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My Friends... theres no need to feel down
i said My Friends..Pick yourself off the ground
i said My Friends, cause youre in a new town
theres no need to be unhappy....

Our new thread folks (number 5!!).....i need to dash as im on nights but i will be back!
love to all. xxx

Comments such as "You know what happens if you don't work with us..." I've got an appointment with dr now on Friday, but I really can't, I might ask if i can have a phone call instead because:

i. Dr can tell what I'm thinking if we're in the same room, it doesn't feel safe.

ii. Dr had said that she would never section me, but then she did. Feels unsafe.

iii. I'd like to give things a go a little longer, I already had a dr appointment at the end of July.

I'm going to leave it a bit in case there are more reasons.

spc hope the mowing went ok. I ended up strimming which altho v hard work is actually rather therapeutic!

snowy was this appt set up by your cpn then? I know its hard but ultimately they are trying to help. Can you tell gp what you wrote here about leaving things a bit longer? Take care x

Loving the sun...

It's the psychiatrist I meant by dr. Psych goes on a few weeks leave soon, and I really don't want to see her.

I'm hoping it doesn't get too sticky, I'm not a fan of the heat.

Congrats on getting the strimming done.

I don't want to spam the board, but this emphasis on a face-to-face appointment with my psychiatrist is worrying. I've heard her on the topic of people who don't go to their appointments, so I don't not want to go, but I really can't be in a room with her.

((( snowy ))) Co-operate with them, go along, don't over think it. It will be ok. They want to keep you safe and cover their own a**es

I feel emotional, and as if life is out of control. But it's been busy, and I'm so hungry all the time, putting back that weight i lost...trying not to let it bother me too much

Love to everyone

gosh it's a day for sitting outside in our pub with a long cool glass of something, shooting the breeze with you lot ..wish it was real.

Well I left the front lawn half mowed last night. When I went out to complete it this afternoon, next door neighbour had finished it . Have mowed the back lawn myself though. Actually lawns are so crap and have a hand mower, that I need to go over it with a strimmer to get the wirier stalks and weeds cut.

snowy to be frank, I am a bit worried about you worrying that your psych knows what you are thinking. I hope you don't mean telepathy, just that she is good at people?

If you are thinking about doing something drastic, then that is a symptom, and she should really know about it. It is also the case that if she thinks you are in danger from yourself, then she has a duty to section you She should also be aware that thinking about it (suicidal ideation) is different from being suicidal.

Sending warmest wishes.

Snowy don't cancel that appointment, just go. Is that next Friday? Can someone go with you? Like Vicar says, forget about it until it actually is the day.

Are you getting more unwell?

Also, no-one can say that they would never section you, it just depends on that moment in time when you are being assessed, it is to keep you or others safe, and it's to make sure you get the treatment you need to get you better.

Work with them, they are on your side Snowy, and they sound worried about you.

Thanks, (((hoochymama1))) too. I'm not suicidal, not at all. My psych does know what I'm thinking without me saying. Thanks SPC

Hmm, at least it's the weekend now.

It is next Friday, I'm better off going by myself, not many friends locally during work hours.

I don't think I'm getting more unwell, as I said, I'm not suicidal.

my counsellor shared this poem with me today, i like it and i dont know it if it will help anyone here, but i thought id share too

It Couldn?t Be Done
By Edgar Albert Guest

Somebody said that it couldn?t be done
But he with a chuckle replied
That ?maybe it couldn?t,? but he would be one
Who wouldn?t say so till he?d tried.
So he buckled right in with the trace of a grin
On his face. If he worried he hid it.
He started to sing as he tackled the thing
That couldn?t be done, and he did it!

Somebody scoffed: ?Oh, you?ll never do that;
At least no one ever has done it;?
But he took off his coat and he took off his hat
And the first thing we knew he?d begun it.
With a lift of his chin and a bit of a grin,
Without any doubting or quiddit,
He started to sing as he tackled the thing
That couldn?t be done, and he did it.

There are thousands to tell you it cannot be done,
There are thousands to prophesy failure,
There are thousands to point out to you one by one,
The dangers that wait to assail you.
But just buckle in with a bit of a grin,
Just take off your coat and go to it;
Just start in to sing as you tackle the thing
That ?cannot be done,? and you?ll do it.

And thats the thing guys WE CAN DO IT!!!

Hoochy, i wish the pub was real too! I could really do with a lazy evening, although i do have that i probably shouldn't be drinking due to my hayfever meds i ignore the ADs, id go mad if i didnt get to have a nice bottle of wine now and again

Snowy I understand where you are coming from re the mind reading psych. My counseller is very good, in fact she is the best one I have had so far - but she sees straight through me and its almost like she reads my mind sometimes. Of course she isn't doing that, she is just experienced and picking up on my emotions and body language. Its what she is trained to do. A psychiatrist is obviously going to be even more in tune with things. Its disconcerting and it does make me uncomfortable. When i am feeling positive i read it as empathy but do feel a bit intimidated at times. I guess it woudnt be working if it wasn't making me uncomfortable.

