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[ThatVikRinA22]

My Friends... theres no need to feel down
i said My Friends..Pick yourself off the ground
i said My Friends, cause youre in a new town
theres no need to be unhappy....

Our new thread folks (number 5!!).....i need to dash as im on nights but i will be back!
love to all. xxx

evening all

thanks for the advice re standing order - think i will suggest that to ensure i get it back.....£1500! that would have got us a lovely holiday (sob)

funny old day today.
i bumped into the pal that i used to adore and who fell out with me 15 years ago.....really odd but it was lovely, we just chatted and caught up - she is actually my DDs godmum - it was all very sad at the time but it was lovely to see her today. We have added each other on facebook so we may manage a catch up again.

I was in the changing room with DD in a shop, DD was trying on a maxi dress, (she looked absolutely beautiful - size 6, 5ft 7, willowy and just perfect, she is so beautiful) and her godmother who she hasnt ever met was in the same changing rooms....(well - she met but she was 8 months old when we fell out) her mouth nearly hit the floor when she saw dd.....

my 'ex' friend is a granny now....but hasnt aged at all. we had a lovely catch up and put our past differences behind us, which was really really lovely.

i would love to think we could pick up again from where we left off but i hope thats not being too optimistic - she was very shocked when she asked what i was doing these days (back in the day, she kind of "mothered" me but treated my like i was slightly incapable, so i think my present job came as a shock!) but it was genuinely lovely to see her and i am hoping that we may see each other again. She is a lovely person and was my rock when my DS was ill and in hospital for all those weeks....i grieved for that friendship horribly when it hit the rocks.

funny old world really - i havent seen her in 15 years despite living in the same town.

DS is posting pics on facebook of his new found pals through his house share - he seems really happy. one is german, one is from the netherlands, one is from spain....they are really accepting of him and he seems happy.

im really looking forward to seeing hm though at the end of july. Im going to book the spa break for DD and me for August i cant wait. it will just be fantastic to relax. i dont think ive ever relaxed, and now i feel like im in the right head space to truly enjoy it.

i hope everyone else is good tonight. and welcome to jesus!

(jesus - put a good word in with your dad will you?!)

bobbly blundering through it is all that is required...at times kids and basic hygiene were all I could manage, just about.

Have I misremembered or did you say something about your relationship not being brilliant somewhere up thread. Sorry if I've got it wrong.

Just saying hello as requested.

My days fall into 2 categories atm

1. Motivated. Confident. Busy. No magnet pulling me back to bed even though I may be tired. I don't keep up with MN cos I am busy trying to make the most of my motivation.

1. Empty. Nothing will get me out of bed. I sleep. But it isn't the same as when I used to experience a 'crash day'. I don't keep up with mn cos I am asleep.

There is no inbetween.

Yesterday was a motivated day.
Today is a bed day.

Tomorrow I am seeing my tutor.

((Hugs)) ED rest up today no pressure to post sorry xx

hayfever seems under control not sure if due to lower pollen count or meds anyway going daaan to margate to see dd. Anxiety = v.high as waiting gor train ugghhh

Don't be sorry.

I just feel awkward when I am just posting about me me me.

(((( ED )))) Thinking of you for tomorrow.

If there is anywhere you can do that Ed its on this thread xx

Hi all,

spc lovely to hear about your June and trip with bloke

vicar great to hear about your reconnection with friend. Your dd sounds beautiful.

lem hope you have a lovely day with dd.

Hi ed glad you had a good day yest. All the best tomorrow.

Pretty bleurh today. Struggled to get up, but went to counselling which was ok. Despite eating a load of choc and sweets last night, got cake from bakers but did do long walk home. Came home todied and dusted my and dc bedroom and put a load of washing in. Bedroom did look better but wish I didnt feel so lethargic and uninspired. Hey ho.

I really want to go back to bed, trying not to.

Snowy, can you go for a walk? To to co-op? more fruit and mints? A magazine? Or you know what, go to bed, don't beat yourself up about it - go and have a rest! I would love to go to bed actually but can't at the moment. Im not very good at laying in bed, which is frustrating as i often wish i could, i just lay there for about ten minutes get agitated and have to get up.

DD1 was quiet and grumpy (nothing unusual there then) and i was a bit quiet too - these hayfever meds, miraculous though they are, have pretty much knocked me for six!

CiQ sorry you are feeling bleugh!

Ed - good luck for tomorrow - i know you probably don't want to thik about it just now but it might be an idea to write down things that you want to ensure that you cover in the meeting. I always forget stuff so try and write things down if I can xx

Thanks LEM, I just got some fruit and a sandwich. I think part of it is CPN coming tomorrow at a time when I would nap normally, and I don't want to see her.

