropping by to way a quick hello.

I'm really struggling at the moment with the new drug citalopram (nausea, headache & dizziness). But haven't got time for any of it as we've had to move out of our present home to a new place it's all happening so quick so for the last 2 days I've just been packing everything. We have to move by Monday!

On the plus side the new place will have a garden for DD to play in & there will be plenty of space so no more of all
My family sitting on each other's head.

I may disappear for a few weeks as will not have access to the internet but will be thinking of u all xxx

Just dropping by to way a quick hello.

I'm really struggling at the moment with the new drug citalopram (nausea, headache & dizziness). But haven't got time for any of it as we've had to move out of our present home to a new place it's all happening so quick so for the last 2 days I've just been packing everything. We have to move by Monday!

On the plus side the new place will have a garden for DD to play in & there will be plenty of space so no more of all
My family sitting on each other's head.

I may disappear for a few weeks as will not have access to the internet but will be thinking of u all xxx

Wow DD32! Good luck with the move, build in some being nice to yourself time.

Hope the move goes well for you and your family DumDum :)

Perhaps the upheaval and then the settling in will distract your adaptation to your new meds a little. Wish you well x

Hope the move goes well DD32 and that the side effects ease soon :)

I've been... you know what? I've been great. Today I spent time in the sunshine with some lovely people, and their children, and enjoyed a lovely walk.

Had a lovely chat at friendship group on Tuesday - I've decided not to pursue any official diagnosis, because a) I don't want nor need another label as such, b) my PCT seems quite quick to prescribe anti-depressants which I don't feel I need as such, just help to learn how to deal better with the down days and c) with wanting to work in childcare, I worry how a diagnosis that I'd have to declare if asked, would affect my job prospects.

In other news, I was told on Thursday I'd be phoned by someone on Friday, to arrange a job interview for Tuesday morning. Still no phone call. I have a horrible feeling they've changed their mind re: interviewing me.

Feeling a bit disheartened but, I've got more reasons to be happy and that's not going to bring me down, I've decided.

Hi all, just briefly saying hi as been ill since yesterday pm with migraine or bug, still in bed, couldn't get head off pillow, sick, etc feeling dreadful
Hugs to all of you, catch up once I'm better xxx

I hope you feel better soon, nethunsreject sounds awful!

You sound like you're really moving forwards, LollipopViolet - I hope they do phone you.

(((( All ))))

That sounds awful nethuns, hope you feel better soon.

I'm feeling odd, this morning I couldn't get going. I had to do everything in steps. 1) Walk to the bathroom. 2) Take off clothes. 3) Turn on shower. 4) Get in shower. 5) Put shampoo on. 6) Wash self.

DH took DS out which made me feel guilty for not being available, and now they're playing in the garden, and I'm trying to get involved but just feeling distanced.

I'm really riled by that stupid poster in AIBU saying that MH means bad parenting. Weekends I give over to DH but during the week I do my absolute hardest to be there for DS.

(((( twosacrowd )))) you can only do what you can do. I try to stay away from aibu when I'm feeling vulnerable, but I know that's hard to do. . I hope everyone has a good day.

Dumdum - im so pleased about the garden, it does make such a difference being able to get outside, even if its just to sit there and have a cup of tea! Good luck with the move - we will be thinking of you x

Collared - i love a good garden centre visit! not that i garden much - it is nice to wander among the flowers, even nicer i think when you don't actually need anything, biscuit and coffee sound good too - I have, since becoming depressed or more so, fighting it, learnt to take pleasure in the little things - i think its so easy to forget with the stresses and strains of life in general to forget that actually, sitting in the sun with a cup of tea is a lovely thing to do.

Nethuns - so sorry to hear about the migraine - i wonder if its the weather, i had been in such a fugg all week and pounding head and i think it was the weather, cloudy and close - since the sun came out yesterday ive felt better. I hope you feel better soon.

Snowy - sorry you are struggling ((hugs))

Lolliopop - its nice to read an upbeat post there, well done

Twosacrowd Welcome to the village, i hope you find a safe place to get support here. We all have different "issues" as it were, no one judges and it just feels like a place where we can say what we feel and know we wont offend or invite judgement. I think i know what thread you mean, about the girl not allowed on the sleepover?? I can't believe its still chuntering on - the OP on that thread was an idiot of the first order, a few people tried to put her straight about things but her responses were unpleasant, it almost felt like she was going out of her way to show what a resilient "stuff and nonesense" woman she was, when actually she just showed herself to be not very nice and lacking empathy. I posted a few times but gave up. Yes, my MH has impacted on my family but i do my best to avoid that and my DD is a happy little girl as well as being a spoilt little madam. Having anxiety does not make me a bad parent and idiots like that aren't worth the effort, they really aren't - they wear their ignorance like a badge of honour - i feel sorry for them really - (can you tell i took issue with that tread too!). I find that when my anxiety is high, like you, i have to take things one step at a time, i have to sometimes tell myself what to do so, "right, now pick up those clothes and put them in the washing basket" "ok good, now take it down and put it in the washing machine" I actually say those things out loud - if im anxious i have to wash up by hand because loading the dishwasher confuses the hell out of me! Its ok though, because i can do really techy stuff too - its just the simple things that flummox me :)

Thesilverypussycat where/how are you - not seen you on the thread for a while and i know you were having a hard time?? anyone seen her?

Hugs to all - ciq, lolli, nana, hoochy, dumdum, snowy, nethuns, TUL (you really need to change your name!), collaredove, and anyone my ditzy brain has forgot xx

I was thinking of silvery too, I hope she's ok...

Just popping by to wish everyone a good week. Night all.

