Moving forward day by day [crisis team part two ]

[bassetfeet]

Hi Fluffy just calling in to wish you a lovely peaceful sleep x

[bassetfeet]

How are you feeling Fluffy ?

[fluffydressinggown]

I am ok, not self harmed in the past week or so and spent time with friends which was nice. Trying hard to ignore my darker thoughts.

[bassetfeet]

So pleased to read this Fluffy . keep safe and distract as much as you can bear . x

[SnowyMouse]

That's great news fluffy You can do it!

[kizzie]

Hi Fluffy

[fluffydressinggown]

I saw my CPN today and came away feeling really meh. I feel like I should be actively doing some therapy with her and I am not really. Just feel unsettled.

Having a chinese take away for tea tonight :)

[SnowyMouse]

I don't always do therapeutic stuff with my CPN, sometimes just chatting is enough.

Enjoy the takeaway

[fluffydressinggown]

I feel weird, hard to explain, finding it hard to sleep and generally feel a bit pre-occupied :(

[SnowyMouse]

(((( fluffy ))))

Sleep is so important when you have a MH problem. How are you feeling about Christmas?

[fluffydressinggown]

I am nervous about Christmas but it should be ok. My husband is off work over Christmas so I have him to support me. Spending Christmas itself with family which I hope is not too stressful.

[SnowyMouse]

I hope it's not too stressful for you. I'm only spending a couple of days with family.

[fluffydressinggown]

I don't know what I want to say really. I feel like I am not allowed to be poorly again, even when I feel crap, like I have pushed the limit with how crap I felt and now njo matter what i say it isn't taken seriously.

My husband is around over Christmas so I will be safe.

I start DBT in the new year as well.

[TheSparklyPussycat]

fluffy I suspect your health care professions do take you seriously, just as we here on this thread do. However, at the moment they probably are prioritising you being safe, not making you feel better. The meds and the DBT when it starts will help with you getting and feeling better. Meanwhile, you, your DH, us, and your mh team if you need them, will all work to support you till you can begin that therapy. Stay safe, lovely. x

[bassetfeet]

Hi Fluffy ..Silvery Pussycat says it so well. Illness always seems to reach a plateau time where nothing happens forward or backward .
Just static and confusing . So depressing .

I love mountains Fluffy and use the Himalayan approach to my illness.
Set up base camp at the foot of the mountain . Then make way up the hill with my supplies. Make a safe place then go back down to gather strength . Next time I climb higher because of supplies on camp one and make further progress. Back and forth with all the experience and all I have learned before .
BAD STORM . so I retreat back to base camp and feel useless and exhausted.
Set off again with all I have learned. Tiny plodding steps will get us there Fluffy to the summit . You are doing just fine . Walk with us . x

[SnowyMouse]

(((( fluffy )))) People say good things about DBT, I'm glad you're starting it.

[fluffydressinggown]

Thank you for your kind comments.

I think my medication is pretty sorted these days, I take risperidone and fluxoetine which seem to help keep my mind clearer. I certainly don't hear / believe things in the same way I did at the beginning of the year.

I just wish I felt more positive. I am not looking forward to DBT at all. Ugh.

[bassetfeet]

Hi Fluffy. Just want to wish you a peaceful calm and lovely Christmas with your DH and family. x

[TheSparklyPussycat]

Adding my wishes for a good Christmas. Take care, lovely fluffy.

[SnowyMouse]

Have a good Christmas fluffy

[fluffydressinggown]

Well I am at my in laws, feeling ok. Bit up and down but my dh is here to keep me going. Trying to take each moment at a time and not let my worries take over.

I hope we all have a merry, peaceful Christmas x

[FreezingFingers]

Merry Christmas Fluffy and everyone
Hope you all have a peaceful day

[bassetfeet]

Merry Christmas FreezingFingers. Hope you are enjoying the day and feeling well.x

[FreezingFingers]

Thanks Basset
At home snuggling my doggies and been keeping very busy & out of trouble & temptation ........ so far

[kizzie]

Merry Christmas fluffy

[SnowyMouse]

How are things fluffy? I've been thinking of you.