I'm happy your hayfever meds are working

Hi lem sorry to hear the Hayfever meds are knocking you out so much - no fun.
snowy did you manage to stay out of bed?

My ds has a friend round and I am struggling. They are both being v cheeky and friend is encouraging ds to be naughty and rude and I know I shouldn't take it personally but I'm struggling to be the jolly mum who bats back the silly comments all the time. Praying dh manages to get home for 6 (not 7 as is poss).

How's everyone else doing today?

Sorry you're struggling (((( CIQ )))) :(

I stayed up in the end, I don't want a sleepless night. Really dreading tomorrow now.

Thanks snowy well done for managing to stay up - I know what you mean about sleeping at night.

No news from dh so not looking promising

if anyone feels they can help I would be grateful

never - glad to see you got sorted and made a decision. hope you are feeling a bit better now?

ed - im a bit in a similar frame of mind - also not keeping up here. Im back to work tomorrow - it comes around so fast, but im feeling better dropping a day.

busy day today - had hair done with dd, have arranged to meet up with my hairdresser for a natter and a meal - she is lovely and also a little in the same boat...

i had a follow up appt for my hernia today and have been listed for surgery.
have to go into hospital for a 24 hour ph test first but light at the end of the tunnel where the hernia and stomach probs are concerned.

am going to go for a quick dip in the bath now with the rattys....

it occurred to me today that if i ever had a birthday party absolutely NONE of my friends would know each other - i seem to scatter gun friendships....i guess thats why im no good at cliques. (work wise or otherwise) but am trying to see this as a positive thing - my counsellor said its because i get on with a very wide variety of people (which she sees as a positive) so im trying to also.

right. that bath awaits. i cant have a glass of wine as i have to collect dd from her boyfriends at 9....

Bath sounds lovely I hope you don't have to wait too long for the op.

CIQ, have you survived the small people?

12 hours til I see my CPN

Good night all.

Night snowy.

Yes did survive - but have just woken and got up dh made it home at 6.30, I was v tired by 7 so lay down and next thing I know its 9... still feeling a bit wobbly but kids are asleep and dh is out - have forgotten where - so its peaceful.

a bad day, struggled to get up but made it to DD's school on time. just. had a thumping headache for days now, been taking neurofen but aint doing nothing im going to bed with a head ache - waking up with headache.

feeling nauseous, seeing food is making me feel sick. another blur day!

to round my evening off kids been arguing and DD screaming/crying... my ears were ringing, head banging, mind whirling!!! i screamed back at DD to SHUT UP! im losing control felt like walking out the front door.

im taking my fluoxetine, why am i feeling so bad? dont know what to do? and ive got to do it all again tomorrow

having a bad night here.

im meant to be up early for work and i have a poorly pet - am sat waiting for the vet to call me back as they are already on another call out.

ive text manager asking if there is any way i can take tomorrow as an annual leave day. im going to be A) knackered and B) if the vet says wait until tomorrow im going to have to go in the morning but i darent go to sleep in case i miss the call back, plus i cant leave an animal suffering all day. buggeration. i wont know if i can get tomorrow off until tomorrow....

and ive got to tell them ive been listed for surgery. im going to be mrs popular again. not.

i have a headache. i realised i had missed 2 days meds earlier which could account for headache/nausea. ive taken todays now.

wish vet would call so i can go to sleep.

sorry you had a bad night, hope your pet gets seen to soon. then maybe catch up on some rest during the day if they give you time off?

sometimes i wonder why i have my pets, they can seem to add stress to my already stressed days?! but when im out walking my dog - getting fresh air i realise i need him.

Sounds peaceful CIQ I hope the vet did call you without too much of a wait, vicar

I feel shattered, apparently I look shattered too. I wish CPN was less abrasive, but never mind. She likes to emphasise that she is in control (e.g. "'m not changing the plan, I just want to know if you feel intruded upon"). I have to email her tomorrow, then she's coming out Friday. I'm doubling my temazepam. I might try and grab an hour's nap this afternoon, after groceries between 11-12, these between 12-4.

enjoy your nap snowy

my vet never did call me back - apparently there was a mix up with the phones or something.

i waited up until 2.30 this morning with a very poorly rat. (dont laugh - for some reason i am hugely attached to the old boy despite not having him for long - he is so amazingly affectionate and expressive)

anyway - i got him in at 9am and he is on antibiotics and having a rest away from the other boys so he can get some peace. I think maybe he has been bitten. He is dragging a very swollen and sore looking back leg around

its a flipping good job he is still here - i would have been hopping mad if the phone mix up had led to his demise....

ive managed to get today off work, im now fighting the urge to go back to bed as im up early tomorrow so should try to get an early night - if i go an lay down now i will blow it.

house is a tip....should tackle it really.