Hope everyone has got on OK this weekend, and those who have been ill feel well soon.

has been an off weekend of having to make plans and be pinned down about doing things like driving the DCs a long way home late at night. I really don't want to, but would be letting everyone down if I don't, and look like I'm being difficult if I don't. Best I can think of is insisting I leave early so I am home before dark, but even that won't go down well. :(

Hello everyone - nice sunny and warm day here so sat in the garden all afternoon and best of all my headmonster has finally worn himself out. Tomorrow I start on my new regime of more reduction of imipramine but introducing sertraline over the next 3 weeks, so have no idea how things will pan out.....feel anxious about it.

Welcome twosacrowd - nice to "see you" Lem - always an interesting post. How's the health anxiety by the way - possibly subsiding a little bit...........?
Hope the move goes well DumDum and I can't help but think it will be a major ordeal for you, and coping with new meds at the same time, though the end result sounds good. Sometimes I have difficulty moving from my bedroom to the bathroom, so moving house would just not be possible. I salute you!

Glad you managed the garden centre collardove - there is one near here that has cakes to die for (I kid you not) and the café which is really quite big is always packed no matter when you go. I must admit it's the coffee and cake bit I like, I'm not much of a gardener though did do some cutting/hacking back in the garden yesterday.

Hope you get well soon nethuns
snowy are you a bit better today I wonder....
And yes I've been wondering about the silverypussycat too - hope she's ok as she'd had a rough time of things last time she posted. If you're reading this silvery drop by if you can.

Someone mentioned something on AIBU and I never go on there - in fact I don't go on many sites, adoption (sometimes) and fostering and mental health and that's about it really, though if I'm bored I go on "last hour" or "last day" but don't always post. Oh and I go on legal sometimes and "In the news"

Do others go on many other threads - if so what do you recommend.

Hi all!

Nice to see you vicar, glad life is going much better.

SOrry, I'm about to vent!

Sitting on the sofa this morning nursing after effects of bloody terrifying migraine. Just a bit tender and wobbly/shakey today, felt like I'd been run over by a bus yesterday! Feel knackered so doing as little as possible. It was an awful weekend with all of us ill to varying degrees. Hopefully feel 'normal' (for me, ha!) tomorrow again. Feel really really down and crappy.

I only get migraines every few years and not that badly. Last one was over 10 years ago, also during a depressive episode. I'm not surprised I got one on Firday: I was feeling utterly overwhelmed then poor dh came home from work feeling ill (bad cold) and I just wanted to run away! I just needed to be alone for a while and not to be required to care for someone else!

All the shit with ds having ADHD (?) was just too much.

Apologies for self centred ranting! Much hugs to all xx

nethun I used to suffer migraines and finally found out about the Triptan drugs (there are a few different ones, naratriptan, sumatriptan (brand name Imigram) but they all work in the same way. They aren't pain killers as such but they reduce the swelling in the membranes around the brain that causes the pain of migraine. People think it's just a headache but it is actually a neurological condition. GPs don't like telling sufferers about the triptans because they are expensive, but they changed my life. I took naratriptan and could be pain free in 2 hours. You can buy Imigram over the counter but £7.50 for 2 tabs but might be a good idea to keep some by you.....just in case.

Ah well my brief respite over the weekend has ended and I'm crap(ish) to day though not so bad as some days. I took 50mg sertraline this morning and no side effects - yet.

How's everyone else doing?

(((( nethuns )))) I've never had a migraine, it sounds terrible I hope you feel better soon.

I sometimes look at chat.

I'm struggling today, I was going to tell my CPN but she's cancelled today.

Hi everyone.

I am struggling today also :( I had a couple of ok days, then even despite the sunshine yesterday I could feel a real change in my mood, and there was nothing I could do to pick myself up.

Maybe it's the anxiety now building up to whether I feel able to return back to work later on in the week.

After my good days on Friday and Saturday I thought yes I think I am ready, but yesterday I felt so anxious and unsure.

I certainly have not slept for 2 nights now. Am seeing my GP on Wednesday, so will see what happens...

I am sad for your awful migraine Nethuns :( I get the occasional one, nothing like I used to. They used to be every few weeks, then when I eventually had a troublesome big tooth removed they as good as ceased. Never sure whether that was a link to mine. Hope your head clears soon.

Snowy - sorry that you are struggling today also and that your CPN had to cancel on you. I cannot find much to distract myself today from my thoughts. Even TV is dire today...

NanaNina - I hope your change in your meds goes ok for you. I read your post from last night, and you sounded as though you had a change for the better having sat in your garden. With the headmonster doing a disappearing act. So I hope your mood lifts throughout the rest of the day.

LollipopViolet - I have been thinking of you. Did you get that call?

Lem - hope your day is going ok

CIQ - how was your weekend away?

Twosacrowd YeGodsAndLittleFishes and anyone else I may of neglected to mention hope you are all having a good day today x

Make sure you tell your GP everything, collardove - sometimes taking a list helps. Not sleeping is a danger sign for many people.

I'm a bit at the dentist, I've lost a filling (needs replacement), if I'd wanted to see my dentist it would have been mid-July, any dentist (which I opted for) was the end of June.
I'm trying not to go back to bed

I really want to go back to bed

Snowy :) did you resist the call of your bed?? I am afraid that's where I headed to very shortly after I posted!

I have never met a person yet who doesn't baulk at having to go to the dentist! It has cost me a small fortune in the past year. I was wearing away my teeth due to two years of clenching and grinding them in the night. I have to have a mouthguard in every night :(

Yes perhaps I should note a few things before I go to my GP.

I do tend to leave there and then think of things I should of said...