You do need to play the game though - keep them happy, they really are there to support you and whilst you pitching up to appointments is difficult for you, it is one of the criteria they have to measure if you are OK just now. The reason for that, ironically, is because they can't actually read your mind and so when you tell them you are ok, even though you are, they don't really know this so they have boxes they have to tick to keep you safe. I am sure you want to keep yourself safe and as you say, you know you are ok. I know its intrusive but just get it over and done with, try not to over think it and move on with your week. All your friends here are standing by you and there is a warm welcome in the village pub.

You most certainly are not spamming the thread! i worry that i do that, because i get a lot of comfort from posting on here and it means so much that folk are reading who "get me" Thats what these threads were started for. It actually pleases me that you feel you can post your thoughts and feelings on here as you are so supportive of everyone else its good to be able to return the favour.

A real pub would be nice

Thanks for your kind words, LEM You are right about the appointment looking at it from that perspective - I think I will still ask if it could be a phone call just in case.

I need to unwind for the weekend now.

I hope tomorrow is better, feeling shaken up here.

The weather is meant to be good here - there is the parish fete - DP is hoping to get some cheap tools (last year he got a fantastic bargain - a £200 plane for £1 - he felt guilty and gave them £20 but was still chuffed to bits - i think he is hoping for a re run) Im just keen to see wht the priest wins in the raffle, last year he won a "sex in the city" bathroom set - and he bloody kept it, so funny! So hopefully just a moochy day tomorrow - DP is being a bit of a stress pig but im not biting. God almighty! ive just read that back - man, ive changed - lol, from wild child to parish fetes :-) ha!

Hi all, pub sounds lovely. please.

lem re fete - I know what you mean! Have a lovely day. Oh and great poem!

snowy hang in there, turn up fri, let them see you are coping. But try not to worry about it now.

spc re your neighbour mowing for you! But you did the back instead great. I have strimmed the wilderness at the bottom of the garden and other bits - knackered now but with a good sense of achievement.

hoochy any chance to put your feet up this weekend?

I have my belated birthday tomorrow and surprises from dh so will let you know!

Take care x

Happy Birthday Ciq

i am so sorry folks that im not keeping up to speed on everyones stories but just need to say to ed - you have a cooling off period during which you can cancel the insurance if you had no claims - tomorrow ring direct line and get on confused.com.....get a better quote - secure it - cancel other policy and then ring back and take better quote.
cancel yours first to ensure you can - you will have a ref number with either direct line or confused.com - when you know you can cancel your existing policy do just that and then simply phone the best quote you were given and quote the ref number - its simple.

i have just got home - it was my DDs prom tonight and i have to say she looked absolutely beautiful. She is so stunning and whats more lovely is she hasnt a flipping clue....she wore a simple strapless lilac dress with a split up the front a la angelina jolie stylee....she had her waist length hair curled into loose waves, she wore silver shoes which made her 5ft 7 frame over 6ft and she is a size 8.....she looked absolutely stunning and so natural - no false nails or eyelashes - just her natural beauty shining through. She is truly quite simply breathtaking. i feel so blessed with my kids - we have had our ups and downs with DS, DD has been easy, she is so incredibly adult in her thinking.

i am one proud proud parent tonight. Her boyfriend came to see her off to prom....he is an alround good egg too - they are so alike.

she is now at an after prom party. DH and i went out for dinner so i wouldnt worry all night! she has text several times though and i trust her implicitly.

I'm still here...had a really bad couple of days midweek but seem to be picking up a bit. think maybe it may have been increase in anxiety due to increasing citalopram...but feel it may be helping now.
will try to catch up properly later...but have busy weekend planned which is good.
hugs to all who need them.

Oh, you poor little thing ((( UA ))). It's easy to think on days like these that everyone else is having a good time but that's not damn true.

It's just that we get quite low very easily for no good reason.

Make yourself have some nice treats paint yr toenails? Have a nice icecream ? Or as I did yesterday a little bit a whole bar of toblerone Sit out on the step and tan your legs?

Nice poem, LEM, you are very inspiring to me.

Happy birthday Ciq my DH's b'day today too, we just went out to a country pub for a sandwich, it was nice.

Love to you bobbly and the lovely snowy

Vicar your daughter sounds delightful. Mine just went out of the door wearing an extremely short skirt-eek. I found myself uttering those words, are you going out wearing that? And she gave me a withering look

Hugs UA LEM CiQ vicar hoochymama1 bobbly

i feel rubbish, too warm to go back to bed though

I think the heat is getting on top of me alongside everything else.

Enjoy your dinner, UA ! I'm glad the fete went well.

Good night all, hope it's not too sticky to sleep.