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[ThatVikRinA22]

My Friends... theres no need to feel down
i said My Friends..Pick yourself off the ground
i said My Friends, cause youre in a new town
theres no need to be unhappy....

Our new thread folks (number 5!!).....i need to dash as im on nights but i will be back!
love to all. xxx

I am sat here with a lovely glass of ....................tonic water!! its actually quite nice.

More than welcome to join hurryup What has brought about the latest downslide? anything in particular?

Hi hurryup welcome - this is a lovely supportive thread. Sorry to hear you've had such a tough time and feeling worse lately. I also suffer from dep/anx, on fluoxetine, trazodone and counselling. Feel free to share as much or as little as you like.

lem well done on the tonic. I am resisting the bottle - just.

CiQ, its only because i drank all the wine sunday night!

Thank you, am falling apart as have to go to court over financial settlement for divorce. Ironic that it is on our wedding anniversary. 16 years ago I was so excited about spending rest of my life with him, now I'm dreading going to court to hear him justify why he thinks I deserve nothing from him other than what CSA say he has to, whilst he has 2 houses and spends shed loads a month (more than he gives me for kids) on meals out, clothes and winebars. Life is shit tonight and I would probably be better out of it but too much of a coward so here I am totally dependant on dp and stuck between the two of them.

How are things with your now DP, hurryup?

hurryup that sounds so tough. When is the court case?

Crap, he wants me to get everything I can from stbxh and stbxh wants to give me as little as possible. He left me I tears today at 8am and went to watch racing with friends. No contact until 3pm when he texted to ask how one of kids was getting on in competition. Feels like he just wanted a m for his 3 kids as their mum died and he is in late 50's. I have seriously fucked up my life. And now I'm just moaning on and on and haven't even noticed any other threads. It's just so nice to be with people that may have similar problems. I January I just lay in bed, drank and sobbed. I'm trying not to go back there but not looking good right now

5 july, 16 years to day of my wedding. Same he turned out to be abusive to me. Now he has new dp who kids love and he adores. Can't help thinking they'd be better of with them than here. His credit card statements arrived from solicitor and whereas I never even got card on valentines day, she got £150 of flowers.

He sounds like a piece of work. Would you consider going back to see your GP?

It does sound a little like out of the frying pan into the fire - does he work?

Sorry have to get to bed - shattered. hurryup I think you should look at how to get more stable and through court case - and gp may be able to help. Sorry brief

Take care all.

start. Exhausted stressed you name it. Weather forecast for sat is now heavy rain all day - so much for party in garden. Sorry bad start to thread today. Its only wed...

UA, that is bloody fantastic about the form - so what? err yeah, right - i don't remember a time when something like that wasn't a big deal for me - but actually i think to a degree, its a big deal for alot if not most people. But yes, i hear what you are saying, right now i can't even LOOK at job adverts/courses I wish i had your strength right now.

Not a good day for me either CiQ - didn't want to get out of bed, wish i could go back there but it never works for me - makes me worse. Really struggling, can't see the point of anything really - bad thoughts today.

Signing in on the bad day.

Had 2 naps yesterday. Very naughty.

Drs again today. ..blood results are back...

Not as sleepy today though at the moment. I think it has helped that I didn't come straight back to bed after school run.

I sat watching my gerbils. They are all awake and have such lovely characters.

Fudge is a burrower. Always digging. Fascinating to watch.
Lily loves her wheel. I don't think anyone else has been on it properly but lily does marathons on it in the evenings, only pausing for snacks and water. Fudge and lily are the most active (lily is an escape artist when we get them out for playtime). They are both getting quite tame and will happily approach hands in the cage/box.

Pepper is a hider. She loves hiding in the burrows fudge makes but is too lazy to make her own...this does not impress fudge. She is the most placid and easiest for tge dcs to handle, and if you can get her out of her burrow or tube she will sit and be stroked.

Pepper is quite shy and nervy. She is out and about quite happily but does a runner if anyone opens the cage. She has a beautiful glossy black coat.

Idle gossip goes a long way towards destraction...

Morning Ed - the gerbils sound like great fun x

What are we challenging each other to today then?

I'm putting washing away for a bit..

finish the next level of candy crush is about my limit today :( I really should take the dogs out

Lol!

I've said that every day for a week.

Seriously stuck on 350...right teeth brush...washing...drs...

Hi all. UA cocktails sounds fab. I quite like a raspberry - vodka-y one. And that is brilliant about your application - well done!

I need to find a way to try and reduce the stupid anxiety that is addling my brain, exhausting me and making me want to scream/cry in equal measure. Going for a walk with my dad at lunchtime should be good.

Weather for sat still looking sh*t. Was going to give DD a gold cross I was given as a child, but can't find it anywhere. Really worried I've accidentally given it away or something. Need to now find an indoor venue too I think... But am watching The Wright Stuff - feel paralysed.

lem if you take the dogs out I'll go for a walk!

Ed hope you get on ok at the docs.

350??? it goes THAT far? 158 here!

You are going for a walk anyway CiQ!! but fair enough, a friend has suggested i take them for a woodland walk - should not bump into anyone there! Watching the wright stuff is enough to paralyse anyone!

I was thinking about you last night where you said the anxiety just builds and builds - i remember my cbt therapist said something to me, "you never ACTUALLY explode and leave a mess everywhere" and then explained something i already knew - that the anxiety is a physical thing, that the amount of adrenalin, peaks then goes off, he drew a graph, like an upside down bell - showing the adrenalin getting higher and higher and then it goes down, because other hormones kick in to regulate it, it can't not happen like that - impossible. So if i feel my anxiety getting out of control, i try and picture that graph, it works sometimes

Right - this is a four HOUR walk, I need to leave by 11!! My dogs are going to LOVE me ( i dont actually want to do this, but am going to! - stubborn)

Ed - i hope docs goes ok and you get to the route of the problem.

FOUR HOURS?! wow. Take water... Good luck on your expedition. I have just found phone numbers for 5 local village halls, and hoping DH will
ring them as I can't face it!

Thanks re: graph. yes its the cortisol that kicks in after adrenalin to calm you down. However in cases of anxiety/lt stress it takes your body longer for the cortisol to work, by which time you may have had another adrenalin rush etc etc... according to what I've read. But will try and replace that scenario with yours!

Right loft next in search of gold!

morning, hope youre all ok. 1 hour walk sounds lovely but 4 hours? Thanks for all of your advice, I had pretty sleepless night but have gp appt this afternoon by some miracle so hopefully that will help..

Phew - just got back - that was some walk! just over three hours I am knackered and one of the dogs has the arse as he had to have a bath, he is now bedraggled looking at me resentfully. Enjoyed the walk and only saw a few bike riders, took myself off the beaten track to avoid other dog walkers - it was lovely, bit warm and sweaty though. Going to sit and do nothing for an hour now.

hurryup - it will help, not straight away, but it will help x

Ciq i hope you get a good walk too, although maybe not three hours long!

Ed - hope drs goes/went well.

Pooped i tell ya, pooped. Feel better? a bit