Mother and baby unit??

[martha2013]

Does anyone have any experience of such places? I'm 39+3 weeks pregnant with my very much planned and wanted second child. I have a diagnosis of bipolar and due to risks to baby have recently stopped my anti-psychotic. My psychiatrist thinks my mood is becoming high. I disagree. She is talking about mother and baby hospital after birth. I'm terrified and thinking of doing a runner!

[dontrunwithscissors]

Martha, I hope you're managing and that the earlier comment hasn't bothered you too much. (I would have also felt it to be rather insensitive.)

[Zingazonga]

What I ment was that op was very lucky to get to mother&baby unit. I don't think it was insensitive. Places in those are rare and what I have read they offer much more support than common wards.

[martha2013]

I'm not sure why but that comment was hard to read. I suppose I am lucky in many ways and I feel guilty that I don't appreciate what I have got.
Thanks for the advice on returning to work. Financially I have no option but to return. I work for a small company and I am the only female,I already take a lot of slack for having taken maternity leave!

My cpn has tried to refer me to the eating disorders team but they don't take on anyone unless there bmi is under 14. So if anything this has re-enforced the idea that I am too fat, haven't managed to consume anything today. I wish I could just disappear.

[working9while5]

Generally telling people they are luckier than you were isn't a great idea Zinga though I say this very kindly and gently to you. It's still a pretty hard situation and Martha's not feeling amazingly well so it's sort of immaterial though I know it can be hard when you perceive others have benefited from support you would have liked to have accessed. It's just not very relevant right now.

Martha, sorry to hear you are still feeling so unwell. I so hoped it would be better for you now.

I was signed off for four months after the 52 weeks and I was feeling much more well than you say you feel now, and was never hospitalised. It doesn't sound to me that you are well enough to be back at work just yet, untrained as I may be. I wish you hope and a way out of this misery for 2014,

[martha2013]

Its shit being at work, I can't concentrate and don't want to be there. Its shit at home too. I don't want to be anywhere. I am a cretinous waste of space. If only I could be brave enough to fix this.